Demons of a Cheater

EVERYONE would argue that first love never dies— its memories and lessons would remain like a handprint on someone's soul.

Gano'n ang nangyari sa akin at sa relasyon ko kay Nick. It was already three years ago, but I could still remember everything. I could recall the happiness, contentment and the risks I took for him. I could still reminisce all the guilt, pain, and betrayal I felt because of him. Everything lingers. Everything stays.

Nawala ako sa sobrang pagmamahal ko kay Nick— sinira ko ang sarili ko. Walang natira sa akin kasi ibinigay ko sa kaniya ang lahat. I let him do everything he wanted to do to me, to my body, to my heart and to my morals. I became everything he needed and he wanted me to be.

It was a toxic relationship. It was so morally wrong and consuming to commit but I still did. In exchange of this mistaken decision was the anxiety, mentally and emotionally, that I always experience.

Si Nick, ang unang lalaking minahal ko at pinag-alayan ko ng lahat ay naging demony