I was currently in my room searching for a bathing suit. I wasn't chubby anymore, I had absolutely no fat. I was pure skin and muscle, and yet I was still self-concious.
After years of being called a cow, a waste of space, a fatass, well it shouldn't surprise me how insecure I get. But there's even time's when I try not to eat, thinking that it would help me lose weight like it had before out in the woods.
Each and everytime I try, I get caught and growled at by either Elijah, Joel or Cliff. My weight is my blind spot according to them. I find myself shaking my head dismissively at the thought. "Aha." I say suddenly, reaching for the smooth fabric of my navy blue bikini. I wiggle my hips in victory, a smile printed on my face. I close the bathroom door behind me as I step onto the cool tiles of the floor. I slip the T-shirt over my head and slip on the bikini top. There was no design on it, just like the bikini bottoms I slipped on. I bundled my previous clothes in my hand and walk back into my room, throwing them on the bed and grabbing a towel. "You guys ready to go?" I ask, meeting them in the living room. There was loud wolf whistles and I blush, sitting beside Elijah."Don't get too comfortable, we're about to head out. As soon as Rebekah gets here!" Joel yells the last part. I roll my eyes. "Nice. Who is she?" "She's just a friend of ours too. We all grew up together, attended the same pack school. She's nice too" Joel says. I had a feeling everyone from their pack would also be as nice as themselves. "Although I don't like her. She gets on my nerves too often." Joel added."Could you be any nicer to the girl? You're just mad because she beat your ass on her first try right?" I scowl at him. He scoffs. "She's a girl, of course I should be mad. I'm that childish." He says and it was his turn to roll his eyes. "I won't hesitate to hurt you if you're at all mean to her today." I smile at him . "Hey, be nice. He'll behave I'm sure." Cliff tells me, glaring at Joel and then grinning at me. I laugh shaking my head. Rebekah came downstairs in a bright red two piece bikini, and a black towel hanging from her arm. "Ready to go?" She smiled. The boys introduced me to her and she accepted my friendship at that instant. I ran up to her and linked arms. "Let's." I said and glared at Joel as they all stood up and followed us.
"No no no! Put me down!" I scream. And then the cold water splashes up and over my skin. I stood up gasping for air and smearing my eyes free of water. "Jerks." I shout and climbed up the muddy side of the lake and to the surface again. Cliff was laughing with Joel leaning on his shoulder, and Rebekah was laughing as well. I glared at the three of them.
I watched as Elijah swung on the long tight rope dangling from the tree and plundged into the water. As Cliff grabs Rebekah, her screaming away at him to let her go, I start to laugh. He throws her into the water, one of her arms tucked around her knees, the other was holding her nose as her blonde hair flies straight up in the air and she crashes into the water. I slowly step back and hide, creeping up behind them because using all my strength to chuck both Joel and Cliff in the water. It's a lot Hardee's using only one hand on each of them.
I snort, seeing heads pop up glaring. Rebekah still in the water, laughing just to their left. I ran and took a jump off the edge, landed close enough to them that they get a hide splash of water.It wasn't long before they wiped their eyes clear and started to splash me back. Smiling at Elijah, he lifted me onto his shoulders and I laugh, watching as Rebekah climbs on Joel. Cliff stood to our right, reffing the chicken fights. "Alright, one... two... three!"I was sitting on the grass when Rebekah came and sat down beside me. "Hey, having fun so far?" I bumped her shoulder. She laughs and smiles at me. "Yes. It's good to get out of the house, ya know?" She half frowned for a second. My brows furrowed.
