After breakfast we quickly get cleaned up, then we leave, borrowing Emma’s mums car
“Let’s go shopping” She says grinning at me “All my clothes were burned so I need everything” In Emma’s world that was a dream come true, she makes shopping for an entirely new wardrobe sounds like it was the silver lining to her house burning to the ground. “Ofcourse, that should be fun” I try to sound enthusiastic as I answer, I didn’t want to go but I know this was probably the last time I would be spending time with her alone so I planned to make the most of it. We walk in and out of one shop after the other, for hours and hours. Emma clearly had a blast as I stand back and watch her shop. It was different to shop when you had an unlimited budget, I spent most of my time in thrift stores, getting the best price possible. Lastly we go to Victoria secrets, i desperately needed a new bra, if i'm lucky I might grab one on sale. So I head straight to the rack as Emma is busy filling her basket full of raunchy underwear for Matt. Then I saw the most beautiful golden bodice, the same colour as the flecks in my eye. I immediately start jumping on the spot when I see the price tag, I could afford both the bodice and the black bra that sat beside it. I was so excited we were giddy the whole way home, well we were until the moment my house came into view. That’s the moment my stomach drops and my body goes stiff, filling with dread for what was to come. As the car rolls to a stop I nervously look to my hands, clenching them and unclenching them. The thought of not seeing her for a while killed me but I had to be strong for her. “It’s going to be weird not seeing you everyday” She tells me sadly, popping open the glove box “I know, but just imagine all the amazing adventures you will go on, you will be so busy you won’t need me” She grabs a box, shaking her head “I’ll always need you, here this is your birthday present. I’m going to miss it so I want to see your face as you open it” I smile taking the small box, I pull the paper of it, it was a small green ring box. I look to her smiling, she smiles back nodding to the box. I wasn’t use to presents so the feeling was a little foreign to me, what if I hated it? I take a breath and pull the lid open and smile. Inside was a white gold ring, the middle held a small wolf howling into the air at a single diamond that represents the moon. It was beautiful, making me tear up slightly. “When we wear this we know we aren’t alone” She says taking my hand and showing me her ring “When I was 18, mum got me the same one to match hers. It means when we look at it that we remember those who wear the same thing as we smile because we are never alone in this world. Me and mum thought you should be part of that too” I pull it on my finger, wiping the tear from my cheek as I look to her, I pull her into a crushing hug as my heart shatters. She was leaving and I would miss her so much. “Promise me you make your life with Matt amazing, promise me that you will love every day as much as the last but most of all stay safe and keep In Touch” She hugs me back tighter “I love you lilly, I promise I’ll ring you everyday” As I pull away and I chuckle, she was crying too. “Such messes” I say laughing as I wipe my tears. I reach for the door, opening it and climbing out. “Chat you when you get settled in ok?” I say to her, she grins waving at me. More tears falling down her cheeks “I promise”With that I close the door, taking a deep breath as I run inside, closing the door behind me as I fall to my ass and I cry. My heart was breaking, the only person I had in the world was leaving and it hurt worse than I ever expected it too. After a few minutes I dry my tears, pulling myself together and I climb the stairs to my room. I immediately throw my clothes into the small suitcase I had in the attic. It held the only things I felt attached to in the world, I didn’t have much but that’s why I hid it. If my father found it he would burn it just for fun. When I was satisfied everything was put away safely I start on dinner, tonight he would have pasta bake and fresh veg. I ate as I cooked, knowing fine rightly that I wouldn’t be allowed any otherwise. Then I hear the front door opening, my body goes stiff. Fear tingling my insides, spreading throughout my body as my heart rate accelerates. Only getting worse when I hear his low territorial growl. I take a breath trying to shake the fear off as I clear my throat “Dinner will be served in 5” I tell him putting my head down as I start to plate everything up. He walks into the room, taking a seat at the table. My hands instantly start to shake as I swallow the lump in my throat. I bring his plate to him, placing it on the table in front of him just as my belly rumbles in hunger. His face screws up in disgust as he points to the seat opposite me. “Sit down and watch me eat” Stupid fucking stomach! If it didn’t rumble he would have let me leave. I bite my tongue and take a seat opposite him. “Where were you last night? How dare you Tramp around and give me a bad name!” He spits the words at me, My eyes snap to his offended that even he would think that of me. “I was working late so I stayed with Emma after” He growls, spitting the veg out of his mouth and onto the plate. “Disgusting as usual! Here take it you mutt” He throws the plate at me, it bounces off my arm as I cover my face, landing on the table and shattering. He laughs as I tremble, terrified of what he was going to do next. “Aw it looks like your going to bed hungry tonight!” I take a deep breath, ignoring him as I start to clean up his mess. My body trembles as I pick up each individual piece and place it in the bin. He gets up and walks out, going to the living room. When I hear the tv turn on my body relaxes a little as I quickly clean everything up and I sneak to the room with some leftover peeled carrots in my pocket. As I reach my room I quickly lock the door