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One thing I know for sure, it's hard...It's hard to forgive someone who hurt us.It's hard to forgive someone we put on a pedestal and they knocked themselves off of it. It's hard to forgive the closest people in our life when they hurt us or abandon us or neglect us or tell us things we can't forget.It's hard to forgive those we sacrificed a lot for.It's hard to look at someone who caused us so much pain and still love them with all our heart or treat them with the same respect but sometimes we have to forgive those people and remember that they're also human.That we have had our days when we erred too and hurt people we loved because we were still healing our own issues, we were still growing and learning how to love again, we were still evolving and we got many things wrong.I think sometimes we get caught up in the wrongs that people inflict on us. We get hurt and we get bitter. Understandably so, but instead of letting that pain dissipate, we keep it close to our hearts. We
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Trigger warning: suicide, depressionHalos maglupasay ako sa narinig. I was stunned for a few minutes. Hindi malaman kung ano ang unang emosyong mararamdaman. Parang gumuho ang mundo ko. Nanginig ang buong katawan ko sa gulat. Hanggang sa emosyonal akong niyakap ni Lazarus, doon na bumuhos na para bang walang kontrol ang luha sa mga mata ko. "W-What happened?! Tell me you're just kidding, Lazarus!" garalgal na ang boses kong sabi. Streams of tears flowed faster than my heartbeat. "I'm sorry for your loss, baby. I won't say it's okay because it's never okay to lose a loved one ... but be strong. I'm just here." Malamlam ang mga mata niyang sabi. Mas lalo akong napahagulgol. Doon ko nakumpirmang hindi nga ito nagbibiro. Itong ganitong mga mata niya ang nakikita ko kapag nagsasabi siya ng totoo- kapag sinasabi niyang mahal niya ako."Hindi pwede! Hindi ito totoo! Panaginip lang ang mga ito!" humahagulgol kong sabi. "H-hindi sila pwedeng mamatay! Hindi ko pa sila nakakausap!" Habang
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"We can finally take a vacation!" Trevor said cheerfully. "Freedom!" he added.We lined up together to pick up our phones. It's the beginning of our semester break. Tatlong buwan din iyon. Ngayon nalang din kami makakalabas ng seminaryo."Let's bet. I'm sure when we come back here, Trevor already have a girlfriend." Finn joked. We all laughed."Sure, Finn. How much?" Sabat ko pa."Mga gago kayo!" Trevor laughed. I don't know if he's annoyed or what because of the tone of his voice. "Sige, mga magkano ipupusta niyo?"Aba'y loko-loko talaga ito! Mas lalo kaming natawa. Kami ang nasa dulo ng pila. Kahit na nag-aasaran ay sinisigurado naman naming hindi kami maririnig ni Fr. Revelos."Ten thousand!""Ang baba naman masyado, Finn. Gawin mo ng fifteen!""Twenty! Sarado na!" sabat ko pa. Para matigil nalang sila.Alam ko lang naman din na magkakaroon 'yan si Trevor at mapapasakin pa rin ang pera. Hindi kaya 'yan mapirmi. Parang hayok na hayop sa gubat kapag nakakakita ng bagong bibiktimahin.
