I looked at Becka who just smiled and nodded her head eagerly.
“Don’t worry about me. I have adventures of my own.”
She whispered in my ears as she read the look in my eyes. I was worried she’d be pissed that I left her alone to follow some dude I’d never met.
Most people judged Becka because she was loud, moody, sometimes very inappropriate and a bad influence on me like my mother insinuated but I thought she was the realest person I knew who didn’t sugarcoat things or thought the world was full of rainbows at every corner.She was as real as life got.
She was vocal, where I was timid, strong where I was weak and we fit like two halves of a burnt puzzle.I nodded at her and smiled at the man.“Sure.” Becka waved at me while she went in the opposite direction of her house, going to heavens knows where.
I was nervous as fuck as he drove us to his place.
I knew the rules of the game. No names exchanged. No questions asked. He’d wear protection and I would pepper spray him and kick him in the balls, if I felt unsafe. It sounded like a solid plan in my head but in reality, chances were, I was fucked.‘How did people do this? Just follow a stranger home and have sex.’ I thought to myself as I subtly wiped my clammy hands on my mid-thigh skirt.I’d opted for easy access clothes in case I got lucky tonight. Yup. I was a certified slut.All the while, the guys hands remained knuckle-tight white on the steering wheel and eyes on the road.
He parked his car in front of a grand house. I hadn’t been able to tell from his car that he was loaded.I followed him up the staircase as he opened several doors till we stopped at one.For the first time, he really looked at me, his pupils dilating. My lips parted in surprise at the warm brown of his eyes. Brown was usually boring but his looked honeyed.
He approached me gently as his hands took my neck and brought his lips to mine. His lips weren’t gently. He kissed like he was starving and my lips were an oasis in the desert. I pulled at his shirt as I stepped out of my heels. Yes, I had worn heels too. Becka told me they made my legs look really long and sexy.My height dropped significantly when I took off my heels, so he had to bend to kiss me. His lips pried mine open as I moaned when his tongue found mine. His tongue licked mine and battled for dominance. My body heated with need as my panting increased, my lips bruised with kisses.
His hands found my skirt and pulled them over my legs, breaking us apart for a few seconds before he smashed his lips on mine again.There was nothing gentle about him. He just wanted a release and he’d found me. I wanted the same thing. I needed the same thing. He pushed the door open with his leg as he continued to kiss me with frenzied fervour. When the buttons of his shirt refused to come off, I pushed them apart, shocking myself as buttons skidded against the floor.
I’d thought he’d stop and complain about his ruined shirt. He didn’t. He pushed me against the bed and I fell on my back with a thump, giving me just enough time to see some ink on his back. He was tattooed on most of his skin. Were those wings?
I heard a nylon rip as he turned back to me.
“The rest was somewhat hazy as I woke up on his bed.” I recounted the story to Becka who had also found it weird that I couldn’t remember much.
“You weren’t that drunk, were you?”
“No, I don’t think so.”
“So, did you fuck or not?” I blushed as I touched my lips. My legs tingled as I squeezed them together. It was weird that I couldn’t really remember much. Becka squealed as she smacked my arms.
“Actually… it was weird when I woke up this morning. There was no one in the house.” My brows furrowed on remembering how alone I’d felt.
“Maybe he left to go get breakfast or something.”
“The house just felt really empty. What if I was a thief?” She scoffed.
“You don’t even look it.” My eyes narrowed at her, offended.
“I can be a thief.”
“Why are you saying that like it’s a good thing? You know what, I’m not about to have another mindless argument with you.” I stuck out my tongue childishly at her.
“Your parents aren’t back yet?” I looked around as we sat on her kitchen counter devouring ice-cream unhealthily.
“Nope.” She popped with the spoon in her mouth.
She had a place of her own but she sometimes came back home when she was sure her parents weren’t around. They fought a lot.She went upstairs to grab her bag as she was going back to her place in a few minutes.She had only come back because I’d told her I got into UC, Berkeley. The flight back home to Ohio was about 5 hours and she’d come for me.“I’ll miss you so much.” I hugged her as she appeared with her bags.
“I’ll miss you too pipsqueak.”