"What's wrong?" I turn to face her better. She takes a sneak breath before saying, "I sorta found my mate." And I raise an eyebrow, "What do you mean sorta?" I ask. "I mean he hasn't realized it yet." She told me, frustration clear in her voice. My lips form an 'o' shape. "It's not like they'll be blind forever. They are bound to find out, something one person just discovers it before the other." I tell her and her eyebrows furrow. "Who is it anyways, why can't you just tell them?" I ask her. She looks at me with sad eyes. "Because it's Joel..." she trails off and I mumble "Oh shit," before I can stop myself. "Yeah. He practically hates me. Men don't take well to knowing their women are at all more successful than them... I guess I'm afraid he won't accept me." She tells me and I nod, understanding. "Don't worry. I promise you, Joel isn't like it." I assure her. "I have no way of knowing when he'll figure it out.That's got to be the worst part." She mutters and bump her shoulder again. "At least you know you've got some pretty good back up if anything goes to shit..." I admit and we both start to laugh, knowing just how true it really was. We turn to watch the boys.
They're climbing out of the water and up the rocks toward us, ear to ear grins on their faces and their hair soaking wet.Elijah met my eyes and gives me a wink. I quickly turn my head and stare out at the view.It was such a beautiful day."Gosh, I haven't had that much fun in such a long time." I tell them all, drying my hair with my towel as we walk in through the pack house doors. Elijah laughs and soon everyone inculding me, was too. We couldn't not be happy. "Glad we could contribute, babe. I'll see you guys in a few hours, Alpha stufff to take care of." Elijah tells us, kissing my forehead before walking upstairs to his office. "I'm gonna go get changed. Be down in a bit." I tell them and skip upstairs with Rebekah quietly behind me.She walks off down the hall to her room. I reach mine and close the door behind me.I start stripping off my wet bathing suit, letting it fall to the ground with a sloppy thud. I dried the rest of my body before pulling on my underwear and bra. I rustle through my drawers and pull out a T-shirt and Joel's carebear boxers. Sometimes I wonder what he watches on his own time. I shake my head, pull my hair into a clip and walk downstairs."I'd say you're about 5.. 6 meter
Jumping back I bowed my head. I'm sorry, Alpha. I didn't realize it was you. I tell him. He must have been on a perimeter run. He rises up, shaking the bits of leaves off of his fur. He walks toward me, using his snout to lift my head. He licks a spot above my eye that I assume was bleeding. When did that happen?Don't worry, babe. Nice job by the way.His words float through my mind and my wolf shivers. I started to walk through the trees and toward my back pack. Elijah grabs his bag from a tree near by and follows behind me.I shift, curling behind a tree. I hear him shift too. "How did you get to me so fast? And where's Cliff?" He asks, coming around the tree, slipping a shirt over my head. I pulled out a pair of underwear from my bag and slipped them on.I closed my eyes and opened them quick. No idea." I tell him with a laugh. He laughs in response. "That was some try. C'mon, let's get your cut cleaned up," I frown, no clue as to how I got it. "CLIFF. Pack h
I was breathing heavily, my body drenched in sweat and my face beat red. Elijah was asleep beside me. Holy shit,what just happened... no.I look over at him. His lips were parted slightly, he was so handsome... I press my thighs together. I can't do this, he's an alpha, my alpha. As quickly and quietly as I can, I climb out of bed and speed walk out of his room, into mine, slaming the door behind me. I lean my forehead against it. "What just happened?" I mumble aloud, my breathing still heavy.You know what just happened, you just had a very erotic dream about our Alpha.I hear my wolfs voice in my head and I groan, turning around to lay the back of my head against the door.How am I even supposed to look at him after this?I put my face into my hands and lean forward. I should have seen this coming, I should have kept a further distance from him because now, I've succumb to my feelings for him and can do nothing about it.I would never, could never tak
