Grace woke up when a shinning of sunlight hit her face, making her smile. She was feeling peaceful and complete. Her heart was happy and dancing with joy, feeling the love last night.
She bit her lips thinking about last night, how Aaron made her feel so good, gave her so much pleasure. He made her feel loved and wanted. She can still feel the pleasure that happened last night. Their lovemaking was so beautiful.
She feels so happy when she feels the arms that are wrapping around her waist tightly and the breath that hits her neck.
She slowly turned around and faced her husband. He was looking so handsome and cute in his sleeping form. She touched his face and smiled shyly, how this man-made her feel loved last night.
Aaron stirs in his sleep and opens his eyes slowly when he feels the soft touch on his face. Grace smiles shyly and looks down.
"Good morning" she mumbled softly smiling.
She looked up when she got no reply or any movement from Aaron.
"Aaron?" she called when she saw Aaron furrowed eyebrows.
Aaron removed his arms around her and suddenly sat up. "Shit!"
He muttered when the realization hit him.
"A-Aaron what happened?" Grace asked nervously getting up from her lying position.
"Shit! Shit! How did it happen" Aaron pulled his hair in frustration?
Grace bites her lips, and she doesn't know what to do or think of Aaron's reaction. He didn't regret it, right? No no don't think like this, Grace. He won't yeah.
She can't think positive.
But her hope crumbled with Aaron's next words.
"I am sorry, Grace."
"W-why?" she holds her breath and doesn't want to hear the next words. She's not ready, she can't take it.
"I was not in my right mind, I fucking lost control again. I didn't want to do this. I am sorry."
Aaron's every word was scratching her heart painfully. She breaths painfully. So hurt.
"B-but we are m-married, and you are my mate, it's alright, right? I-It's normal in a c-couple, then why are y-you s-sorry?" She was already tearing from inside, her chest was hurting badly. Just minutes ago she was so happy and so peaceful, how can this happen?
"But we are not a couple Grace!!" He shouted, standing up.
"I didn't even want a mate in the first place!!" he said, pacing back and forth. Grace tears started running down from her cheeks.
"Look, i-it was just a mistake. Don't take it seriously. Just think it didn't happen, and we are good. We live just like we were doing before, okay." He said and just stormed out of the room.
Grace grabbed her chest that was hurting painfully. A mistake. That was it?
The night she was so happy she was peaceful. Where she felt loved and wanted from her mate.... was just a mistake.
How can she forget the beautiful night of her life that engraves in her mind? How can she forget the sensation and feeling that's still in her body when Aaron touches her.
How can he say this so easily after pleasuring her for the whole night? Didn't he feel anything? No love? No pleasure? Not satisfied?
How?
Her mate dumped her again. Made fun of her. Crushed her hope into pieces again.
Snatched her happiness.
She cried and cried, curling herself into a ball. I longing just wanted her mate warmth. Still craving for his love and comfort. She feels useless.
She is not good enough for her mate. Her mate didn't find her beautiful. He is disgusted with her. He didn't love her. She's ugly. She's not pleasurable. She's not good for her mate. She's useless.
She blamed herself again.
For hoping. But what can she do? She's always wanted her mate's love. But when she's not getting it, she is sensitive and blaming herself for not satisfying her mate.
She sobs just thinking of the night where she was crying in pleasure. And love. Where Aaron made love with her. And now she's crying in pain, in longing.
She wished it was just a bad dream. A nightmare but the brutal pain in her chest and the loud sobs of her making Grace realize is that it's a reality.
Aaron really just left her after making a beautiful night with her. Saying it's just a mistake.
Why? Why is it always her? Why everyone leaves her. Is she bad luck? Is she a curse to everyone, or is she a bad person that no one wants her. No one stays with her.
Yes, she's a curse because then why did everyone leave her crying every time.
First, her parents leave her after giving her love and promise to never leave her alone. They leave her alone in this cruel world.
She wants her mother. Her warmth, her sweet voice that calms her to sleep. She wants to cry in her lap and sleep in her love and warmth.
She wants her father—his protection, his strong scent to comfort her and make her feel safe.
She misses them so much.
SHe cried in loneliness and longing with aching heart and fear of being all alone in this world.
