ELIZABETH. I scurry off the floor and make my way to the bathroom. Shame and guilt fill me as I lean against the tiled wall with my eyes shut. I can’t believe I just did that. Masturbate while eavesdropping on their private moment. “That was so low of you. “ I mutter under my breath as I get rid of the clothes I have on, my panties going first; feeling too disgusted in them. I turn on the shower and step under the cold water, rubbing and scrubbing my body in hopes of stopping the shame that crawls my skin. After spending minutes intensely washing my skin, I finally take a proper bath and drop my clothes in the sink just next to the exit before I walk back into my room with a towel wrapped around my body. “I feel like I can finally breathe again. “ I mutter as I walk to my closet to get fresh clothes. After getting dressed, I grab my phone and plug in my headphones to drown out any conversations I could potentially hear. As I lay there, gently rocking my head to the soft beats of
ELIZABETH.It’s been a long, tortuous week.A week filled with torment, awkwardness, and only a bit of awesomeness.We’re starting to open up to each other in the house. I can now stay in the room with Gabriel for more than ten minutes before having to feel like my seat is on fire and we communicate better. No one is happier about this improvement other than my mother. She seems to think I dislike Gabriel–if only she knows the truth about why I behave the way I do.And James. James tortured me on nights when there’ll be those familiar noises coming from his room and I start to wonder why they had to get a place with those thin walls. He’s being however quite sneaky about it. I remain clueless about what he does until I hear those sounds, and I wonder why he’s being so sly about it. James is never the type to sneak a girl in, and I’m pretty sure his dad knows all about his adventures.“Hey. “Louis’s voice takes me out of my thoughts and back into reality, and I smile as I greet him. “H
ELIZABETH. I stand in front of the bathroom's small mirror with my toothbrush in hand and I groan at how puffy my eyes are and the trail of dried tears on my cheeks. I couldn’t stop my tears last night and I hated that so much. I hated how pathetic I felt. How pathetic he made me feel. I’ve always hated fighting with James but this is so much different. I hate how bad I feel about it too. I sigh and apply the paste on my brush, one hand harshly rubbing on my cheeks to wipe off the dried tears, until I’m afraid I might leave a scar while I use the other hand to brush. ~After calming myself with the hot water and taking longer in the bathroom than necessary, I step back into my room with a small towel wrapped around my body. I move to my closet and open it to take out my school uniform when my phone vibrates on my bed. With the school uniform in hand, I turn to retrieve it and Louis's text is staring back at me. There’s more than one and I slowly scroll to reveal all. LOUIS: Did
ELIZABETH.His lips stay against mine for a second and just as he opens his mouth, I press my hands to his chest to stop him and he moves back with a dazed expression on his face.His hooded eyes are staring right into mine and I feel my panties dampen between my thighs when his breath comes out in short pants.I move my hand from his chest to his face and trace a finger over his bottom lip. It feels soft against my fingertips, and I want to bite and suck on it until it’s bruised."Lizzie. " James calls my name as he moves one hand over the one I have on his face. He guides my finger from his lip to his mouth and a gasp falls from my mouth at the feel of his warm tongue against the skin as he sucks on my middle finger."Fuck." I mutter and James smirks before he lets my finger slips from his mouth. He doesn’t move, and he doesn’t do anything else as he waits for me to make my next move and the tension between us can cut through a wood as we breathe in a rhythm.God. I can’t hold on any
ELIZABETH.James’s eyes are waiting for a response to his words, but I don’t trust myself to have one. Even after he just confessed to wanting to kiss me again. Words that I never thought I’d be hearing for him and ones that make my heart leap with glee."I—" I begin and he nods for me to continue. "Hmm." I pause when James pushes his head to the side, his nose scratching against the crook of my neck."James," I grab his shoulders as he presses his lips to my neck, sniffling and gnawing on the skin. Fuck."I’m all ears, Elizabeth." He whispers into my ear before he pulls back to meet my eyes. But he isn’t ending there. He bends his leg, pressing his knee against the bed, which gives him easier access to my lower body, and I let out a pleasured sigh when he raises my shirt a bit and traces his finger across my stomach."Why?" I find myself asking him and his gaze moves to where he’s touching, not meeting my eyes as he asks. "Why what?""Why did you say that? You want to know what I tas
ELIZABETH.I look down at the space between us with reddened cheeks after James’ question, and I shake my eyes as I meet his eyes. "No."He smiles, burying a hand in my hand while the other goes around my lower back. "Well, you’re about to touch one."He moves his head forward, snatching my lips in his and I let out a groan in his mouth as I swipe my tongue over his plump lips, pulling the upper one between my teeth and sucking for a good few seconds before I slide my tongue in his mouth.James keeps my head tilted for easier access to my mouth and soon his mouth disappears down my neck. I shut my eyes and let out a low moan as he decorates my hot neck with kisses down to my throat. He presses a kiss there and my hands move to his shoulder. After a quick kiss to my chin, he takes my mouth again.He breaks away from the kiss just as I start to run out of breath, and there’s an unfamiliar look in his eyes as he stares down. I understand the slight gesture and move to my feet before him.
ELIZABETH.James is leaning against the shelves with glasses on and a lopsided smile."James?" I call in surprise, turning back to where I just saw him before I look back at him. "Weren’t you just there?""You were watching me?" He raises a brow as he grabs the book and takes a step closer. I blush at the indirect confession, then try to lie my way out of it. "What? No, I wasn’t. I was just—I uh. Came in and saw you."He hums. "If you say so, gorgeous."I snatch the book from him, and he laughs as he crosses his arm. My eyes take in his full appearance and him in white rimless glasses is doing things to my heart. Where did he even get that from? He wasn’t wearing that when I came in earlier."Where did that come from?" I nod towards his face and he touches the glass. "Oh, this? It’s just to study better. I’ve had this for a while but hated how I look in it, so I don’t use it often." Hate how he looks in it? He must be insane if he thinks he looks anything other than hot in this."It’s
ELIZABETH. James moves away from me so fast and I press my hand to my mouth to push back the sound that threatens to fall. "James. You’re still here?" It’s Gabriel’s voice and I immediately remove my hand from my mouth when I hear him getting closer, and shut my eyes instead. "Yeah. Still here, trying to finish the movie." James laughs and Gabriel whispers something I didn’t catch. "There it is. Oh, I think Elizabeth fell asleep." God, this is so awkward. "Yeah. Don’t worry about her. I’ll get her to bed." I hear James say and Gabriel speaks again. "Alright. Have a great night, son." "You too, Dad." There’s silence and then the sound of receding footsteps. I open one eye first to make sure it’s safe before I open the other and I meet James’ gaze. Immediately our eyes meet, we both break into a laugh and he presses a finger to his lips for me to keep it down. He grabs the remote and turns the volume a notch up before he falls back on me, and I let out another laugh. "That was f