I spent the last few days at my house relaxing and waiting for my body to be at one hundred percent. While I was relaxing I was, unfortunately, visited by my “precious” childhood friend. He would bring me different types of gifts to help me get better.
The servants in my house found it cute how considerate he was being but I could only see him in a negative light. I will never fully trust him. I won’t trust anyone who is involved in a way with my death in the game. I have to be careful around them.
After a few days of me not doing anything, my 'father' sent me my usual tutor to make sure I was being kept up to pace with everything. From Aurelia's memories, she didn’t enjoy studying at all. She could never be good enough in her 'father's' eyes. Only her 'brother' was the perfect child so she always hid away from her tutor and never did her work.
Seeing as I am here now I will do something different. In my previous life, I had to keep my grades better than anyone if I wanted the best life. Not having anyone to support you and your education is difficult so you have to become someone that people want to support. No one cares about a child without parents that much.
I will be better than my dear older 'brother'. I don’t want my 'father' to praise me for what I am going to do. I just want to crush my 'brother' under my feet and become someone even better than him.
The day when my tutor came to my house, I was already sitting at my desk waiting for them to arrive. When I heard my bedroom door being knocked on I permitted them to come into my room.
I look at my tutor who just came into my room. It was a man who looked to be around twenty. I raised my eyebrow at him because I wasn’t expecting someone who is so built to be a tutor. His intimidating black eyes met mine and I could feel him judging me. His short brown hair was neatly styled to the back. He was wearing a simple suit that had one button undone.
“I see that you are ready to learn today Aurelia. I am surprised to see this.” My tutor sat in a chair that was near my desk. He put down different books on my desk and I looked at them with interest.
There were different books on all the things required for me to know before I can publicly go to school and make myself known to the rest of the important higher up people. There was also a book on magic and how to understand it.
That was another thing I enjoyed about this game. It was the fact that even though it was based in modern time people could still use magic but in a more modern way. Everyone can use magic when they reach the age of five. Rarer cases can use magic at sixteen.
The magic types in this world are water, fire, air, earth, light, and darkness. The strongest magic is darkness but it is also the most dangerous one since it can corrupt the user if they are not careful enough.
Light magic is something that people can use but not a lot. When someone does have light magic they are usually seen as some form of luck bringer or whatever bullshit some religious asshole tells everyone.
Aurelia can use dark magic and this doesn’t help with her relationship with other people. Her magic isn’t that strong but it can do some damage. My 'father' blames the fact I can use dark magic for the death of my mother. I do not see how that is even possible but why bother talking to stubborn people.
Aurelia often uses her magic to mess with the heroine who, not a huge surprise…, can use light magic. What a lucky thing for her. The creator had to make the villainess of the game have the “bad” magic so that the heroine was even better in the eyes of everyone.
Technically magic in this world isn’t bad or good. It depends on the people who use it. Aurelia's magic was bad because she was actively going against the heroine. But it could have been good.
Aurelia's magic isn’t that strong because she was too busy building up her image in school but I can make it strong so that no one will mess with me. If I have magic that is the strongest in this world then I will use it.
“Will we be learning about magic also today?” I was looking at the book about magic with interest in my eyes. I want to know how I can become stronger. I don’t have a lot of people on my side so I will have to protect myself.
“If we can get to it. We have to deal with the work that you didn’t do at all. With how much work it is, I will be surprised if we manage to talk about magic at all today.” My tutor slammed down a bunch of papers in front of me. I just look at it with blank eyes. I did more work than that so I am not worried.
My tutor was looking at me carefully, waiting for me to react negatively to the work I had to do but grew confused when he realized I was going right into the work. I could feel his confusion grow as I breeze through the work in front of me with no problem.
It wasn’t that hard for me, I just had to look through the books just in case I needed to be sure about the things I was going to put down as my answers. I put down my pencil when I finished the last paper of work and I turned to look at my shocked tutor.
“May we learn about magic now teacher. I want to get better at understanding my magic and getting stronger with it.” I couldn’t deal with my tutor being shocked at how fast I manage to finish my work, I want to learn about magic.
“Y-Yeah… Magic.” My tutor cleared his throat as he gained control of his expression again. “Aurelia, you know that your magic is based around the darkness. While darkness is usually seen in a bad way it can also be rather helpful. You can be able to blend yourself in the darkness, make a portal with your shadows to go anywhere, and once you are strong enough with your magic it can cancel out other magic from working against you.”
My tutor's face grew serious as he continued to speak to me. “ But this magic can easily control you if you give in to negative emotions. The stronger they are the more likely your magic will consume you and take over you. When that happens it will most likely be impossible to bring you back. So you have to be careful with your magic.”
I was listening to what he was telling me with a serious look on my face. My magic can be powerful but it can also be dangerous to me. I will have to figure out a way to make sure my emotions never get too much for me to handle. I don’t want to be my downfall.
“How can I get better with my magic?” I had to get better at my magic. I can not be weak in any form. I will be better than anyone so that no one will be able to do anything to me.
My tutor handed me another book. It was a completely black book. There was no title and there was only a lock on it that prevented me from opening it. I looked at my tutor confused, not understanding what I needed to do with this book.
“This book has spells that are based around your magic but they only show spells that suit your current level. You can’t currently open the book because your level with magic isn’t even close enough to see the low-level spells in the book. My first lesson with magic with you is for you to open this book.” I could only frown at my tutor as I held this book in my hand. So I have to open this book up just to get better with my magic.
In the game, all I had to do was minigames to increase my level of magic but I guess I have to do this the hard way. Doesn’t matter to me. I did harder stuff than this so I won’t give up.
“That is it for today's lesson. Aurelia, you surprised me with how quickly you did all the work. I guess you are a smart child. Don’t like studying but I'm smart nonetheless. I am also glad to see you are well, I was rather worried that you were never going to wake up. Take care of yourself.” My tutor rubbed a hand on my head and I could only look at him with slightly wide eyes. He took his hand off my head and put away all the books that he brought for the lessons and left my room.
I was left alone with my magic spell book in my hands. I was looking at it with interest but I knew that I shouldn’t mess around with it now. I should do this when it is night. When the darkness is the strongest. Hopefully, something will happen.
I put down the black book I was holding and decided to go to the library in my house to study more about the world I was in. It is good to learn about everything so that I won’t be surprised in the future. I can hopefully learn about the different princes in my library, if not I may have to use my dear childhood friend to gain information on them.
As I was leaving my room I didn’t notice that the black book that I placed on my desk was shaking a bit before it stopped moving again.
It was in the middle of the night and my only light source was a candle that I found in the house. I was sitting in the middle of my bedroom with my black book in front of me. I tried to once again open it but stopped once I realized it wasn’t going to budge.“Okay... From the books I read on magic and dark magic if I want to get started with it I have to give up something of myself… It must be talking about blood since I don’t know what else I could give up from myself.” I lift a needle that I stole from Mae sewing kit and stab myself in the finger with it.I held the finger dripping with blood over my black blood and let my blood fall onto it. My blood landed on the book and I looked at it with focused eyes, waiting for something to happen. I was getting irritated when nothing happened after a few minutes and was going to get off the ground when the candle in front of me went out.
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