taking a breath, I always felt better behind the locked door, but unfortunately it didn’t always work. On far to many occasions I have woke up with him on top of me, he had broken the locks and raped me. Each time I would get a stronger lock, sometimes I place a chair against the door but in most cases I lay awake until I know he’s sleeping. My body would go into fight of flight mode, my mind shutting down as I try to live with the fact that my father is a monster and it’s not safe to be around him. I eat my carrots, huddled up in the corner, thinking about my life. It had gotten harder this last year especially. Normally dad would have girlfriends and he would spend his time with them but since his last one dumped him he has become even more terrifying. That’s when the sexual abuse started, it’s why I sleep with one eye open. It’s the only thing I can’t bring myself to say out loud. I can’t even tell Emma, it just hurts to much to think about never mind talk about. When I know he’s in his room and I hear him snoring I finally allow my body to relax and I get some sleep. As my eyes open from my dreamless sleep I grin. Today I was 18, today I would get my wolf, today I wouldn’t be defenceless. I quickly get up, excited to finally feel like part of the pack. I decide against a shower since I’ll need one after anyway, so instead I pull on loose clothing and head downstairs to make dad his breakfast. I work faster than normal, the excitement building inside me urging me on so I could finally meet her. I place his food on the table, shaking myself a little as I build up the courage to call him. “Breakfasts up” I call, taking another gulp of coffee and dropping it in the sink. I hear his footsteps behind me, my heart rate accelerating as I turn to leave out the back of the house. As I place my hand on the handle he suddenly grabs me by the hair, yanking me back as he sticks his knee in my back. I scream out as the pain splits through my back, tears pooling in my eyes “Happy birthday princess! You didn’t forget about your annual birthday beating now did you?” He growls against my ear, my body going stiff as his breath fans my throat. The smell of alcohol and dead smoke hitting me, making my stomach turn as all the thoughts of the things he had done come straight to the forefront of my mind. Tears run down my cheeks as I clench my eyes closed, trying to rid myself of the memories of what happened. He flings me across the floor, slamming me into the corner of the kitchen island. I gasp as my other rib breaks But as I try to lift myself of the floor he growls, kicking me hard in the stomach, knocking all the wind from my lungs as he repeatedly pounds into me. Tears blind me as I cry out in pain. His fist connects with my eye socket next, my vision blurring as he aims for my nose, breaking it. I scream out in pain as he grabs my hair, yanking me off the floor as I cough, trying to find the oxygen that I need. My heart rate beating way to fast, deafening me as the blood pumps through my ears. As he holds me, hovering above the ground he knees me in the ribs, my body going limp as he takes all his issues out on me. My mind taking over, blocking me out as he continues his ruthless attack, my body giving up as we pass out from a mixture of pain and probably a bad concussion too. — As my eyes open they felt like sandpaper, everything hurt, I was even finding it hard to breathe. My body was covered in blood, sticking my clothes to my body as I push myself off the floor. I manage to open the back door before I fall, unable to walk. I pull myself towards the forest, to tired and sore to care if anyone sees me. I needed to shift or I was sure that this time he would kill me and I wasn’t ready to die. It was dark outside, making it even harder to see with fuzzy vision. I must have lay there all day. As I make it to the tree line I take a breath, laying on my back as I look to the tops of the trees. I wasn’t exactly sure how I shift but I was hoping my wolf did. I lay there for what felt like hours trying to breathe through the pain. If my wolf wasn’t coming tonight I really believe I wouldn't survive this beating.“What the fuck did he do to you?” A voice calls, making me jump as I look around to see who found me. “It’s me lilly, your wolf, are you ok?” I smile, closing my eyes as I try to see her. “You won’t be able to see me until we shift, but seriously are you ok?” I cough, spluttering as I roll to the side, wiping my blood from my mouth “No, I’m really not” I answer coughing again, I feel her worry for me, a warm feeling washing through us as I try to breathe through the pain. “What’s your name!” I say trying to distract myself “Layla, my names Layla. I think we need to shift before you get any worse” I nod my head “Ok, I have no idea what to do” “Don’t worry love, iv got this” I feel this invisible force pushing through a barrier in my head, suddenly something pops, our mind becoming one as my entire body lurches forward. I thought I would scream and cry as every bone in my body breaks and rearranges but I could hardly even feel it. She moves my body
I ask her in my head as she swings the back door of the car open, taking the seat and slamming the door closed again. “He only thinks he’s powerful” She spits as I look back at dad alarmed, his jaw ticks as he watches us, coming after us and getting into the car. “You need to control your wolf when we are here” “Control your temper and I won’t fucking ruin your picture perfect performances you peace of shit” My eyes widen as Layla snaps at him, he turns using his fist to hit me. She laughs at him kicking his seat “Do it again and I’ll put you through the fucking window old man” “Oh my gosh Layla stop! It’s just going to make him worse” “One word out of line at this summet and I might just fucking kill you lilly and I’m not joking. Keep her under control” He scolds me, it felt weird having him scold me. Usually he just uses his fists but to have him talk to me in a way a father might talk to his daughter was quite frankly freaky. I close my mouth and drop my he
