ELIOT
I never meant it to happen. I just wanted to kill that bastard's baby, not her.I felt two snaps when I was about to dive into a long night in my office, as I usually did for over a month. It was bond-breaking, and I knew they were not from my men because I didn't get any report about an attack or someone dying, except Hannah and her baby. And the news came soon from the hospital that they were dead. Hannah and our baby were dead.I finally could feel a bond between us, which confirmed her words that the baby was mine. Still, it didn't lower my hatred for her for cheating on me. But it didn't matter anymore, as they were dead now. They were no longer with me in this world anymore.I couldn't describe my feelings right now. Anger, disappointment, sadness, and guilty mixed into one. But one thing. I didn't feel any happiness at all. I now knew the truth, and it was already too late even for just feeling them all.I shouldn't be here. I should be with Hannah since we promised to stay together forever. Yet I let her die alone. I was such a coward, wasn't I?I knew Kai, my wolf, agreed with me this time. He always sided with her, even at the time I caught Hannah and Ken sleeping on the same bed, naked. He told me to hear her explanation, but I chose to ignore him.Maybe he was right all this time. Maybe Hannah didn't cheat on me, and, as she said, she didn't know why she ended up with him. Although it was true, I shouldn't torture her and kill my own baby. I should give her proper rejection so we could move on in peace.However, it was too painful to accept. My body was hurt, and so was my soul. And her death crushed the fragile side of me.--I drank half a bottle of whiskey in one gulp. I didn't need glass because it only tortured me to have it little by little. And I wanted to see my Hannah soon, look at her beautiful face, staring at her cerulean eyes, and have her warm smile to calm me down. And the easiest way was to let my mind fly to her.I took another gulp, and in an instant, a bottle was already empty. But strangely, I still couldn't find my lovely Hannah. Where was she?Maybe this wasn't enough.Thus, I put the empty bottle randomly and trudged over to the cabinet, where I placed a lot of booze inside. My alcohol tolerance was pretty high. But I only had them occasionally as my Luna wanted me not drunk to carry out my responsibility as Alpha.Luna.My Luna.My Hannah.I opened the second bottle and drank it fast to hold back my tears. And by the time I breathed in deep, I had emptied over half of it. I blinked at the surrounding, searching for figures I missed so much. Still nothing. Why didn't Hannah show up? Was she mad at me?She must do. There was no reason she wasn't angry at me. I hurt her. I hurt both of them.Again, I gulped the second drink, and in a minute, I already had a third one in my hand and was ready to savor it. Fucked the Alpha's job. I needed to have this to meet her."Alpha!"I faintly heard someone calling me, also a familiar scent. But somehow, it couldn't calm me down."Eliot!" Casey quickly reached for me and tried to take the bottle in my hand. "Enough!" She shouted again after the bottle was in her hand.I let out a guttural growl, knowing she succeeded in stopping me, and I was angry about that. No one could order an Alpha."Stop drinking this. You've got what you want. That whore is dead, and you're now free of her. No one-"She couldn't finish her words as I launched a quick movement and cornered her between the wall and me. My hand was on her neck, trying hard not to crush it while rage took over me. "Don't dare to call her like that!""Why not? Isn't she like that? She cheated on you, so she's a whore. Everyone calls her by that." Casey confronted me with eyes flaring at me as if telling me the truth.Yeah, I knew what my people called Hannah. A whore, cheater, and more. It was ultimately different from before—they used to accept her wholly and happily. That was why I had to lock her so she couldn't hear them. Only I had the right to say those words to her.I gritted my teeth hard as my grip on her neck tightened. I hated her speaking like that about my Hannah!"Alpha... you're... hurting... me," Casey said word by word in difficulty. She looked in pain, but I didn't care. "Please... don't... do... this. I'm... your... mate."Hearing those words only made my anger grow more intense. The mate bond used to calm me down. My mate's bond with Hannah was like that.Strangely, it didn't work the same way with her. I didn't feel anything except the scent, which wasn't special anymore. And my wolf agreed with