His eyes are straightly looking into mine. I can feel how deep his breath is. Why is he this close?!
"Hey what are you doing?" That is the only thing that I think of to make him stop from doing whatever bad intention he is thinking of doing to me. I unconsciously block his body who's getting closer to mine. I can feel how my hand holds his chest as he tried to corner me into the bookshelf. You can hear how some of the books fall in the ground as I hit it. I tried to grab something that is behind me but to my surprise, it even make me fall. I am not sure whether I should be lucky that he is holding my hands which makes me stay on foot.What is he thinking?? I don't know...
My gaze locked in his.Madison keep your cool. Don't get distracted by his face! Surely... he is handsome but... don't! Don't look!
Why does he look so much different than he is yesterday? Is it because he is in his casual clothes? Even so... Why am I acting like this? It is not that it was ages ago since I last interact with a man! Setting that aside, is he even a man? I mean a real human man? Wait what? Even I get disturbed by how it sounds...Still... with that much time to waste my mind thinking...I didn't even have a chance to think of anything that I can do to get him away from me. I thought I am strong enough yet I can't even make this damn weirdo get out of me!I gulp. Why isn't he saying anything? His eyes are straightly looking into my lips. It was as if he wanted to kiss me. This man... I thought he make things clear?? I thought he doesn't have feelings for me? Ah! Man is such a liar!"Hey! Get off me! You-"DamnI was so surprised when something started to touch my nose. I close my eyes thinking that he will kiss me again just like what he did when we were in the church for the wedding ceremony.
Is that his nose? Who is touching mine??? I wanted to know if it really is that but then... I... don't seem to have the courage to know that fact.
He took my first kiss. My very first kiss!
I never had someone to like. I can say that I started to hate people. I don't believe in others. The only one I can believe of is myself and me alone. The only one that I can give my trust to is no one but me!
Still, I should be acting with my own reflexes right now. I should have been kicking the hell out of him, why aren't my legs moving??
I gulp. What is he trying to do! Idiot! I will freakin slap- ahh I forgot I can't move my arm! I open my eyes. Glaring at him, anger started to disperse in my system. I opened my mouth. Thinking that I must say something but in the end... I just close it.He finally let go of my hand. Which makes me fall to the ground. I never knew I am as weak as this. Even with this mental strength of mine, my feet give in. Hah, I hate it. I feel useless. I want to curse him. Yell at him. Yet...
Why can't I do something like that?'A good girl won't say bad words to others. You can yell but, Madison... mommy will be hurt if I hear. Bad words coming out from your beautiful lips. The only thing that can escape this is... beautiful songs... aren't I right?'
I look down in the grown.
Why am I still stuck in those words... is it a curse?
I tried to look at Gavin. He is still standing in front of me. Even so, he turns his back at me. I can't fully see his face. This idiot. What the hell does he want? I sing for him and yet... ahhh I shouldn't have done that.
I always make the wrong decision.
Hearing him clear his throat, I avoided his gaze. As much as I wanted to stand up. Not now. Not in front of him. It would be good if he thought that I am a fragile lady who might break if he touched me wrongly. Surely he wouldn't wish to be widowed this early. Would he?"You can stroll around this area but do not enter the locked rooms. It is beyond the boundaries you can take"A tap coming from his feet can be heard. He isn't wearing comfortable slippers even though he is in the mansion. I wonder why.
And so, he left. He didn't even bother to look at me and listen to what my response is. How... rude. So what should I do now? I get up as soon as I make sure that he is no longer here. I use my hands as I tidied up my dress who has wrinkled because of what happened earlier. Clapping my hands, I tried to remove the dirt in it. I did that even if I can't see any dirt or small uneasiness on it. I don't know I just wanted to be sure. Doing this would make me feel at ease.Looking at the pile of books felll because of the impact I did when I hit the shelves, one by one I pick it up and bring it back to the place where they might came from. I don't even bother checking whether they are supposed to be there or not. It wasn't my fault in the first place that they were knocked off the grounds. As long as they are still here, there is nothing to be worried about.I look for the book diary I have with me a while ago but...
"I wonder where I put that book..."Defeated, I failed to find that diary.But… I remember that it was here just a while ago. Ahhh, if not for that Gavin… this is all his fault! I walked slightly stumping my steps wanting to release my anger. I feel bad for not finding that diary. While on my way to where my room is, I halted when I saw the chained room.Curiosity creeps inside me.Who would have their door visibly chained? What the hell is in there? It’s not something dangerous, is it? Maybe I can sneak there if I have a chance. That is what I thought but… it would be more scary if I did find something weird on it.I sometimes watch movies like when the protagonist finds a mysterious room inside the killer’s house and ends up having tons of dead bodies in it. Oh, I remember one manhwa about a killer who likes to peel onions so that the smell of the blood will not reek off him. He liked his neighbor who i
“My Family?” I was stunned at his unexpected question. Seriously, did he forget that I don’t regard my father and that Mirranda b*tch as my parents? What family is he saying? Is he an idiot or what? Besides... Are they even qualified to be called a ‘Family’? Especially those mother-daughter b*tch duo who made my life miserable? They started talking down on me. Thinking that they could hurt my feelings. ‘Pathetic. You can’t even do this much?’ ‘Maybe that’s why your mother left you’ ‘What a nuisance’ ‘Why don’t you just die? At least you’ll do something right for once’ Stupid bird brains thought that will hurt me. It didn’t even scratch my heart. They just made it into my nerves and annoyed the hell out of me. Of course, it didn’t stop there. My lovely sister, who was loved by all, acted all pitiful once I fought back. She actually looked stupid than pitiful to me.
