I couldn’t recall how much I cried for a few days because of that. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari, or what triggered them back, but the memories kept flowing like a river that could not be stopped. And along that, I could feel surges of emotion that I could not name. Halo-halo ang nararamdaman ko, and I don’t know if I could even contain all of them. I don’t even know how many days it has been. I was only brought meals inside my room and was taken care of. Minsan binibisita ako nina Daddy at Tita Faureen sa kwarto, but I don’t have the energy to talk to them. When I look at my father, all I can do is cry. Kaya nang lumabas ako sa kwarto, they were all surprised.“Paris? How are you feeling? I should’ve just brought you some food for–!” Napatigil si Tita Faureen sa pagsalubong sa akin nang mapansin niya kung ano ang nakakuha ng atensyon ko pagbaba ko ng hagdan. My lips parted at the sight of tons of flowers in the living room. Some are withered, and some are being saved by Tita
For how long could you settle into a relationship that has been choking you? Like a shackle, it has been holding you, preventing you to leave, making you stay no matter how toxic it has been. But I guess, there’s no way out of a prison that you voluntarily went in. There's no way out of the person you love no matter how toxic it is.It’s because I loved him. I loved him from the bottom of my heart kaya kahit gaano na kasakit, hindi ko siya kayang bitawan. Hindi ko alam kung paano. At hindi ko kayang gawin.Back then, I could still remember his courage, his kindness, and his humor that made me fall in love. I could still remember the moments we shared. It was the fastest, yet the strongest I fell in love with.But as times went on, he changed. He became possessive. He hid me from the world when he knew I craved freedom. It’s like he pulled me out of the dungeon of my father, yet, he pushed me back into the abyss way deeper. He put me in a cage much worse than where I’ve been. And it h
“We're doomed,” Markus said when I entered the office. Taas-kilay ko siyang tinitigan habang sabay kaming naglalakad papasok. What does he mean by that?“I'm doomed for life, Markus Axle. Sa tingin mo ba may kakatakutan pa ako?” I asked dahil alam niya naman kung gaano kagulo ang buhay ko ngayon.“Dapat! Dahil ako rin ay meron pa!” he said. “Goodness, at bakit ka ba pumasok nang ganyan ang suot? That dress of yours will add fuel to the damn fire!”Wala sa sariling napatawa ako habang tinitingnan ang suot na fitted beige dress. It looks nothing formal. Parang pupunta lang sa bar. Well, that’s what I actually intend to portray. “Do I look like I care?” I asked. “Besides, wala na naman akong sisiraing image. Our engagement alone can save my ass. It saves yours too,” natatawang sabi ko habang naghihintay kaming bumukas ang elevator. However, he groaned like he had other, or bigger problems than that.“That’s our problem! My hunch tells me that it’s the reason why we’re called here. I thi
“I told you, Markus! I'm not damn drunk! It's just a few shots of tequila!” sigaw ko sa kanya nang pinipigilan niya akong umalis sa bar nang mag-isa. “I know!” he exclaimed before he threw me inside his car. “And I trust Chancellor kaya hindi kita pipigilan. Pero ihahatid kita ro'n, hmm?”He pushed my forehead using his index finger before he closed the door. Wala na akong sinabi at nag-seatbelt na lang.Damn it. I badly want to see Chancellor right now. Iniisip ko pa lang na magpapakasal ako sa iba, mababaliw na ako. On top of that, I… I am sure that I will never get to see him again kung magkataon.And I couldn't swallow the bitter truth.Ever since Dad knew about my relationship with Reese, and the other issues we were involved in, he did his best to refrain me from dating other men. Kung kaya nang makilala ko si Chancellor… I became so afraid to fall in love with him even though I clearly know that we're on the same page.True to his words, nang tumigil ang sasakyan, parang mas