As soon as we entered that pack house, Elijah was in the kitchen, of course. I put a smile on my face and greeting him as I passed by before yet again, speed-walking to my bed room.Fuck. The only word going through my head.No way am I going to be able to do this whole distancing thing.He looked so.. good just now.There was a knock that made me jump. I didn't respond. "I am well away you're in there, Katerina. Just open the door." Elijah tells me. He was using his alpha tone and I felt myself cowering towards it on reflex. Ass.Soon enough he was in my room pulling me in for a hug and inspecting me at arms length. "Why did you run off like that" he asks me with a worried gaze. "Sorry, nothings wrong. I just got back from the trees. Seen Bekah for a bit, she showed me her gift." I grin, not at all feeling awkward. He sighs in relief."It's amazing what some people can do" he says, sitting beside me on the bed. "It is. It makes you wonder what's hiding
"Ha-ha!" I shout in victory and hop right back off. "I think you're just about ready to take on the world." He turns to smirk at me. I laugh and Joel does too. "You're a weird bunch." He says and I laugh before turning to Cliff again. "I'm gonna grab some water." I announce and stupidly stare at the floor, turning to walk toward the kitchen. I hit a hard chest in the process."Oops sor-" I start but when I see Elijah was there smiling at me and my breath caught in my throat. "Well hello there." He chuckles. "Hi." I laugh nervously. He pecks my lips and gives me smile. " I agree with Cliff. You are ready to take on the world. Which is why I wanted to talk to you about something." He tells me. I grin. "Alright, talk about what..." I ask, trailing off at the sad look in his eyes. "You better sit down, babe." He tells me and I do.Cliff and Joel were all ears listening carefully and so was I. "What is it?" I ask rudely, desperate for an answer. Well, our pack is about to get b
I started to laugh. The look of Joel soaked, head to toe, was amusing. I guess Bekah wanted him to get a little pay back from the teasing he gives her. I wasn't afraid anymore, of seeing Kol and my brother again.I was confident and somewhat afraid of my best friends power. Joel spits a bit of water out of his mouth, wiping his face with his hands. Cliff wipes his cheek from the droplets he got from just sitting beside Joel. I laugh again and feel Elijah's chest rumble too. I shouldn't worry, I shouldn't. I try to keep this in mind."Well then, do you think you're ready to face your fears when the time comes?" Rebekah asks me, ignoring what just happened. I thought about it. Was I ready?I would have to see my brother, my old pack. The ones who abused me and made me feel like I had no place in the world. And I would have to see Kol, his new potential mate and the faint trace of the mark he's left on her.I hear my wolf whimper. I frown into Elijah's chest. Could
"Well I gotta get going, pack stuff to take care of. Why don't you go hang out with Cliff and Joel when you're done? Invite Rebekah along too." He crawls over me and kisses me breathless. "Uh.. O-okay." I mutter at the want I feel and he leaves smiling. I start packing again, it takes me another hour by the time I was done. I quickly get dressed (outfit on the side) and head downstairs.There were a few pack members sitting around the living room. "Hey guys, have you seen Cliff and Joel?" I ask them. A girl I remembered as Kendra spoke up and told me they were out back. "Thanks." I smiled to her and walked through the kitchen and to the backyard."Oh, you're already out here." I grin and hug Rebekah. She laughs. "Yeah, was just practicing. What are you doing out here?" She asks me. I take a seat beside her on the porch. "I needed a break." I shrug. I turn and watch Joel and Cliff, they're doing rounds of training on the grass a few meters in front of us. I look up at the s
The mall was crowded and noisy. The moment we get to the doors, Cliff and Joel walk off ahead on their own in search of that new pair of shoes he wanted. Rebekah and I follow along behind them, stepping into the shoe store where Cliff is already trying shows on. He notices us and waves us over. "Alright, which ones?" He asks right away, holding up a red and black pair, and a black and grey pair of shoes. I shrug. "I like the black and grey ones." I tell him and he stares at both pairs again before nodding. He puts them back in their boxes and grabs the black and grey ones, walking up to the check out counter while we stay back at watch. Then all of a sudden there was a sweet voice surrounding us. "Joel! Hey, got your text." She smiles as she walks into the store and kisses him as she gets to his side. He smiles back. "Hey, I was hoping you'd make it." And instinctively I look at Rebekah.Oh shit.Joel was oblivious as to what was going on. He was wrapped up in his conversa