"Are you really a robot?" I added to make myself stop thinking about it anymore or else I won't be able to sleep with this question. I even feel like I'm solving a puzzle made of sands and that's damn Impossible as hell to solve. This whole thing is making me out of my mind now and I might lose my sanity just because of this damn thing I don't wanna be crazy just because of thinking about this if he can just answer me right away. I saw how the side of his lips moved upward and turned into a mesmerizing smile. He wasn't expecting my question at all, I know that for it is even visible in his eyes. All of his emotions are reaching his eyes including the happiness in them.
Fuck it! Why are those emotions visible in his eyes if he's just a robot? What a huge question that I can ask him yet I know he'll only give me the same answer. But who the fuck will even believe his damn mysterious words? I'm getting insane, really. I don't know if I'll survive this if he'll be with me the who
"So, I shall take my leave now. I already want to take some rest without using any medicine for me not to be able to sleep. We both deserve to rest so I should be going now. I won't stay here all the time," I told him but I'm not asking for permission. I just don't want to be rude and just leave him here without him knowing. I can leave all by myself without asking for his permission. I'm just informing him and he should be thankful for the fact that I still respect him even though he has disrespected me all this time. Well, he's a robot, Heszhia, damn it! He won't even mind if you're rude when it comes to him and he won't get mad even though you'll disrespect him so many times just like what he did to you.Gosh, now I'm talking to myself? Am I even still sane or should I need to take some meds already to heal my brain and bring my sanity back to me? Well, I should really try it some other times before I get crazy because of him and his weirdness.&
My heart is still beating so fast and loud just by imagining myself being killed by them in the most painful ways that I can think of and it's giving me chills down my spine. I touched my neck and imagined it being cut by them slowly and mercilessly like wild animals wanting their prey to be killed perfectly. Damn, I'm already having goosebumps. I may be a warrior but I don't want to die without even being successful with anything. I'll accept my death the moment I have already reached my goals but not now. I won't let myself be such a weak lady, rather, I shod make them see that I can also make them kneel on me like how everyone treated them. I think it'll satisfy me seeing them beg for their lives but that's still not enough for everything that they did. This won't also be enough if I'll take it as a payment for all the lives that they took including my mother's.I held his hands when I felt the ground shaking so hard, it's like an earthquake but I know that it's not... It'
I followed him to the room that I assumed this is where he's staying at. Oh, wait. Of course, he isn't sleeping for he's just a robot so why does this have a bed, bathroom, and clothes? Robots don't sleep, I'm sure of that but why does this room seem to be already used by him? Why is this seem to be made for him to sleep on? I can see how messy it is, that means he's sleeping here. Is he fucking sleeping and taking a bath? Seriously? A robot like him does this kind of stuff? That's damn impossible! Is he making me a fool now? Or is my mother already insane to even make a robot like him?I don't want to think about it but I just hope that he's not making a fool out of me and he's just acting and making me believe that he really is a robot even though it's not. I don't know but I think what I'm afraid of is true. I want to trust him yet these trust issues of mine are taking over me that I can't even decide on whom should I trust without asking for its permission. I was used to
“Don’t move!” I ordered him like I’m his master and he should obey everything that I say. I just want to know something and this is the only way to find that out- I mean this can be a crazy way but I still want to do this. I'm really having a hard time believing everything and I want to satisfy myself and prove it to myself on my own.Gladly, he did what I said and stood there like a statue. He wasn’t moving while I was walking towards him and observed his body. Then I moved closer to touch his skin and I was right, it’s was the same as mine but it’s as hard as what every robot has. It looks like it was made of pure metal but this one is indestructible. I'm not that sure though. This can also be faked but I'll give him the benefit of doubt for now. I don't know why but maybe it's because he knows someone who can make me believe him just by telling her name. It's either he's telling the truth or he's just manipulating me
"When will we leave this house of yours?" I asked him the moment his eyes landed on me while he was holding a hologram that contains an illustration of a time machine including every part and function of it. I guess he trying to find out how to perfectly control it and its weaknesses just for everything to be fine.I didn't bother looking at it for I have already studied every inch of it and I know he did too. But why is he still reading it if he can just save it in his mind? I know he memorizes everything for he is a robot. He'll just need to see it and memorize it afterward without even reading it but why does he need to do this? Damn, I really can't understand him most of the time. Maybe because my mom really is hard to read that even I won't be able to do so. It's just that Vasileìas was able to outsmart her using her weakness which is me. If maybe she isn't carrying me that time, she would have been alive today but I won't be here too. I can ne
We just let the days pass by observing the moves that Vasileìas will make and we did manage to figure out the pattern of their moves. We were like stalkers but this time, it's a lot harder. They're damn too powerful and I'm afraid that they might be able to track us down because of this but Cayden just seems so calm about this. Looks like he's not worrying about what might happen. I guess he just knows what he's doing for him to be this calm which is impossible for me to feel. I'm taking everything seriously and so he is but we both have different strengths. I guess that's because my mom didn't install any emotions to worry. I hope I have that too to be confident about our every plan but I can't help but worry. The last thing that I want is to fail and I know failure can't be helped that's why I'm always conscious unlike him who's overconfident with his ideas. Damn him!He even has the guts to tell me to calm down when it's everyone's life who is at
Cayden... He's sometimes out for the whole day but he's reasoning out that I shouldn't know about that yet. He's telling me to just stay blind about what he's doing and that he'll just tell it to me when the time comes. When and where the fuck does he want to tell me that? When we're both already dying or when we're already in the middle of the war and the both of us is supposed to get killed? Damn him! He's damn unreadable and that's what I hate about this invention of my mom right here.I can even forget sometimes that he's a robot because I think he's a normal human who is always full of secrets and mysteries which I can't and will never figure out just because I want to. I don't know but it feels like he really is making me think that way for some reason. He's not easy to read and he can even fool me if he wants to that's why I don't know what I should do anymore. If not just for the pieces of information he gave me about my mother, I wouldn't have bel
It was this day... The day where we were supposed to leave in an unfamiliar journey that will have. It's not just a journey where you'll leave a country or place using a car, ship, or anything but this one... It's different because this time, we'll be going against the present world and go to the past. I'm excited and at the same time afraid of what might be the result of this plan of ours and what the world is planning against us. I know this world won't go easy on us even though we're already in a different era. And there, we don't know where we will start and how we'll end everything but we'll figure it out. We can do it as long as we trust each other which is hard for me but of course, I'll do it just for this mission to end with the last laugh in us.We'll both be fine but I didn't say we'll live easy there. It's not like we're going on a fucking vacation to relax. This time machine is not something to just play with. Rather, we're on a mission where