I was confused and interested at the same time. Gavin ordered the maids to clean the table and bring out a bottle of wine and some snacks. I waited for him to talk more about this deal he was talking about. He stood up, receiving the bottle of wine and a cart with snacks. He asked them to leave us. “So, you really don’t have a family?” I looked at him as he opened the wine bottle, asking the same question. Why is he asking that so many times? Is he making fun of me? Or… Ah Is he trying to lighten the mood? Because of what happened a while ago? The- The kiss? Oh... I started to smile. &
After a long ride full of thoughts about Gavin being sick, I ended up scolding myself for thinking about him too much. Now, we’re just waiting for our turn to get out. “Don’t be nervous and relax.” He said while fixing his tie. “Well, there is nothing to be nervous about, right?” “Sure. Just be ready to get on stage.” “What? Why?” I asked. He gave me his handsome smile. “Well tonight, my dear, our love will be announced officially. The world will know about the existence of Mrs. Morgan" Huh?! I was about to ask what he was talking about when the door of our car opened and the next thing I knew was that I was being escorted by Gavin inside the event hall. As soon as we entered, most of their attention went to us and I can't help but feel like my knees will soon break down. I didn't know that Gavin it. Well... yes, he do notice it since he was walking beside me. "I thought I told
“Don’t look.” I was shocked when the person covered my eyes and asked me not to look. Right now, I wasn't sure of what to feel. I heard something crashing. A glass falling and shattering apart. Now, it makes me wonder what it is. Still, how weird of me to not be afraid about this person covering my eyes. I wonder why my body just let him. Is he someone familiar? I can hear people’s gasp and ladies’ screams as if they saw something terrifying. Is this person trying to cover my eyes so that I won’t see it? “How awful!” “Who on the earth is that guy?!” “Oh my god!” "Blood!" And yes, some even shouted blood. Is it that brutal? Was it a crime? Did this person really cover my eyes so I won’t see it? How considerate but…. It was somehow familiar. This pattern... this way of covering my eyes... I can't help but remember him
“Are you… Are you Jordan Dein?” I asked. But seconds passed, I didn’t hear a single reply. Am I wrong? There are many possibilities anyway. It may be some random stranger who wanted to protect my mind. But if so, why me of all people, right? Only few people knew about my past trauma and the what if’s making me confused. Maybe it is because I am wishing that it’s him. Damn... It is not that... Well... it’s not that I’m expecting, but still... I would be really shock if he is still alive. Indeed, I do have a grudge about him. I... hate him for leaving me. I hate him for idolizing my mom to much that the very moment she is gone... he did the same. I miss him, of course. I wanna see him, for sure. I really want to see him and punch him in the face for breaking our promises. But... I already know and accept the fact that there is still a long way for that to happen.
W-Wha... I stopped what I am thinking as I realize what Gavin said. Luckily, my face was covered with Gavin's broad shoulder. My eyes widened as I felt something in my stomach. I felt hot all of the sudden and felt my cheeks flush. What the.. Is he being sincere? I didn't know he's this sweet. Hehe. I smiled while inhaling his mint- wait what? What am I doing? Of course it's an act! What the hell Maddison? I mentally facepalm. Why am I getting carried away? So stupid. Shit I calm myself before breaking the hug. My hands went to his shoulders, trying to break free but... "Ah." I froze when Gavin moaned. What? Huh? What was that? The smell that I've been wondering for a long while turns more stronger. As I retreated, I saw my hands stained with blood. Looking terrified, I look at Gavin then his shoulders. "Oh my... Gavin, are you okay?" I fo
The private room they gave us was one of their hotel suites. I didn’t know it was a hotel in the first place. The room consists of one bathroom, a closet, a dining area, a balcony and a bedroom that also have a TV and… one big bed. This place... is so small. I am surprised with my reaction and thoughts because... it seems to be not me. Still, it is so... small compared to Gavin's house. Although, if you compare it with my room back then, maybe this place would be such a luxury if I may say. Well then... Nevermind that. We’re not sleeping here anyway. I looked away from the bed and ended up looking at Gavin’s glorious back. Wait... what?? With my realization, I immediately look away, still... there’s so much blood rolling down on his back. “Please lock the door.” He said before going inside the bathroom. I sighed and just did what he said. I locked the door and sat on the sofa beside the balcony’s door. Guilt