“So, Chester, your name is rising pretty fast in the industry since you took over the company. That’s quite impressive,” Daddy praised Chester habang kumakain kami ng lunch.Meanwhile, I couldn’t even raise my gaze dahil sa kaba. My mind is very clouded, at hindi pa magandang… ramdam na ramdam ko ang titig sa akin ng pinakamatanda sa tatlo. Chester Lancelot Del Fuego was staring at me angrily like I did something fucking horrible! Bakit ganoon siya makatitig? Dahil ba sa nangyari kagabi?Ang kapal naman ng mukha niya kung ganoon! Last time I checked, he was the one who introduced himself as Chancellor! Kaya kung may dapat mang magalit sa aming dalawa, ako iyon! He tricked me! He lured me! He kissed me and… it was… I cleared my throat at the thought of it. I wouldn’t say I didn’t enjoy it, pero kahit na! He should’ve known that I was looking for his brother! And I… I can’t believe I haven’t differentiated them.But now, I think I know how it goes.“Thank you, Sir. Well, honestly, I ha
I moaned softly when his kiss went deeper. I couldn’t have a damn time to process anything dahil sa patuloy niyang paghalik sa akin. Chester cupped my cheeks and pulled me closer to deepen the kiss. At kung hindi pa kami parahong hinihingal, hindi niya pa ako lulubayan.Fuck… w-what was that?When I opened my eyes, I met his pitch-black pair of eyes. I can see how the lights reflected on it, and it looked stunning. But unlike others, his eyes were blank. Almost like it does not hold any emotion at all. And it bothered me seeing that way.“Still looking for Chancellor?” he asked in a seductive tone as he smirked. He then licked his lips, which made me roll my eyes.“Umalis ka nga riyan,” I said and pushed him back to his damn personal space. “Halik ka nang halik, hindi naman tayo close,” I whispered as he laughed and continued driving. This bastard.“Where should I drop you off?” he asked.Honestly, I don’t know. Right now, I have nowhere to go. And I’m definitely not going home. Ayaw
Wala na akong sinabi nang ihatid niya ako kagabi sa bahay. Gladly, it was already midnight kaya wala nang gising pa para pagalitan ako sa ginawa kong pagwa-walk out.But true to his words, Chester arranged a breakfast meeting for our family. Nagsisisi tuloy ako na nag-inom ako kagabi. Kaya kahit gaano kasakit ang ulo ko, wala akong magawa.Fuck. He was with me last night. Dapat ginawa man lang niyang dinner ang meeting na ito.“So, you’re really accepting the marriage, huh?” Fiona asked habang kaming dalawa pa lang ang nasa loob ng van.I lifted my gaze and stopped putting on my lipstick. I really hate her. Sa bawat pagkakataon, wala akong ibang gustong gawin kung ang sabunutan siya. We barely even talk, and when she strikes a conversation, palaging para mang insulto.“Paano mo naman nalaman agad? News slaps bitches that fast, huh?” I laughed and closed my compact mirror. Like what I expected, her teeth gritted at namula ang kanyang mukha. Na parang kulang na lang ay may lumabas na u
“How can I know? Hindi ka naman nagkukwento.”“You don’t have to know. All you have to do is stare at me… and remember that I am Chancellor. Alright? I am the only Chancellor, Paris. I am Chancellor.”When I opened my eyes, I immediately gasped for air. Para akong tumakbo nang napakahaba dahil sa matinding tibok ng puso ko. What the fuck happened? Where the hell am I?!“Paris… Paris, are you okay?” Chester went inside the room and immediately attended to me.He pat my back as he called someone to attend to me pero hindi ko iyon kailangan ngayon. All I need is a damn space and time to think.Anong nangyari? Why was that so hard to swallow? At bakit may parang nagpapaulit ulit na panaginip sa akin. I couldn’t really picture it. All I can recall is that I had this conversation with someone. Was it Chancellor?Maybe. Paulit ulit niyang sinasabing siya si Chancellor. But I… I couldn’t recall why. I couldn’t recall when I had this conversation with him.After the nurse checked me, pumasok