Zandrey looked like he was shocked because of what I did. I was even surprised with myself. After that quick kiss, that was when we realized we were in public. People saw. People were wondering. And some doesn't even care. But God. What if someone we know saw us? I let my emotions get into me. “I’m going,” I just said. But the truth is I feel ashamed. I didn't wait for his reply and headed to the office. I hope he won’t bring this up next time we meet. That would make everything feel worse. I just really wish no one saw me or recognize me. Because if so, I don't know how to explain what happened earlier. I headed straight to my office without looking back and looking around. I feel like people are looking my way but it might just be my imagination, or maybe I’m just overthinking. I’m not sure anymore. When I reached our floor, I was told that people were waiting for me in the conference room. I braced myself for that. Jelyn was even telling me things while we were on ou
We were both trying to catch our breath when we parted for a while. Our faces were still so close to each other that I could feel his minty breath. “Are you sure about this?” He asked. “Yeah,” I replied. “Do you want this?” Zandrey chuckled. “Who wouldn’t?” I smirked. Yeah, who wouldn’t? He grabbed my waist and moved his body even closer to me. I automatically wrapped my arms around his neck as he claimed my lips. But it didn't last long there as his lips went to my jaw, then to my neck. It was like he was in a rush, which I understand because even if this is an empty room, anyone can walk on us right now. So this is a quickie, huh? He exchanged our positions, making my back pinned on the wall. His kisses went back to my lips, while his hands made their way down my body. I was wearing a dress so it was easy for him to pull it up and pull down my panties. I helped him with it and when we finished, I helped him in removing his clothes. Zandrey’s still wearing his white coat and
“Where are we going, Mommy?” Andrei asked. I woke him up early so he can take a bath. Now, I’m currently fixing his clothes. “We’re going to visit Grandma,” I said. I’m not even sure if Andrei will recognize her. I’m afraid he’ll understand what’s going to happen. I know he'll get hurt if he gets what is happening. As much as I want to spare him from the pain, but I also want him to experience his last time with Mommy Miranda. He grew up with her and I’m sure she has become a huge part of his life too. I just have to be strong for anything that might happen. “Niceee,” he mumbled excitedly. Right now, I'm already hurting. After taking care of Andrei, I let him stay with his dad. Zandrey’s already waiting for him downstairs. Zandrey volunteered to go with us to the hospital. His shift will be tonight so he has some time. I let him come with us because I needed it. I know some things will happen later that will break my heart. I just needed someone to lean on. And I’m sure it
People come and go. Everything ends. I already kept that in mind. But when you're in the situation, it still hurts. You can never be prepared for the pain. I just stood there, wearing my white dress, imagining that she's just roaming around and that she's just around us. Her grave was just beside Andres. The burial just finished but Dad doesn't want to go home just yet. So I decided to stay. He finally stopped crying. But the sadness and pain is still visible in his eyes. "Do you know what she said before she passed away?" Dad suddenly spoke. I lookeed at Dad and I saw him staring at her grave. She stayed for two more weeks in the hospital before she passed away. We already expected her passing, but when it happened, it still hurts like hell. But in my head, in our heads, she’s finally free from the suffering. Her pain finally ended. "What?" I asked. "She said she'll be happy if I'll be happy even without her. She said, I should do whatever makes me happy. She
Because of what Zandrey told me earlier, there was a deafening silence when we were inside his car. We even have to go to the supermarket to buy ingredients, yet here we are, awkward again. But why would he say it? Now I feel like our agreement's mixed with feelings now. It's just supposed to be purely sexual. It wasn’t on the plan to take things seriously. The plan was to satisfy each other’s needs and be there for Andrei. If it's mixed with “jealousy” and other romantic stuff, I feel like it won’t work out. Even when he already parked the car, no one between us attempted to speak. God, it’s getting more awkward in each passing minute. Not to think we'll be together for a few more hours. I don’t have the courage to ask him things, or confront him about what he said earlier. I don't want to talk about it. The moment he successfully parked the car, I quickly unbuckled the seat belt and quickly got out of the car. I didn't wait for him and just walked straight to the supermarke
After doing the groceries, we went home. It's already quite late so we need to hurry. Andrei and I will still attempt to bake later. Also, we still have to prepare for dinner because we don't have househelps right nos. Only Auntie Gina was left with Andrei right now. Dad wanted them to take a leave for a while. They'll come back probably after a week. The house kind of feels different now that Mommy Miranda's no longer with us. All of us here can feel her absence. I can really tell the impact of her existence not just to me, but also to our workers. Sometimes, I can't help but smile at the good things she did. But I also can’t help but frown at the thought of her no longer in this world. “You okay?” Zandrey suddenly asked. I just had my nth deep sigh. For sure he heard it that's why he's asking. “Just thinking about things,” I replied. “Auntie Miranda’s free from pain now,” he said. “At least we know she left with a peaceful heart.” Well, he's right. Even when she’s alrea
