I went to the garden before going to my room to think. I already agreed to go out with Xander tomorrow. He offered to be a distraction for my broken heart.
I went to where the tulips were. They’re my favorite flower because they fascinate me, not knowing how beautiful they will be when it blooms. It gives me a positive effect and my heart feels at ease whenever I see them. The smell of the different flowers in the garden made me feel happy for a moment, as I took a deep breath.
"You're here. I was looking for you."
I was startled when someone spoke. It was Kyle. Great! The one person I didn’t want to see today. I didn't want to look at him so I just kept on walking, but I can sense that he's following me.
"Why did you go with Xander? And didn't even tell me. I went home as fast as I could but they said you haven't arrived yet. I was worried. I tried to call you but your phone's off." He said.
Why is he telling me this? If he's like this, I might assume he really cares for me. My heart was so painful, I can't bear it anymore. Before I knew it, I was already crying.
"Hey what's wrong? Did Xander do something inappropriate?" He asked.
He was already in front of me, and was so close to me. His voice was so gentle. I wanted to tell him the truth. I wanted to scream and yell at him. Tell him to his face that I am head over heels in love with him. Instead, I just cried.
He panicked. I was shocked when he suddenly pulled me into his arms and hugged me.
"Emily, please tell me what's wrong? I want to help you. I'm here for you. I'm your friend." He whispered.
"You can't help me!" I pushed him with all my strength.
"How would I know if I can help you if you won't tell me? Is it Xander? What did he do to you?" He was getting angry.
"No! He didn't. He was a gentleman. This has nothing to do with him." I said.
"Then why are you crying? You won't cry like that for nothing!" He almost yelled.
"Kyle please. Don't ask. You're making it harder for me." I begged.
"No! I won't stop until you tell me." He was looking directly into my eyes.
I couldn't take it so I turned around and cried again. Kyle got closer and hugged me from behind.
"Emily, you're important to me. It hurts to see you like this."
God! Why did I fall in love with him? My heart feels like it'll burst out.
Again, I walked away from him to distance myself. He frowned when I turned around to look at him.
"Are you really not going to stop? Can you please stay away from me? Don't act that we're so close and stop touching me!" I yelled.
"Why? Tell me! For God's sake Emily! Why can't you tell me?" He's also getting mad.
"Because starting tomorrow I'll be dating Xander. So you shouldn't be touching me freely. And if it went well, I might become his fiance." I said. I just hope he wouldn't sense that I'm lying.
He didn't say a word. Again, I can't figure out his expression. Is he surprised? Is he mad? For some reason, I can't read him but he can easily read me.
"I was crying because I'm happy. I finally got a guy I want. I was just excited thinking that I'll become his fiance." I continued and tried my best not to stammer.
I heard him sigh. "Well, congratulations! You finally found your dream guy. Your ideal guy. Tall, fashionable, smart, rich and good looking. Good for you!"
It sounded bitter and sarcastic to me. He reiterated each word. It added pain in my heart and I feel like I was stabbed by him.
"Yes! That's what I like, and also my family. They will be glad to know that I'll be dating someone from the same level as ours." I said.
He nodded but his face became dark for a moment.
"How about you and Lily? I saw her kissing you. So is she now your girlfriend?" I asked.
I wanted to kill myself for asking the obvious. Why would I ask something that can only cause me pain?
"Oh yeah! We're a couple now. Thanks to you! Money can really change someone's perspective and impression on a person."
Again, his words were like daggers stabbing me directly to my heart. I wanted to run to my room and just cry. I wanted to go somewhere far away from him.
"I told you right? If you have money, you can even buy a person's love and affection." That wasn't me! I would never do something like that. I wanted to add that but it never came out of my mouth.
Yes. My ideal man has to be richer than me and that was because I grew up with a family that follows traditions. A family with rules. That we should never marry someone who's not richer than us.
He smirked. "You're really disgusting. Money is all you can think of. I thought you're better than those hypocrites I hated. It turned out you're the worst. I hope you'll be happy with that mindset of yours!"
He then turned around and went inside the house.
I wanted to chase him. To tell him it's not true. That I changed when I met him. That my ideal man was now him. That I don't care if he's not rich. I wanted to tell him that I sincerely love him. I wanted to go to his room and begged him to break up with Lily.
But I froze. I just stood there. I don't even know how long. My tears won't stop from flowing.
When I got back from my room, it was already 5 in the morning. I packed all my clothes and left the estate. I won't be staying here anymore. It's time for me to move on and fix my broken heart.
