018: Wait and bleed

A few days had passed since I had followed Jakob. It was getting warmer and warmer, no wonder, after all it was the beginning of May and spring was in its full bloom. I looked sadly out of my window. How I missed Jake! I was just waiting to hear from him, but he didn't get back to me.

Why should he? After all, I made him understand again and again that he should kindly leave me alone. Of course, this also included deleting my cell phone number or not stalking me anymore. Just how stupid was I to push the man I loved away from me? It was obvious why I did it.

Nobody wanted to be seen by the person they loved as just some kind of trophy in their collection. I was no more for Jakob. I wanted to be more. So much more. Probably way too much. He probably didn't have the faintest idea how to treat women.

Either way, I couldn't really pass judgment on him. I didn't even know how he had spent the previous years of his life. All I could say for sure was that he felt unloved by Titian and still