It was a fun night. I could tell Andrei really liked everything tonight. And it’s all that matters. It’s everything for me. The kid fell asleep right awah after tasting everything we made. It was funny because the first batch was a failure. Good thing the seond bath was better. Buti That’s probably why he fell as sleep as quickly because he got exhausted from doing the steps all over again. He’s already in his bed, sleeping soundlessly, while Zandrey and I are here, looking at him. He looks so peaceful sleeping. And I can see on his face that he's really happy. I hope it will be forever. “It feels so great to see him this happy,” Zandrey murmured. I looked at him. I can’t help but smile at what he said, because that's what I feel as well. At least when it comes to our son (and our sexual needs), we have a mutual understanding. “He’s even happier when he met you,” I replied. I'll admit that his presence really made a difference in our son's life. It was like a missing piece in
R18. His kisses were warm and consuming. He kissed me so passionately that it made me feel his longing. It has been quite a while since we last kissed, that's probably why it feels this way- we're both so eager. His tongue seeked entrance into my mouth and I hurriedly welcomed it by sucking it. He tastes like toothpaste, sweet and minty. When I let go of his tongue, he bit my lower lip and it made me groan. “God, you’re so hot,” he murmured. He then kissed my neck again as he was willing me to move to my bed. Our body’s were still glued to each other while we were making our way to the bed, like he doesn't want to be away from me even for an inch. He kissed me again when I felt the bed on my back. I spread my legs to accommodate him, who’s still wearing boxers. I wish he didn't wear anything at all. Our kiss was loud and very sensual. I could sense his excitement through his kisses. I also feel the same so I hope he gets that from the way I’m kissing him back. My
Months swing by so fast. It gets slow when you're feeling lonely, but when you're in glee, it's like the clock is in a race.I was having all the fun while Zandrey is here with us. He's so good at taking care of me. Everyone cares a little extra of me after knowing we're having another baby. It's strange, but I admit that I like it. I'm getting used to it and it makes me sad that it's almost ending. But I'm certain it's a different kind of joy when the new baby is finally here.All of them are so excited to meet the baby. So when we decided to finally have the gender reveal, everybody was so excited. They couldn't wait to know the sex of the baby. Even I can't wait. I've had two boys, and I'm secretly wishing it's a girl. But whatever the sex is, I know for sure that we'll gonna love her/him so much."I bet it's a girl," Dominic guessed. It was clearly his guess because he's wearing a pink dress shirt.We are still waiting for all the guests to arrive. Daisy and Dom came first so we'r
I woke up to a quite heavy morning sickness. Weird stuff were going on inside my stomach that I just felt like puking. So the moment I opened my eyes, the first thing I did was stand up quickly and run to the bathroom as fast as I could.Zandrey probably heard me because a few moments later, I saw him following me. I looked at him for a brief time, unable to say a word because I was pre-occupied with my situation. He gathered all my hair for me, allowing me to focus more on my thing. That way, I didn't worry about my hair getting in my way.I feel bad because he's supposed to be sleeping as he only slept for about an hour or so. He just got home from his graveyard shift. But even if he was tired, he's still helping me. I realized just how easier really things are ever since he came here.Just like what I'm supposed to do, I still stayed in bed rest. I avoided work or doing heavy chore as what the doctor instructed. I can only do those things if we're in the clear already. I admit I m
I just watched the two of them unsmilingly. The woman was being so touchy and I have this urge to slap her hands away. They were in public, yet they seem to have their own world, and it made my head ache. "You know, we should catch up some time. How about coffee? When will you be free?" I heard her ask. I don't whether she's oblivious of my presence or she's choosing not to acknowledge me. There's a pregnant with Zandrey, but her eyes seem to only capture him entirely. It was so annoying. She was annoying. "I'll head first," I told Zandrey. I didn't wait for him to reply and just went ahead and left them. I just couldn't stand being around them. I was already a few meters away when I realized I don't have the keys to the car. Zandrey was the one who drove us as I'm not allowed to drive. I could feel my temper boiling up. I looked back at them with a frown. They were still talking. Actually, it was the girl who kept on talking. Her hand was on Zandrey's arm. It looks as
