We sat watching each other for a good five minutes. She was studying me, and I was studying her, and wondering what the fuck? She couldn't talk yet but the baby sounds she made as she pointed at my face or patted my cheek were music to my ears. I'd already checked her over to make sure she was okay, that she had all her fingers and toes, and I wasn't sure what the fuck she was looking for, but she was looking me over pretty hard herself, and babbling away. "I'm your daddy." Those words sounded foreign and I had to clear my throat after saying them. She patted my cheek and grinned with about six teeth showing. How the fuck do babies do that shit? I didn't even know her, but already she was everything. Just like her fuck of a mother. I'm not thinking about that female, not now, I just wanted to concentrate on my daughter. Shit, I needed shit, didn't babies need food and shit, and clothes she needed clothes. I picked up the phone in a near panic just as t
My kid started to fret so I took her from Dev, who had been in the middle of cooing at her. She stuffed her hand in her mouth and looked at her daddy all miserable and shit and I forgot everything else. "What's wrong with her?" I looked at the others who were all stumped. I was tempted to call one of the females but I didn't trust their asses right now. "I think that means she needs changing." Quinn tried sniffing her. "Get the fuck away from her." I moved her out of the way. "Fuck is wrong with you?" "Language." Lo studied her like he knew what the fuck he was talking about. When she started eating my shirt I think we all knew what was going on. "She's hungry, what the fuck am I supposed to feed her? I don't have anything in the house." I was about to go into total panic as my brothers threw around ideas. "How about asking her mother?" I gave Con the death glare and headed for the fridge. I showed her an apple but she just kicked her legs and fussed even hard
"Are you fucking kidding me? You're gonna tell me what my kid needs when you kept her away from me all this time? You had my kid out in the fucking world and I didn't even know she existed. I move across the globe, putting my life in danger to make the world a better place for other people's kids, and never knew that I had one of my own to safeguard, to protect. You can get the fuck outta my face now before this shit gets ugly." I didn't care about her slumped shoulders or the tears that were gathering in her eyes. She fucking gutted me. Only someone who had no fucking regard for me could've done something like this to me; fuck her. How was it possible to hate and want someone at the same time? This whole thing was so confusing. I hadn't really had time to take it all in yet, to put things in their right perspective. All I knew right now is that I was a dad. I had a little life that was a part of me to take care of for the rest of my life. That was go
Did she really hate me this fucking much? The fuck I care. Oh you care. Shut...the fuck...up. "Is it, are you sure about that brother? Do you remember where we were two days after you two split? We went off the grid for four and a half months." Logan had a point but still, there were a million ways she could've got word to me, especially afterwards when we'd been back on domestic soil. "I don't buy that shit, she had ample time, two fucking years and she doesn't say a word. That's part of me in there, the best fucking part and I wouldn't have known about her if you hadn't called that..." "Hey!" They all got in my damn face. "Fine, had you not needed that she devil's help I wouldn't know I have a daughter. I don't care what any of you say, she was fucking wrong and I never did anything to her to deserve this shit. My fucking kid spent a whole fucking year on this earth without me there to look out for her." Each time I thought of it I wanted to wring her
She soon left thank fuck before he became postal, and they started their shit with me again. Thank fuck the baby woke up again and they got distracted. "I know we have to deal with shit, but I'd like to take some time to get to know my daughter. I'll do my part around here of course, that goes without saying, but what say we table any heavy conversations about me and the...me and her mother for another time." "Hardheaded fuck." Lo pushed up from his chair. "Or we could do it now and I could tell you to get her out of here before I snap and break her fucking neck, choose your pick." I went after my kid and left them to see themselves out. I was over the shit already. It had only been a few short hours, though it felt like a whole lifetime had passed, but it wasn't enough time for people to be hounding me like I had shit all worked out already. "It's okay little darling, daddy's here." She was muddy so I set up the laptop near her new changing table, and went to
They made a beeline for their niece and started making kissing noises. Babies, like women, turn men into idiots. If I had my camera I'd YouTube this shit. I finally caught on to what he'd said since it felt like my body was moving but my mind was still playing catch up. "Why what's wrong with you two?" Like I didn't know. "Our women kept us up half the night complaining about your shit. Now I'm all for you standing up and all that, but not when it interferes with my shit if you know what I mean." Lo looked like he'd slept rough. "What he means is that when a man grows accustomed to a certain reception from his woman, he doesn't like being thwarted by a fucking nonexistent headache on account of his brother is being an unreasonable asshole." Con covered the baby's ears as she nibbled on Ty while her formula was being heated. "Damn bitch made one and two, it was only one night, grow a pair." Ty held Zakira protectively like he expected them to snatch her
He fought me to death about every damn thing until I wanted to drown him in the one foot of water in the tub. For someone who had spent exactly four hours in the presence of a baby, he sure was an expert. "Ty, it says no tears, it's not gonna hurt her." The ass actually tried to put some of the shampoo in his eyes to check. "Give me that jackass." I snatched the bottle from him and lathered up her hair while he grumped. "You know those people lie just to sell shit, fine if it hurts her though, we'll sue." I wasn't even paying him any mind because he'd obviously lost his. When her bath was over he rifled through the bag of stuff that I'd ordered on line and had Vicki Lynn pick up. "See, I knew it, nothing but girly shit." He settled on a pink and brown set and fought me to dress her. I wasn't sure what the fuck was up with him, but I was gonna start taping this shit. When we'd deemed her decent enough, and my poor kid was looking like what the fuck daddy, we headed back
The brainstorming begun, and we all threw around ideas. There was no immediate worry because we all recognized the call for what it was, a fishing expedition. On calls like that you listen out more for what's not being said than to what is. So far we knew that the men we'd released hadn't told them anything useful, more to the point, the one we were trying to turn hadn't spilled his guts. That could mean also that the chief was on the up and up since he was our man inside and knew what we were up to, but Lo was right, with what was at stake we needed more than that. "That phrase, 'my friend' that's middle eastern, most of them say it like that so that's no help, but who do we know or have had run-ins with in the past that would feel comfortable enough to call us like that? And that knows about our relationship with the commander?" My mind was still working thank fuck, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to switch gears as easily as I used to, but that hadn't