Few weeks have passed and I've never set foot in Queen's. The girls didn't ask me and I know they're just waiting for me to tell them what happened. I tried to keep myself busy by going out with Xander and my friends to forget about Kyle. Xander is so nice and has taken care of me ever since that day. He also didn't go out with another woman but me. He didn't ask further about Kyle. Months passed and somehow I feel like Xander is slowly having a soft spot in my heart. I still think about Kyle though and the times that we were together. It was just short but I don't know why I fell in love with him. Maybe they're right. You easily fall when you're young. Maybe because we were together almost everyday, and he was the first person who easily understood me. Xander is somehow different from him. He was serious a
I tensed. I felt my knees weaken. Why is he here? Did Xander invite him? I felt Xander squeezed my waist. I looked at him and he was smiling. As if he understands what I'm thinking. He then got closer to me and whispered in my ear. "Hey relax. Focus on me." He said. I felt his warm breath in my neck. It gave me chills. I nodded and smiled. I took my eyes away from him and just followed Xander as he guided me to our seat. Everyone was so happy and greeted us. Xander introduced me to his family as well as to his friends and business partners. Xander is the eldest son of the Remington. His family owned the largest convenience store chain worldwide named Remington's and various restaurants in the country.
"What?" I was dumbfounded from what he said. Did I hear him correctly? He's in love with me? Why would he tell it to me now? Is he trying to confuse my feelings? "Emily, I've been in love with you for a long time." He said it again. I frowned. My heart was beating so fast but my blood boils. "Why are you telling this to me now? A-Are you playing with me?" I asked, almost shouting. "No I wasn't. It's the truth." He said in a serious tone. "Don't you dare tell me that it's the truth. You have Lily. I saw you kissing after the date." "She kissed me. And yes, we're dating. But she knows I'm in love with someone else. She just didn't
Kyle was crying when he left me in the garden. When he turned his back and walked away from me, I wanted to chase him. But I know it would be harder and more painful to both of us if I did. I broke down crying. If only I have the courage to turn my back from my family. If only I wasn't the first born of the Nitori Clan. I could freely love him. I felt someone touched my shoulder. I thought Kyle came back but it was Alora and the girls. Peggy kneeled and hugged me. I cried and cried. I don't know how long but they let me cry and didn't say a word. I know they're waiting for me to tell them what happened. "It hurts so much. Why does it have to be like this? Why did it end like that? For once, I hated being a Nitori. If only my family would understand this pain. I have so many questions in my mind."
I stayed in my room for a couple of days and never went out. The maids will just bring me food from breakfast till dinner. I know Alora ordered them to take care of me. I decided not to leave Queen's even though Kyle lives here. The girls were trying to cheer me up, asking me to hang out with them but I'm not really in the mood. Xander was very understanding and gave me time to think about everything. He sends me messages everyday reminding me to eat properly, sleep early, he tells me that he misses me and he loves me. I was laying on the bed when someone knocked at the door. It was Alora. Somehow, I feel like she wanted to tell me something. She walked inside my room and I was just looking at her. She was like a queen when she entered, her usual cold aura added to h
I woke up from the sound of the alarm clock on the bedside table. I turned it off and saw it was 7 in the morning. Miriana, one of the servants, went in after a few knocks. She was holding my dress and my shoe. Today is our graduation. After this, we will be college students. "Is everyone downstairs already?" I asked, holding my head. She nodded. I had a few drinks last night with my staff to celebrate my company's anniversary. I went home late. Alora was sending me messages, reminding me not to get drunk and go home early. She was worse than my mother. I was still living here in Queen's. I have my own house like the others but for some reason it became our routine to sleep here everyday. Luke and Alora don't mind at all. Alora was still under psychotherapy and
I was in my room when Alora and the girls came in. "Are you okay?" Alora asked. "I'm fine. I was just surprised that I'll be working with both of them." I said. "I'm the one who asked Luke to give the project to you. Emily it wasn't my intention to mess up with you, I sincerely believe you are the best choice for this project." Alora said while she held my hand. "Thank you. I know that but I wasn't sure if I could face him now." "Are you still in love with him?" Peggy asked. "No. I don't have feelings for him anymore. It's just a bit awkward after what happened." I answered, looking at Peggy. "I think it's more awkward if you wo
"Xander! It's nice to see you again!" I said sincerely. He kissed me on the cheek and handed me a bouquet of tulips. "Oh thank you! Another one huh?" I smiled. "I thought I'm not going to make it. I was in a meeting and rushed here after." He said while smiling back at me. For some reason, I missed his smile. "Sister, why are you blushing?" My little brother suddenly asked. I cupped my cheeks in embarrassment and glared at him. My family laughed and teased me. "Xander, why don't you join us for dinner tonight? For old times sake." Dad asked. I looked at him and at first he was hesit