Since I wanted Zandrey close to me, we decided to stay in one room. Actually, it was dad who suggested it. He said it would ease his concerns if I have someone with me in my room. Both Dad and Andrei are upstairs, while I'm here on the first floor. Zandrey was busy taking out his clothes from his luggages. I was just sitting on my bed, watching him fixed his clothes. I already emptied a closet for him. It was weird. I have mixed feelings while looking at him unpack his stuff in a room we'll be sharing together until I give birth. But I'm quite sure the baby's happy. For the first time, I'll be living with a guy. I mean, sure, we live in the same house with my Dad and our son. But a guy who's not blood-related staying with us is definitely new to me. Sometimes, I regret not dating around when I was younger. Maybe if I did, I'd have more experience ehen it comes to men and I should have known better. But i chose to prioritize my studies and work. And well, the twins came so I really
Everybody now knows about the baby and it was indeed a good news for them. They even started planning for a gender reveal party, baby shower, and whatnot. But for now, we decided to have dinner together- an intimate one where all of the people close to my heart are present.It was just a small dinner and it was just really with family and friends. I was definitely looking forward to it because this time we don'y have any secrets to keep. Daisy and Dom just arrived. They brought a cake with the message, "Congratulations Ai and Zandrey!" My Mom also brought a pan of her baked lasagna. Auntie Gina prepared all of my favorite food.It is a happy night. I couldn't count how many times I smiled just tonight."What about you, Andrei? What do you want your sibling to be? A girl or a boy?" Daisy asked the kid. We were all gathered in the living room, just talking about things. We just finished our dinner and we're having the dessert here at the living room. I was eating the pie I asked Zandre
I don't know until when can I dodge that question. When no one asks me, it's me who questions myself. It was an easy question, yet answering it was hard. Being asked if I love him is something I think I will never be prepared for. I cannot find the words to describe what I feel for him yet. Or maybe I do. Maybe I'm just being in denial. But when will I ever be sure of what I really feel when everything's still clouded with memories of the past? I tried to look away from my Mom. The ways she stares at me shows she is trying to read me. And I'm scared. I'm still afraid of the things that might happen in the coming days. Even when Zandrey says he loves me, I really still cannot bring myself to easily believe. It can still change. Maybe he loves me now. But the real question is... until when? And why would he love me? Do I have something he's looking for in a woman? Do I possess something so extraordinary? I'm just a mediocre architect girl when we met. We live in the same world, but
I felt Zandrey squeeze my hand while we were waiting for Dad. We arranged a dinner for us- Zandrey, Mommy Emily, Dad, Andrei, and me. We decided to tell it first to them then we'll think about how to tell it to Daisy.Zandrey and I are sitting side by side on the table. I could feel the erratic beating of my heart. I know Dad won't be mad as I'm already an adult. But I still won't feel uneasy unless I've told him. "What's this dinner for?" Dad asked. We just started eating, and I knew he's been meaning to ask it since he came. Why would we invite him out of the blue, he must wondered."Uhh..."I rehearsed what I was gonna say to my Dad a hundred times. I already knew what exactly to say and how to say it. But the moment he asked, I feel as if I lost the ability to speak and my mind can't seem to process anything at all."Mommy, I want the chicken," Andrei suddenly said. I couldn't even move, so Zandrey got the chicken for him instead. "You good?" I heard Zandrey ask the kid."Yes, D
I woke up to a white surrounding. I was lying on a bed and I still feel so weak. When I looked around, I saw Mommy Emily looking at me. Even Zandrey was staring at me, probably waiting for me to open my eyes. "How are you feeling?" Mom asked. I tried to get up dlowly and Zandrey was quick to help me. "You were advised to be on bed rest, Ai," Zandrey mumbled. "Does she know?" I asked, pertaining to Mom. I remember how she was with me when I passed out. For sure it was also her who rushed me to the hospital. "I know," she answered. There was a smile on her face when she went closer to me. She fixed the few hairs that covered my face. "Don't worry. If you want me to keep it a secret, I will definitely keep it to myself." "And the baby?" My heart began beating so fast inside my chest. I quickly shifted my gaze to Zandrey. "How's the baby?" I could even hear the trembling of my own voice. "The baby's fine," he said softly. "But you have to be on bed rest for the time being, Ai. You
Our weekend was quite eventful. After the beach getaway, we spent a few hours at Mommy Miranda and Andres' graves. But it's really true that when your happy, it seems like time passes by so fast. Monday came quickly and I almost don't want to get up from my bed. I was tired from all the activities last weekend that I just wanted to stay all day in bed. But I still have work and I can't just not go to work. I have responsibilities. So even if I feel a little heavy, I got up and prepared myself for work. If I could just use my pregnancy as excuse, I would, but I can't. Nobody else knows about my pregnancy yet aside from Zandrey and I. "Good morning," Jelyn greeted upon seeing me entering. I smiled at her in return and let her follow me to the office. I need to know what are the things that I need to do today. But I have to sit first. I kinda feel nauseous. Jelyn then proceeded to telling me the tasks for the day. "Are you okay, Miss Aira?" she inquired. I looked up at her. My