It was after two weeks when Grace felt something was wrong with her. Like she's so sick every time throwing up anything she put in her mouth, feeling dizzy all of a sudden, eating weird things, wanted to bask in Aaron scent or wanted to be in his arms, it's not like she didn't want before, but now she feels like she can't breathe if Aaron is not there she literally feels like dying whenever she can't see Aaron.She becomes more sensitive, she will cry for every little thing, like one time she accidentally steps on a tiny aunt and sobs so badly feeling like a murderer. She feels like she can't control her body and her emotions.She feels like hungry all the time and just wanted to sleep the whole day and never wanted to even pull a finger. She feels tired, even without doing anything. She knows what's happening she can feel it but in denial because she's scared. What will happen if it's true?And finally, after waiting for one more week, she took the test and cried her heart out seein
He exploded............Out of happiness. Yes, happiness and joy. He couldn't believe Grace is pregnant with his baby. He's going to be a father. He always loved children and wanted one of his own, and when he found Grace bearing his baby, he's the happiest person in the world.He ran towards Grace, making her whimper in fear, she thought Aaron's going to harm her unborn baby but what he did shook her to the core.Aaron hugged her tightly. He wrapped his strong protective arms around her waist tightly but carefully as to not squish her tummy. For the first time in their two years of marriage, Aaron hugged her. For the second time in her life, her mate hugged her. First, when they discovered each other as mates when Aaron hugged her. She doesn't know how to react. She has frozen in her spot."Love! Goodness, I am so happy. I am going to be a father. I can't believe it."He called her love.. the nickname he never gave her. His voice is not the cold and emotionless that he used to
Never celebrate beforehand." God has something else planned for Grace; she has more challenges in her basket."Grace had never imagined that there would be a time where she will regret mating with Aaron.She never did before, even after what Aaron did to her. She never thought like that. She always had this hope in her that one day she will get her mate's love and attention and opened the door's of her heart for Aaron to come every time and anytime.She was ready to forgive him. Giving themselves a chance after knowing she's pregnant and her Aaron accepts her. These thoughts never came in her mind because Aaron's action never let her. She forgave him again at that time.But now she doesn't know what to do. She's happy, she's so pleased that she's pregnant, but her heart became so fragile and vulnerable that she's started to envy her baby. Her blood, her flesh.She hates herself. How cruel is she's to be jealous of her baby? How can she think about that? She's the worst parent for her
It's been four years now. Four years ago, Grace gave birth to a baby boy named Asher. A strong but beautiful boy. He's brilliant and clever.Many things have changed now and are for sure, not good. Grace has changed even Aaron did too.Grace is not a bubbly person anymore. She lost her personality now. She lost her smile; she lost her heart, her emotions, her feelings.She's not Grace who was trying to make her relationship with Aaron. She's not Grace who was seeking for her mates warmth and comfort. She's not that Grace, who was waiting for her mate. She's not that Grace, who was comforting herself telling herself a lie. She's not the Grace who once hoped for little things her mate did. She's not the Grace who hoped now. She's not the Grace who has been hurt not physically but emotionally and verbally. She's not the Grace who cried in longing and despair for her mate.She's not Grace without her soul which hid in the depth of her pain long ago. Weak and miserable can't see the disgust
Aaron, Well, where should we start from what he feels. Hmmm, how about let's go to the past and highlight from the day his baby was born four years ago.The most beautiful day of his life when he held his baby for the first time. His strong and handsome champ, Asher. That was the happiest day of his life.Two months after his baby was born, he started to feel or like realize things, concerning Grace.He noticed how things have changed. Grace doesn't talk like literally he never heard her saying anything. But he dismissed the thought thinking that maybe she's not feeling well or something and focused on his 2 months old baby.Time has passed by and little by little, he feels like there's something wrong. He can't think of anything, but every time he comes home, there is this feeling like-like, he doesn't know how to word it. It's so gloomy or sad?He doesn't know.But after ten months when his baby turned 1 year old, he felt something. He noticed that he couldn't smell Grace's scent. He
Day by day he's feeling something he shouldn't feel. He shouldn't be bothered if Grace won't talk anymore, or if Grace doesn't show any emotions anymore, he shouldn't feel bothered by Grace lack of interest, he shouldn't be alarmed if he can't scent her,he shouldn't be concerned about the distance Grace made from everyone, he shouldn't be bothered that their baby is always neglecting Grace and prefer him over Grace,he shouldn't feel bothered about Grace feels. He shouldn't fucking bother!!!!He's frustrated because he is.He is fucking bother by everything.And the big question is...WHY?He feels like clowning himself. He doesn't understand what's happening to him. He feels disregarded, gloomy but why. Simple...Because of Grace.He feels guilty without knowing the reason. His heart is scratching. His chest is sober; he feels like a criminal without doing any crime. What did he do to feel like this?He knows but just not accepting it like a coward.He came home after the long hours
He stood up after eating and discarded the dishes into the sink. He goes upstairs going towards his son's room first to check on him. He opened the door lightly not to make much noise and gets inside. He walks to him, smiling down at him, seeing his baby sleeping peacefully with an adorable pout on his lips.He caressed his hair, leaning down to kiss his forehead lightly. "Sweet dreams, baby."He gets up and walks out of the room, closing the door behind him. He walked to his room and entered going towards his closet to get the clothes.He took a long cold shower to relax his mind and heart, and wear comfortable clothes. He walked towards the bed and lay down. He looked to his side at the lump of his mate wrapped in a blanket far away at the very end of the bed.he signs remembering the time when they used to cuddle together"Aaron!! it tickle don't do that" Grace giggle adorably removing Aaron hands from her belly."But I want to talk to our baby," Aaron said and got to his business:
Aaron"He heard the cold deep voice of Grace. He was turning around from where he was sitting on the sofa in the living room with his laptop on his lap."Yes" finally after what feels like centuries he heard Grace's voice. It's been so long Grace tried to talk with him. It feels so good to listen to his name from her mouth."Asher has constantly been whining to go to the park" she informed him.Aaron's eyes sparkled at that, and he instantly offered."Yeah, sure we will go together and eat lunch ou-" her voice cut him off."No, I'm not coming. Just go with him" she coldly spoke with her usual emotionless face and went away from there without waiting for Aaron's reply."But-" he sighs.It always happens like this. Grace refuses to go anywhere he suggests.She is doing the same which he did to her."Aaron, can I come in?" Aaron stopped typing on his laptop when he heard Grace voice behind the door of his office door situated at the end of the hallway of his house.He sighs already annoye