“I’m not that short.” I glared at her
“You’re 5’5. You are short but it’s okay. You’re cute” I squeezed her tight around her midriff.
“Okay.. Okay. You’re average height.” I let her go, a huge smile on her face.
“I’ll see you in a few weeks.” School was resuming in a couple of weeks. I hoped I’d be seeing a lot of her.
I bid her bye as I walked back to my house. I wondered what my mum was doing. If she had gotten out of bed today and finally come outside for the first time in months.
The smile on my face fell as I got back to my house.
There were police cars surrounding the house and I wondered what was going on.
“Excuse me… Excuse me!” I pushed back the crowd that had gathered.
The police men kept pushing me back. This was my fucking house and I had the right to be there.
One of the other police officers realised I was struggling to pass through the crowd when he held up his hands for them to let me go.“Who are you?”
“This is my house. Can you tell me what the hell is going on?” I didn’t care if I had just cursed at a police officer. I just wanted to know what was going on.
His expression fell and there was pity in his eyes.“Okay, I need you to calm down.”
“What’s going on?”
“It’s your mum.”
My eyes flashed to the house. I ran straight to through the door and saw something that scarred me for life. My legs gave up on me as I crumbled to the floor, a scream escaping me.
Funeral processions had gone by quickly since she was still quite young. Very few people came by as she didn’t have a lot of friends or family.I couldn’t stay in the house after what I had seen and Becka’s parents had gladly housed me even though I had woken them up every night since that day.I’d made them promise not to tell Becka. I just couldn’t bring myself to tell any other person who hadn’t seen it happen.“Say hi to Becka for me and tell her to call home often. We haven’t seen her or heard from her in a while.”David, Becka’s dad, hugged me as they called passengers for boarding.I nodded at him and smiled at her mum. They waved me bye as I went towards the boarding area. I didn’t look back because I knew the emotions I’d read in their eyes and I didn’t want to see them.Despite their tasking jobs, they’d driven me up to the airport and waited till I got called in. I would forever be grateful for them.I took a deep breath As I boarded the plane, wondering how long it’d take
Snickers emanated all around me as his eyes narrowed and water continued to spill. “Are you just going to sit there and watch it spill over?” His tone hard and directed at me. It bounced me out of my stupefied state.I left the class to find a janitor who could direct me to the cleaning supplies room. Luckily, I found one with a mop stick. I had somehow managed to make a fool of myself in front of the entire class and also delayed the class by extra 20 minutes.By the time I had returned the mop and gotten back to my seat, he’d scribbled his name across the board and introduced himself. “My name is Jared. I will be your ECON101 lecturer for the semester. My door is always open to receive you should you have any questions.” How on earth had I managed to have the worst luck in the world? Ohio to California was as far away as far away got so, the chances that my one night stand stood in front of me as my Econs lecturer was already the world playing a huge joke on me. If at all fate
I snapped my head up.Had I heard right?Matt came in before I could confirm if he actually remembered me or not. He continued to list of requirements and rules for us without a mention of the previous incident and I forgot about it.If he was going to pretend he didn’t remember me, then I didn’t either. Why I felt disappointed, I couldn’t fathom.“...like one of those cool teachers.”“Hmm?” I had zoned out as Matt continued to drone off. Matt was cute in every sense. He looked like he played football in high school and was the probably the star player. I had a thing for shaggy blonde haired boys with baby blue eyes.“I said Jared is quite young. He’s so cool.” So guys also worshipped the ground where he walked. I rolled my eyes and snorted.“You don’t think so.” He said as a matter-of-fact.“I mean, I think it’s amazing that he’s got degrees so young. I just don’t see the hype.” He looked at me disbelievingly.“What? He’s overrated.” I lied through my teeth.“Yeah right.”We continue
