Hurt by the wind, I ask for strength to the floor. I am witnessing death which I don't deserve. I know.
Light in the magnetic field. I am still determining what the impact is. Light can be dispersed or concentrated to a point by a magnetic field. Sound, too, is impacted by the magnetic field. I would think so. There is not much sound in my room. Light seems to control the floor. It may be natural or due to the strong magnetic field in my lab. In the region where I stood, there was a substantial magnetic pull on my body. The frog hops a few millimetres less in my lab than he dies outside. What is interesting to me is that I have started eating less since the time I introduced this giant magnet here, but nonetheless, I feel more energetic.My brain works at an altogether different wavelength after this magnet is there in my lab space. Am I attributing everything around me to a magnetic pull? But then everything else has stayed the same in the past few days. I even felt that the storm that hit the city failed to hit me here because this magnetic field was repelled all the more elsewhere. Or did I cause the storm to happen in the first place? No, my experiments on a death cure are still far from success, I know. I repeat my inclination to understand the magnetic field around me that richly holds me.What I don't understand is, am I understanding? Is there a ghost supporting my intellect from behind? Could she be Amy after being dead? But my experiments have started giving sound speculations after her death. Can ghosts really help or deter human thinking? Ghosts are the remaining energies left out after complete bodily death. If it's energy and it's free. If it has no body. It can go for free anywhere. No one has ever before talked to ghosts in a scientific lab. Ghosts never so openly supported scientific understanding and research. But what if they are doing so now? The past happenings need not always be in conformity with the present. That's the reason I repeated every science experiment in my lab. But why will ghosts so exhaustively support my cause? Why will ghosts open unreachable records for me? I am a substitute for none other in research around the world. Why am I being helped by ghosts? Why me? Why so?The magnetic field was enhanced in my lab when I dropped some water on my magnet. Does the magnetic field of the earth also become stronger during the rainy season? Is it also so that underground water is a must for a strong magnetic field? Earlier, we didn't, but with scientific innovations, we are quickly exhausting underground water. Will this reduce the magnetic field? Just as my lab's magnetic pull didn't let storms affect me more, so will a reduced magnetic field cause more storms or hurricanes in a region. Is the lack of underground water the cause of all this? Nature usually does what is missing. Does this signify the reason why there is heavy rain during the storm? Lack of water underground results in the lowering of the earth's magnetic field. Due to less water to strengthen the earth's magnetic components underneath. Lack of the right level of magnetic field is resulting in storms and hurricanes. Nature takes it all as a lack of water and causes massive rainfall, resulting in floods. Could this theory be the cause of hurricanes? But wait, why do I do this research? For me to live forever, I will need a good environment, too. What if I fix a huge magnetic ball on my triangular ceiling? Then, there should be no storms, hurricanes, or floods around me.Remembering Amy, I end this talk on a polite note of possibility. Anything impossible can always change in its possibility. I don't give up differences in race, colour, or creed, for the storm in anyone's life is not worth a repeat. To be adjustable in rhythm. I am not at peace with myself. This thing hurts me less than the thought of the death of all my loved ones. Why do we lose people to death? If it is correct, then why aren't others fighting with me against the death rule? An acceptable loss is all that stands in mind. How can a failure be so good? Then, it is pervasive, spreading everywhere. Still, no one rejects this loss like me. Why? Why am I alone facing this storm of no-cure death as a misfit? Why don't others reject it? Why don't others feel the depth of it? Why don't we question nature, which is allowing for this loss?I have passed my study time. I am still into books. There is no mention in any ancient book of how scientists worked hard thousands of years ago to fight death. As if fighting with death was never a reality of any lab way back in the far, far past. But why so? Why? Why do they never question the atrocities of nature we live in? Why is every loss or rule by nature acceptable without attempts to make things better?I am hurt by the storm within. The magnetic field seems to need fixing at that. Hey! What do I see? As I came really close to the high source of the magnetic field, my thoughts of negativity came out of my mind. I discovered something in this misfit. When I was standing at a distance from the magnet, I had mainly negative thoughts about life and death. I had a lot of aggressive moods. When I moved closer to the magnet by walking slowly, my negative thoughts started disappearing. The intensity of negative thoughts in my mind indeed declined. And as I stood a bit near the magnet, I felt very happy. I am happy with the thought that I have the facility, health and a little money to work on research and defeat death. Wow! Isn't this a fantastic thing about this huge magnet?What if the world drives me insane? There has to be some level of insanity in you from starting for the world to drive you insane. I am revolutionising science here, but the world considers me disharmonious. There is a privilege for everything in the little you have. But as you grow in your wants, you begin to expect more. Expecting more is not the same here as deserving more. You might not even deserve little, but you adore more. You want to resemble a few rich not like many more. You must acknowledge defeat for progressing for you being limited. You don't throw stones on the other you disbelieve.I am researching imagination. Einstein said imagination was a superior target of intellect. He believed that. I do believe it too. My imagination keeps me spellbound in my dreams. I realise little has more and more has nothing that can repair me from within. Life's infinite goal begins with a single step but needs giant intellectual leaps. That's what my medicine for killing death away from
