"Are you in your office Hamza? I need to see you now, If you're in the middle of a meeting I can wait, but please contact me once you finish"You need to know something about me, I'm really not the type to cry so often, well phobia blew up my strong facade but putting that aside I cried in front of that man maybe foursome of times or so.I guess it was for this reason that his first reflex was to ask,"Are you in pain? Are you hurt Inaya?""No, But something came up""What happened?""I can't talk on the phone, I need to see you" I replied.""where are you now?" He asked firmly.I took a deep breath, and answered:"in the company building""ok, you go wait for me in the office, It will take me a bit to come, so wait for me there""Hmm," I said a bit disappointed.I thought that he will try to come as soon as he could if I called him like this, but as it turned out to be, his work was still much more important than I was."Inaya?" He called my name after some time.I looked at my refle
"I was on a business trip out of the country, I couldn't come earlier, I flew as soon as you called," Hamza said."what! You were not in the country!!" I shouted.He nodded as if it was a matter of fact that needed no question and no surprise.I just couldn't believe that man!"Hamza, did you come back just because I called you?" I asked both taken aback and burdened."Yes""you could have just told me you were not in the country! I would have spoken with you in the phone,""I didn't come because of you Inaya, don't get that wrong" he soon interrupted me.He leaned on his desk, closed his eyes, and while exhaling he said,"ever since the accident, I started to have this terror, And this regret, I have to keep an eye on you all the time and I have to come as soon as possible when you need me to, I have to do that or else I'll go crazy"Hearing those words from the man who never cared about anything I really felt sad.I know all about uncontrollable terror.In the past years, I never wo
" I'm ok now"My heart started to beat so fast... I felt guilty.Did it make him that happy just because I showed that I was concerned?A part of me wanted to say,"Please make yourself less obvious, how can I keep hating you if I see how honest you are?"He kept smiling when he added,"your bag is on the sofa... You take it and wait for me at the company entrance, I'll drive you home after I make a couple of calls"I looked outside the window to observe the dark sky and I figured out that it was indeed convenient that he drives me home.So I nodded, I took my bag, and left his office.The building was almost empty at that time, only a few hardworking employees were still moving around like ghosts barely making a sound.I took the elevator to the lobby, and then I waited there in the warmth.I remembered that Hamza might expect me to be waiting outside the building so I sent him a text saying,"I'm waiting in the lobby, call me when you drive the car to the entrance"The text was succ
"why would you change your clothes?" I asked displeased.He looked at me mischievously and replied like a fox,"do you want me to sleep in my suit?"That shameless man started to undress right after he finished saying this!I ran out of the room right away feeling weird.Such a strange reaction of mine can only be explained by the fact that I had treated and considered that man as a stranger, it is both inconvenient and shameful to argue with a stranger while watching him getting naked.While slamming shut my room's door and cursing him inside my heart, I had already started imagining the scenario from three years earlier repeating itself, Hamza forcing himself into my life.back then it took me about two months to recover from my miscarriage and the additional injuries, by the time I left the hospital I was already fired from my recent job, The scars on my thighs were permanent and the possibility of me getting pregnant again was weaker, pretty much everything was ruined.So many psy
"you dare leave me?" He asked with a tone coming from the depth of hell.I was literally dying of terror looking at him... I didn't speak.He raised his free hand in the air, it was then that I noticed he was holding a file of papers, divorce papers to be precise, he waved them in my face in an insanely manner, And suddenly he slammed them hard on the wall behind us with so much power that the poor file of papers creased and torn before falling weakly to the ground."you dare ask for a divorce?" He said with a ready-to-kill voice.In all the time we spent together and through all the problems that we lived, I shall say with certitude that Hamza never hated me immensely like he did at that hour and place, even the way his fist squeezed my arm, I bet he wouldn't have cared even if my bone cracked because of the force he used, because at that moment... It seemed like I was his worst enemy.I was so terrified of him that I finally decided to give up my "never speaking with you again" batt
At that time I was so generous in letting him hug me for such long hours, I thought to myself that once he woke up and his anger is all gone and his health is restored I will talk some sense into his head and make him sign the divorce papers, I will convince him to give me back my freedom and walk out of my life, And logically remind him that we only brought hurt and suffering to one another. That it was better if we separated.Of course, I had underestimated him by loads, that man woke up healthy like a Thor, he refused all my negotiations and further more he moved to live in my apartment for the next month and a half!Imagining him moving to my apartment again after three years of that incident my head had already started to hurt.I will never understand that man, Seriously.After I left my room I simply walked to the kitchen holding the empty glass of water, then I yelled,"if you expect me to cook for you again then that is your wishful thinking, if you want to eat then you buy yo
INAYA -"I miss you"Hamza whispered to my "sleeping" face.I felt the blood racing to my cheeks immediately, thankfully he couldn't see my blushing face, and for this, I shall make many attributions, to my insightful brain who decided to turn off all the lights in the house, to the broken street light, to the lazy worker who always forgets (refuse) to change the bulbs no matter how we complained, to the dark moonless sky.Except for blushing I thankfully had no additional external reaction to Hamza's sudden confession thereby my act of sleeping was not affected.As for the atmosphere inside my heart after hearing those words, I was in chaos!I was so happy yet so annoyed and sad, I didn't want to be affected but I was, Immensely, Affected.Because I missed him too, I must be a masochist but I hell miss that man so much.I miss all about him, Even the way he annoyingly puts his slippers orderly beside the bed instead of tossing them just wherever, I miss that.I'm not sure in what ca
He nodded with a smile.Seeing that he had no intention of arguing with me I lost interest in quarreling with him as well, I looked at the watch, then I went directly to the kitchen to eat whatever sweet thing I have.I know it's very unhealthy... But I'm not a morning person, I usually have my cup of coffee and milk around 10 am, it was 07:09 am then.After I finished eating I noticed that hamz5 was strangely standing at the door of the kitchen... I was not sure when he came, so I just kept eating the biscuits ignoring him."Is this your breakfast?" He finally asked."yes"I thought he was going to scold me for being unhealthy and the sort because that's what he does, unexpectedly though, he said,"then where's mine?""I told you to buy your own food last night" I replied indifferently.Well, although I acted harsh and heartless, I still ended up giving him half the biscuits that I had a few seconds later, with a frown on my face while mumbling,"It's an exception today."I had alway