I woke up with a sense of loss, i panicked not knowing where i was, machine’s were beeping, i was cold, i had no idea what was going on. My heart pounds in my chest as I try to move, my body screamed in pain. I’m blinded by a light as I try and remember what the hell was going on. The faster my heartrate was beating the louder the beeping got, I squint lifting my head Just then the man of dreams runs through the door, realising I was dreaming a take a breath, relaxing as my breathing starts to level out “are you ok!!!” He grabs my face, sparks light up all over my body, layla pushes forward as his touch wakes us up. “That doesn’t normally happen” I whisper to him, he frowns “What doesn’t?” His voice was louder than usual “In my dreams you didn’t feel sparky” Layla pushes forward, purring as she moves our head into his hands. He looks at me puzzled “You dreamed of me?” “Am I not dreaming now?” I ask, he chuckles shaking his head “Nope, I’m all real babe” My mind
“So not to make things awkward but would you mind telling me your name?” I ask scratching the back of my head, the doctor bursts out laughing at the fact, my mate smirks looking at me “Drake, drake moon” “7, double O 7” The doctor teases, drake glares at him as I laugh shaking my head “You realise its bond, James Bond, right?” I ask all out laughing as his face flushes red. Drake snorts, laughing with me “Yeah I think it’s time for mr bond over here to get out, get out right now” He snaps at the poor doctor, I was so busy laughing I didn’t even care that that was totally rude. “Just trying to lighten the mood dude, but whatever. Good luck lilly” He winks as he leaves, closing the door behind him. Drake watches him go then he turns back to me “Did he just call me dude?” He says it like it tasted funny, screwing his face up as I laugh even harder. He chuckles, pulling clothes out of the bag for me. “We didn’t know your size so fiona got you one of those long dresses wit
“I swear that was amazing” Drake says as he finally stops laughing at me. He leans forward kissing my lips as I glare at him “Oh come on, don’t be grumpy it was a little funny” I smirk, trying to hid my smile, lifting my fingers I pinch them together “Ok maybe a little” He pecks my lips again, pulling back and he buries his head in the crook of my neck, sniffing in my scent, his body relaxes immediately as I look back at ‘our people’ “So I’m a Luna? Are you sure you want me as a Luna?” I ask screwing up my face “Oh we want you as a Luna, you just hit the alpha. I love you already and there is no give backs. We are keeping you” The one called Ben says, fiona nods her head in agreement “Agreed, we are keeping you” “I also think your awesome” Mark adds, drake snorts “Damn you’ve never called me any of those things” “That’s because your a big grump, Luna lilly is already winning” Fiona says, drake flips her the bird “That’s your birthday present goin
“I love you too drake” He plants another soft kiss on my lips as I smile. I had never felt so content in my life. “Now, let me wash you” He whispers kissing my temple, he turns to the huge bath, turning off the water as I pull my cardigan off my body. I pull the dress of my shoulders, unclasping my bra, all Shame went out the window the moment he marked me. I was his and he was mine. I had dreamed of this day for years, I may be inexperienced but I wasn’t a saint. Iv watched 50 shades of grey, i read the books, i've got the damn internet so I know what iv always desired to do. I realise physically I may be innocent but not mentally. I've dreamed of this man for over a year and I've dreamed of what I want to do to him and what I want him to do to me. As he turns his eyes widen and trail down my body slowly. His hands clenching and unclenching as he looks at every bruise and cut. He closes his eyes, taking a deep breath. I can feel his confliction through the bon
“But if you let me take the beta as my prisoner to do with as I please then we won’t have a problem” He adds after gauging my reaction. I smile, pushing forward and placing a gentle kiss on his lips. “He did all that to lilly?” The alpha asks, he sounds genuinely shocked. “Yes he did, honestly I’m not sure how she’s still alive and I find it hard to believe that you didn’t know” Drake snaps “I did not! I had no idea! Look I wouldn’t allow that in my pack I have 3 daughters and it would kill me to think of them hurting like that” “Good, then we have a deal then” Alpha sighs “Yes you have got a deal. Tell Lilly I’m sorry. Will we see you at the ball? I’d like to apologise to her face” My eyebrows shoot up in surprise, I had never been to the ball before. It’s for 18’s and over so this would have been my first year. “Yes you will see us there” My eyes snap to drakes, I’m bruised black and blue and I have no dress? How the hell would that even look. “Go
My hair was blown out, cut in layers down to my breasts, one side pinned back with a crystal clasp behind my ear, the rest pushed back and wavy falling over my shoulders. My face was flawless, if I didn’t know I was covered in bruises I would have never guessed. My eyes looked bright and alive, a little eyeliner smudged into a wing with my own long lashes coated in mascara made them wide and awake. A subtle contour pulled my face in in all the right places, making me look older, my eyebrows were natural with a little gel holding them in place. My lips were scarlet red, buffed out with some liner, making them look bigger than normal. My cheeks held just a slight red blush, it was subtle but it was there. I looked airbrushed and flawless, I honestly looked beautiful. On my feet I wore strapped black sandals, giving me a boost in hight “I hate to say he was right but damn was he right” Layla says, whistling and winking at me, “He really bloody was right wasn’t he”