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CHAPTER 13
It was so hard to live with no freedom. It was not easy to just see the darkness and you are struggling seeking for the light. It was hard to live if you do not even want to. It was hard to do everything that you are not even fond of. It was so freaking hard like you're in hell.
I covered my face with a white pillow and stopped myself from crying again. But I am not that strong to stop my tears from falling. And since I am just alone here in my room, I just let my sobs come out my mouth for me not to struggle from breathing.
It was been weeks when I choses to study at home but I could not focus myself on the lessons because something bad was stealing my mind which made me to not think clearly.
Even Jinx was confused because of my situation. Not that he do not know my problems and where I was suffering. I know he was getting tired of taking care of me because I always do the same thing. I do not eat that much and I prefer crying in the pillows.
I always sa
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