What sweetness does to my mind as a researcher, I am exploring thoroughly. But it does improve my performance, my thinking ability, and duration markedly. It lowers my wounds of past feelings. It helps me understand many scientific concepts with renewed speed. It builds me up from stone to sculpture. I would love to redeem and dream about.I am not alone in this corner. There are now a few more women with missing men. They may be in such a happy swing of life, with no bondages I applied to my wife. I have been rarely in the cafe with my wife. I surely didn't hate her, but it was more a matter of money and time I needed to spend. How much more will I need to save on today's meal to have a coffee tomorrow, too. This money is considered more important than my research for the people of my own society. Jesus was certainly not the only man hurt by his own men around. I experience similar blows from people who surround me. I was happier with a wife than I am with none. All dead, as if none
Died young! no, no, no, I cannot lose my dear ones to death. I will find a death cure. The next day, I went to the office and resigned; I took carefully the little money they gave me as pay. I was happy again and forgot the yell as spit on my face. I was back in my laboratory again. Thus, I saved a plant with alkaline water. New! I was too happy with the newness of my ideas. I was shining bright, though only in my own eyes. I was dancing away from the last grieves and growing joyously though fearful of falling money from my hands. I am at that small coffee shop. I am happy, too. I sing a song this way and am so glad, too! I am delighted, too. I was delighted too with my wife. Today, I was alone, so what? I am still excited, too.“I need not know me To compare with Anyone around me People left me to my own loneliness.As if I was never once amongst there.There is still pain in my heart.How can I expect death as the returnof the efforts I toil for?”Aptitude, arise, localise, real
I was as if in my dream. I recollected how much blood came out of Amy's face just before she died. There was so much blood that I could hardly see her face. Blood protects us from dehydration. Almost all terminally ill people were emitting vast amounts of blood. This means they were all dehydrated to a certain level. If I take out all water from the ocean, nothing remains, not even the fish's life. That discovery was new to me. If Salt was removed from the ocean, would its water evaporate any sooner? Nature, nurture, life, light! I wish I could redefine life by an altogether different angle extension. There is hope, somewhere kept near to me. I need to struggle, but there is so much more around me to find it. My laptop, for instance, my drawing sheet, is waiting for me. I am indulged in basic information collection about life to understand what's opposite of death. What it's like stepping in death? I have never fully known.Was I planning suicide? Certainly not! I just thought if I c
This new day too, I was again with the last days some thoughts – Why we should not educate kids and know what they have to tell/speak…Why should science not be the first school subject at age 7 or 9? Because the brain tells us the logic which we are unable to gather info otherwise.Let's create a quest and feed on the creation of all knowledge, this time without brainwashing or manipulation by any book. Maybe we will know what has never been known nor experienced any other way before.Creating ice cream from a parlour is not possible, but creating a beautiful, happy you in an ice cream shop is possible.Let's create knowledge. Let's invent new. Make sure you don't walk down the street but instead climb up high. That's life. That' creates the right sound.We cannot specify what is wrong at this level of no experimental data. But we know things need to be changed. We need to create at least a little more from more. But, why can't we grow extremes in our minds? Is our brain limited by t
I know it hurts being rich. You feel that all your friends are selfish. There is diplomacy even at home. You hurt yourself with limited and grow rich, but you cannot forget the floor you come in from. “This is life, dear!” Accept it before the world and family reject you. Riches even enable you to grow on life's floor. A great work of knowledge can be spread on a greater ground just by money. I have witnessed this, for I have seen.Next I wrote:What is that magnetic field at which a drop of water changes its drop-like- shape? If I could know all this, I would be able to invent life on Mars. I kept a lot of considerable magnets in my laboratory. I took them in different alignments, shapes, and sizes. I then kept this magnet system near a drop-by-drop falling water from a tap. Wow! I noticed a slight change in the form /shape of falling water (dropping from the tap). I noticed it changing repeatedly when I changed the magnetic system near the tap. I realised that the shape of a drop o
Part I I doubt every word of Einstein. I doubt every word of Newton. Why should I agree without experimenting, thinking myself, why should I follow? I am no longer a very religious person. The reason I left religion behind in my life was I didn't want to follow anyone word by word. Then why should I accept the same approach of science? Hurt is not an abnormal response to a genuine area of pain. You are not mad when you complain. You aren't futile in your targets when you put the best in you. Why should I follow scientists in science? Free me, hey, sky of all bondages! Restrictions, beliefs! Free me sky of every bounding! Let me be not only superficial but completely free. We are not advocating something here. We want to avoid giving a part of our wealth in return like religion does want. We want you to think and grow! We want you to think of growth. We want you to grow your thoughts! We want your thoughtful approach to result in your overall holistic development! Understand the unde
When life stumbles On a stone I don’t get a picture of a tomb anymore. I know I have grown!I believe I will grow. Death cannot kill me anymore. Death cannot kill me anymore. A world of advanced stature awaits me! As I multiply, I will be infinity one day. I won’t die nor decay in my grave. I will fight for life. I will fight death on its way. Hey! I won’t die in any evil way. I need to live long. I have no greed but joy in living long. I too should see the world advancing beyond the hold of any rope or sword. I too, should experience peace in its growth. I be lavish is not the need. I am surviving is enough for me. I am surviving is enough for me. I do not want to leave for the grave. Hey, do not ever dig any grave, ever again. I saw a dream of courtesy to development. The advancements that could speak. I will be rich. I will be rich. I will be rich in the years of life I live. In the moments of good times I witnessed, I will be rich. I will be rich not like a politician will be!