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Bakit ba masarap ang bawal?Bawal na pagkain, bawal na gawain, bawal na tanawin, bawal na pag-ibig at kung anu-ano pang bawal sa buhay?"Blessed me Father for I have sinned," I bent down and then adjusted the black veil that hung over my head.Pilit kong tinatakpan ang aking mukha. Sinisigurong kahit labi ko ay hindi niya makikita. Sapat na ang boses ko lang. Hindi ko mawaring gagawin ko ito sa tana ng buhay ko. "It has been five years since my last confession.""Go on my daughter and tell me your sins," the priest's voice was calm and comforting.It was unfamiliar. That was by design— I'd driven ten miles from my apartment to a church in the middle of woods. It was easier that way. I took in a deep breath, but only a squeak came out."Get it over with," I told myself. How ironic. I could feel a bead of sweat dripping down my forehead. The weather is cold but this is how
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Sininghap ko ang sariwang hangin nang tuluyan kaming makalabas. Ibang-iba ito kaysa sa atmospera sa loob ng silid-aralan.Hinila ni Dion ang kamay ko habang sabay kaming napapahagikgik kapag umiilag kami sa mga classroom na nadadaanan namin.It's the last subject in the afternoon. Dahil nakakantok ang Christian Living Education naming klase ay niyaya ko si Dion na mag-cutting classes. Hindi naman ito umalma sa alok ko at sumama pa siya sa akin. Ito ang St. Francis Academy. Isang katolikong eskwelahan na pinamumunuan ng mga madre. Ito ang isa sa pinaka-sikat na eskwelahan dito sa rehiyon namin. Lumaki na ako rito. Dito ako nag-aral simula Nursery hanggang ngayong nasa Senior High School na ako."Bukas ba ang Science lab? Doon nalang tayo," suhestiyon ko sa kaniya.Kabisado ko na ang pasikut-sikot dito. Labing dalawang taon na ako dito at hindi naman ito kalakihang paaralan. Tumango naman si Dion at magkahawak-kamay kaming umakyat sa second floor kung saan naroon ang Science lab.Pagkap
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"You are being bull-headed again, Aviona! Kailan ka ba magtitino?!" Papa's voice thundered. His face flushed red. I was confined in the hospital for two days. Mayroon akong benda sa ulo dahil sa aparatong tumama sa akin. Putok din ang labi ko at may mga maliliit na sugat sa mukha gawa ng bubog nang tumama ito sa akin.Ngayon ay kakauwi ko palang sa bahay at sermon agad niya ang bumungad sa akin. He never visits me in the hospital. I don't care, though. His presence seemed to buzz around me. Every word, movement and breath he performed seemed to infuriate me to no end.My face remained blank. I don't want to show him that I'm annoyed at him right now. "You are grounded for the whole month! No phone and other gadget! Mag-reflect ka sa mga ginawa mo! You're a disgrace!" Nanggagalaiti pa rin niyang sabi.Bumuntong-hininga ako. Kinuyom ko ang aking kamao sa galit at nagpipigil sa sariling magsalita sa kaniya pabalik. I was expecting for this to happen kaya hindi na ako nabigla. One month
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“So you did something forbidden, kaya ka nagkaganyan? Would you mind to narrate what really happened?” tanong niya habang nakahalumbaba at nakatingin sa akin habang kumakain.Sa carpet ay naka indian-sit kami habang kumakain ako at nakabukas ang TV. Nakasandal kami sa paanan ng kama. Medyo nahimasmasan na ako. Kanina ay medyo lasing na ako ngunit mas nangibabaw ang gutom.Nabitin ako sa pag-inom. Busog na ako sa kagwapuhan ng kasama ko. Ibinaba ko ang kinakain ko at napatingin sa kaniya.“Ay t*ngina!" Bulalas ko nalang nang umayos rin siya nang pagkakaupo at itinuon ang atensyon sa akin.Nagkatitigan kami at seryoso ang mga mata niyang nakatingin sa akin. He has a beautiful face. It's so angelic. He has a well-defined, with a sharp jaw and angular cheekbone. The complexion of his skin is going well with his brown eyes. He was the opposite of Dion’s bad boy aura and Paulino, on the other hand, is the mysterious type of guy.Hindi ko alam na darating ang araw na gugustuhin ko ang ganiton
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I woke up feeling nauseous. Masakit rin ang katawan ko. Nang ipagparte ko ang dalawang hita ko ay mas lalo akong napaigik sa sakit.I saw blood on my bed sheet."Sh*t!" Wala sa sariling tinanaw ko ang katawan ko sa ilalim ng kumot. May damit na ulit ako. Parang walang nangyari. Pero masakit ang gitna ko. Did it really happened? Did I just gave my virginity to a stranger?Napahilamos ako ng mukha nang maalala ang nangyari kagabi. I can still remember it clearly. Wala na akong magagawa. Nangyari na.Napangiti ako nang sumagi sa balintataw ko ang gwapong mukha ni Lazarus. Wala naman akong panghihinayang.Our lips and tongues crashed together as we tried to set down our beers without spilling them.Our arms embraced each other as we pressed our bodies together."You're such a temptation, Aviona..." He said in the middle of our kiss.The side of my lips rose. I broke our kiss and started working my way down his neck, as I pushed him back and climbed on top of him.He moaned as I worked my
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