“The demand affects the supply and that is why…” Jared droned off. Since 9am that I’d been in the class, the ladies behind me wouldn’t shut up and I could barely hear a word he’d been saying. “I think he just looked at me.” One of them giggled. “I think so too.” I looked to the back and set a glare on both of them. “Can you guys please keep quiet?” Their faces turned menacing. “What is going on?” I cringed in embarrassment as Jared’s voice reached my ears. “Nothing.” I muttered. His eyes narrowed at me. “You can’t disturb my class and not explain why.” My face tinged red in anger. I wanted to chuck something at his head. The girls behind me snickered in derision. “I’m sorry sir.” He paid me no mind as we continued the class. Every single second I spent in Jared’s class only made me hate him more. He was as difficult as he looked. I was stupid for thinking just because we’d met before, he’d be lenient with me. “I fucking hate him.” Matt chuckled beside me as we returned from hi
I decided against going into the class as I stood in front of the door.“God… I cannot face this man today.” I muttered to myself.“Are you going into my class or are you leaving? Which is it?” A voice that haunted my dreams reverberated behind me. I closed my eyes and counted to 5 in my head before I faced him. Feeling the contact irritate my eyes, I struggled to resist the urge to rub them.Why did he have to be so good-looking? I wanted so much to bash his head in so I didn’t have to be reminded everyday of how handsome he looked. I forced a smile on my face and batted my lashes at him, trying to see if he’d cave.“Sorry Mr Jared. Your classes are on of my best ones here on campus. I wouldn’t miss it for a thing.”If he knew that I was mocking him, he didn’t show it. Instead he brushed past me and muttered something I never thought he would under his breath.“And I’m the asshole.”I could swear his eyes found mine every minute and narrowed imperceptibly at me. Just when I thought I
“I swear, anyone who chucks a ball of paper at me again will…”“What will you do? Hmm?” Someone from the back yelled. I’d had enough of the insults, sneers, derisive comments and physical attacks. I stood up to address the issue when Jared walked in.“Everyone settled down.” Jared’s deep voice interrupted me, calming the atmosphere with his presence.I bit my tongue and swallowed whatever I was going to utter.“Sir, the assignment was not our fault. If anything, it’s water bottle girl’s assignment that shouldn’t be accepted.” I’d decided to name the girls always behind me, for God knows what reason, GG (gossip girl) 1 and 2. I wasn’t interested in learning their names. GG1 had spoken.“I think the whole class agrees on the fact that we don’t want her as our representative anymore.” Her voice seeping with vitriol. I had cost them part of their CA and I wasn’t surprised they’d wanted that. I understood how they felt and I would accept that. What I couldn’t take was the constant assault.
Jared lifted me up and let go of my body as if it burned him to stay in close proximity with me.“Are you okay?” Alyssa’s panicked tone sliced through the awkward air.“Yeah.” My voice sounded mangled and I cleared my throat, avoiding Jared’s eyes. I adjusted my shirt where it had ridden up and my skin felt warm to touch. I hoped it wasn’t obvious how tensed and embarrassed I felt.“I’ll see you around.” Jared finally spoke up, facing Alyssa. She blushed in return as he left, leaving just Alyssa and me in the hallway.“Now that is some cake.” I turned to look at her, shock marring my features.She giggled, covering her mouth in what? Embarrassment? She probably had forgotten that I was there with her.“I cannot believe you.” I shook my head and walked beside her as we exited the building.She wasn’t wrong though. Jared had it and my ears burned with the knowledge that I’d just checked his ass out.I would be lying if I said I hadn’t felt shivers all over. My skin still burned from his
I gambled on my thoughts and sent a risky text. I knew I’d never have the confidence to face him in person because even after sorting out my feelings I still felt confused.Call me stupid but something in me held onto the glimmer of hope that maybe he actually wanted something with me and I wasn’t being delusional.“Can we talk?” I placed my phone on my bed face down and squeezed my fist and biting my lip nervously. Was he going to reply? What was he going to reply?My phone chimed with a message and my heart skipped a beat. I blew out a breath and picked up my phone.“Why?” I squinted at my phone, trying to see if I’d missed the rest of his message.“What do you mean why? We need to talk.” I seethed as I battled with my keyboard.“I don’t think there’s anything we should talk about.” I could almost see his eyebrows drop in a frown. I scoffed. Apparently, only me thought there was this weird energy between us and it just made things incredibly awkward between us.“Okay, maybe it’s jus