me."E... li... ot."And that was the climax. I felt hatred surging out of my body as I threw myself away from her.I heard her coughing, but I didn't turn around, instead proceeding to the cabinet to grab the... I couldn't remember how many times I took whiskey from here. Not that I cared to count because I didn't. What I cared about was only to see my Hannah."Don't ever enter this room without my permission," I warned her without giving my attention back to her."Alpha."I ignored her as I began opening the bottle."You need to stay alive for our union ceremony tomorrow."I didn't hear or pretended not to listen to that and started drinking the whiskey."Eliot."My grip on the bottle tightened when she called me by my name. I never liked that."Please help me be your Luna and-""You'll have that." I cut her fast. I was afraid listening to her longer would trigger my anger back.Silence. There was the only sound of me gulping whiskey."Can't you love me as you did to Hannah?" Her voice sounded begging, but I still gave her my back."You'll be my Luna and produce my heir. Just that."There was no way I could replace Hannah in my heart. I placed her there long before I knew she was my mate, and erasing her was impossible."Eliot." She used the same tone, but I stood in my stance."And you better call me Alpha."HANNAHI could see everything. My mate's guilt and agony. And I was crying beside him all the time, hugging him from time to time, and comforting him that everything would be alright.But everyone knew it was a lie because I was already dead. Or maybe it was the truth because no one wanted me to live anymore. At least, for my best friend, someone I thought would always be on my back, had betrayed me. How could she do this to me?I saw them coming out together to face the guests for the New Luna Announcement. She couldn't hide her happiness anymore that she finally became the Luna of this pack.On another side, I found a contrast on my mate's face. He looked miserable, with a short beard visible. He even didn't bother to shave.I tried to touch his face, only to catch nothing. I made a second attempt, but the result was the same. My body was not in this world anymore. Only my soul.Oh, Goddess. Why were you so mean to us? I was such a good girl all my life. I just wanted to have a happ
ELIOT“What do you mean?” I couldn’t help but frown at her words. Why did she suddenly call off the plan that she made herself?“Don’t you understand? I want to cancel our plan.”I knew that. But why?“I’m already here.”“Then go home. You don’t need to be here anymore.” She said it without looking at me as if I wasn’t in this room. My hands coiled into fists as annoyance surged out of me.“No. I’ll stay here.” I insisted. There was no way I would miss this opportunity to smell her. I needed to know if she was my mate so I could proceed with my plan. If she turned out not to be my fated mate, I would still choose her as my chosen one.That was my plan.“Whatever.”My heart ached at that. Why was Hannah acting like this? Did something happen to her? What was it? Why didn’t she tell me?Hannah and I had been friends for as long as I could remember about her. She was three years younger, but it couldn’t distance us from each other. I didn’t know precisely when I had her lingering in my h
HANNAH“Oh!” I exclaimed at the sight of baby Rob falling on his ass after trudging for a few steps. He was one year old and had just started walking. “It’s okay. You can get up and try again. Come on, Rob. Come to me.” I encouraged him to keep trying.But baby Rob seemed to think this was enough for now as he only smiled at me, showing his rabbit teeth. I couldn’t help but giggle while shaking my head at his reaction. He was too adorable to resist.That was what brought me back to him. I picked him up and then placed him on my lap. “So you’re tired, huh? It’s okay. We can try again later or tomorrow.”Both baby Rob’s parents were my brother’s warriors, so they must leave him at the daycare center while they were training and working. By the way, this place was open twenty-four hours every day to accommodate all parents’ working hours, which, of course, the night would have fewer children.Baby Rob clasped his hands together while mumbling something unclear. As his guardian, I could o
