I have spent every day with Ailee since I told her she was mine. I even showed up at the cancer center while she was getting chemo. It took a lot of convincing to get the guards to let me in but they finally let me through. To say she was surprised is an understatement. And she wasn’t the only one. Callen and Finn were surprised I was there as well. They even tried to tell me I didn’t need to sit with Ailee. That Callen and Finn were used to being there if I wanted to go.
I just sat down beside Ailee while they hooked her up to the machine that would deliver the chemo medicine. I asked the nurse questions the whole time. I wanted to know everything I could about the process and what effects it could have. They told me that from beginning to end Ailee has to sit there for two hours while they pump what amounts to poison into her body.
AileeIt has been a few days since my visit from Viper, Brick, Tank, Axel, and Rowdy. And now I’m standing on Merigold’s front porch waiting for someone to open the door. We have been invited to our first family dinner. I was a bit nervous when Merigold first asked us to come over. She assured me that it was only a few of the guys and their old ladies. And that Ace wasn’t going to be there. It seemed important to her so I said yes. She told me it had been a tradition that started a few years ago for all the family to attend these dinners and now that included me as well as Callen and Finn. We even managed to give my guards a night off since I would be surrounded by club members. It took some convincing to get my grandda to agree but when I told him who would be there he finally agreed.When the guys came over to apologize and wanted to start over it made me less
Lug Nut Tonight was the night that Ailee, Callen and Finn were coming to Harry’s to watch our concert. I may have paid extra attention when I picked out my clothes. I took my time shaving and brushing out my hair. Made sure my kutte was cleaned up. And just to made sure to get a smile out of Ailee I had my hat. Normally I didn’t pay to those things but my girl was going to be watching and I wanted to make a good impression. Lilly is on stage with Neil checking her mic. We all have wireless mic now since we saw how much better is they were with all the moving around we did. And I was grateful for it. I had a surprise for Ailee and a special song just for her.We were all in place and it was time to start the show. Neil was up first with ‘Stone In Love’ by Journ
Lug Nut The past three months have been both the best and worst of my life. I have spent every minute with Ailee that I can. I’m in her bed every night. Sometimes we enjoy each other's bodies all night long. And man does my girl have a body.It is like every curve and groove were made just for me. Sometimes we would just cuddle up and talk about anything and everything. We would watch mindless tv. All that mattered was that I was by her side. That is some of the better. I’ll give you more later. I want to get the worst out of the way. I have been to every doctor's appointment and chemo session Ailee has had. I have learned how to keep my emotions off my face during these sessions. I don't want Ailee to see how much they bother me. It shouldn’t bother me. It is Ailee that has toxins pumped into her. It is Ailee that vomits after every session, not me. But it hurts to watch he
Lug NutWhen the guys all dressed in black except for the green arm band came into the back yard I knew it couldn’t be good. When all of ten of them knelt in front of Ailee calling her their queen I was shocked and impressed. I watched Ailee go from laid back to all business in less than a second. This is a side of Ailee I knew was there but I haven’t seen yet. Well I have seen the professional business side before but this was in a whole different category. She quickly took charge. Ailee wanted me to stay behind while she went out but I wasn’t having it. It wasn’t that I thought she wouldn’t be protected. With Callen and Finn, Ailee had twelve bodyguards. Protection was the problem. First, I wanted to see for myself that she was safe. Second, I wanted to see this side of her. I know Ailee was worried about watching her be the ice queen. I could see the slight fear in her eyes. I as
Lug Nut I was sitting beside Ailee in the truck, Finn on her other side, Callen was upfront. No one spoke a word. Finn grabbed Ailee’s hands and started wiping them off with antiseptic wipes he keeps on him. Ailee never moved while Finn worked on her hands. She just stared straight ahead but I don’t think she was seeing anything. She was deep in her own head. I want to comfort her or help her somehow but I don’t know where to start. Finn finishes her hands and sets them down on her lap. I’m watching every move he makes. I can tell he is moving by routine. So I don’t interfere. I'm so focused on Finn and Ailee that I don’t notice that we have returned to the condo. Callen gets out and opens the door allowing Finn out followed by Ailee. I follow and I notice Ailee’s movements are almost robotic in nature.
AileeI woke up the next morning still on Lug nuts chest there's no place I would rather be. But it is time to start my day work calls and so does my medication. I gently slide off of Lug, careful not to wake him. I go to the bathroom to do my normal routine finishing with brushing my hair. I go to my dresser and grab some lounge clothes, sweatpants, and a t-shirt. I turn when I hear Lug stir around and wait to see if he's going to get up. The sheet has fallen to his hips showing off his bare chest. I can see the marks from my teeth and nails all down his chest. I suppose I should feel bad about them but I can’t find it in myself to worry. I like seeing them on him. Like my personal brand claiming him as mine. I admire my work for a minute, noticing that Lug isn’t waking. I get dressed quickly thinking about going to make us some breakfast. Or at least Lug. I’m still on a limited diet which sucks. But I’m hoping that will change soon. I have fait
2 Weeks Later Lug Nut After Ailee asked me to go to the gala I enlisted Anna’s help to find a tux that would be suitable to wear yet have a little of me with it. Ailee liked me as the cowboy/biker. Not some stuck up rich snob. So that is what she is going to get just in a tux. I’m getting ready at the clubhouse so Anna can help me if I need it. Ailee and Finn are picking me up on the way. You might be wondering why I just didn’t get dressed with Ailee. Simple as cheesy as it sounds Ailee said since she asked me out on a date she wanted to pick me up like one. And there is a part of me that wants to surprise Ailee. I even got Finn to tell me what color her dress was so I could get her a necklace to go with it. I’m not super rich like Ailee or Cormac are. Not that you would know it by the wa
Ailee The ride to the gala took about thirty minutes. During that time I laid my head on Lug’s shoulder going over the speech I was expected to give while Finn filled Lug in on what to expect. Finn warned Lug about the press and photographers that were going to be there. There is a silent auction and a raffle. There is also an open bar and appetizers to enjoy. “ So you are telling me there is free booze and snacks that wouldn’t fill up Brick’s daughter. Got it.” Lug says. I laugh at the way he summed it up. I turn my head and kiss him on the cheek. “ I promise we will grab a bite when all of this is over to make it up to you. Whatever you want you.” I told him. Lug smiles down at me and gives me a quick kiss. “ How about we grab some take-out from that Chinese place you like and relax?” “ I do like the way you think. You have a deal.” I told him.