ELIOTI went to the daycare center right away and was stunned as soon as I stepped inside the room.I saw her.She was like a goddess. A goddess with a pup in her arms.I wasn't sure if this kind of goddess ever existed, but she was the one. Hannah was a genuine beauty with a pup in her lap. She looked so different from the best friend I used to know. Happiness radiated from her face was in a different level. I felt like seeing a mother now.Images of a happy family instantly came into my mind. I pictured my life, her, and our future pups in my head, and it warmed my heart and caused a smile to tug on my lips. A happy and contented smile like the one she had on her face.Yes. We would have a happy life, and I would ensure that happened.Only if we accepted each other."You are a monster."I couldn't help but furrow at her words. Since this morning, she kept saying I hurt her—which I had never done—and now she was calling me a monster. Where did the term come from?"Explain," I ordered
HANNAHI was so excited when Fiona told me it was time for us to run together. It was something I had been waiting for. I could only envy our members whenever I watched them shifting into beautiful wolves.But it didn't matter anymore as I had Fiona now. She was the best wolf ever!'Are you ready?'I imagined myself nodding enthusiastically at her question. I was more than ready.'It might be hurt because this is the first time you shift.'She warned me, and I knew that already. I saw they were in pain when they shifted for the first time, and I expected to feel the same.'I'll try to reduce your pain. But you may need to call Danny if it's too much.''It's okay. Share the pain with me. This is something I need to experience, anyway.'That was the truth. It was better to feel the pain than to have no wolf at all.'Okay.'After a little agreement, I prepared myself for the upcoming event. I wouldn't go through the normal process because my wolf was already awakened. What I only needed
ELIOTMy hands were on my hips while waiting for her patiently. Sooner or later, she would come out either for the shirt or running to the pack house. Both ways were worthwhile because I could see her naked body.Yeah, I knew I shouldn’t have thought like that when she still called me a monster. But I couldn’t help my dick from getting a hard erection after watching her perfect naked form. Moreover, after I tasted a bit of her.And I wanted more.“I will count to five. If you don’t show up, I assume you won’t wear this shirt, and I will rip it off.”“What?”But I pretended to not hear it as I started counting. “One. Two.”“No, Eliot!”“Three.”“Don’t!”“Four. Fi-““Okay!”I tugged a broad smile at that. Hannah finally gave up.“Okay, what?” I purposely asked to clarify the situation. She agreed, and there wouldn’t be a turning back.“I will come out.”Thus I waited another second only to get nothing. Hannah still buried herself behind the tree. “I see no one. You know the count is don
HANNAH“Hm.” I hummed at the comfort I was experiencing. It was so calm and warm as the morning sun hit my skin, and the sound of nature entered my ears.I closed my eyes and tilted my head up to let the sunshine warm my face. I inhaled deeply, feasting on my lungs with the cedarwood scent surrounding me. It was so potent, just the way my body and mind loved it.Wait.Cedarwood?But Eliot was nowhere around.Then I noticed something hard and warm against my body, which I found strange because I was alone and nothing was around me. But it felt so close that I could even hear a heartbeat.A heartbeat?Was it mine? Or...My eyes snapped open at the thought it was someone else’s heartbeat, and before I could think straight, I rose up, only to slam back at a hard and warm thing from my dream. And I was in complete shock when I realized it wasn’t my bed but a naked torso.“Good morning, princess.” His hoarse voice greeted me. It didn’t take long for me to recognize him because his cedarwood
HANNAHI jolted in place when a loud pop welcomed me as soon as I stepped into the kitchen. Soon, chats were heard everywhere."Happy birthday!""Happy birthday!""Happy birthday, dear Hannah!"And after some little surprise, I finally could see and recognize all the people gathering in the dining room. My parents, Danny, his Beta, Gamma, and their mates. Looking at them made me feel slight pity for my brother for not finding his mate yet. I wished he could meet her soon.Just as I thought about mate things, a cedarwood scent sipped into my nose.Of course, Eliot was here.But before I could decide what to do about him, I felt a hand slip on my waist, and soon, sparks danced as our bodies collided. I instantly growled and glared at him."Oh!""Wow!"And it went wilder when he pecked my lips."Does it mean you two are a fated mate?" Danny represented all of them to ask."No!" I blurted out as I pushed his body away. This couldn't happen because no one should know about us being mates.