12/ PAST LOVERS & FEELINGS

The last time I felt so much pain was when I was five and my mother had locked me outside at night. The neighbor's dog had gotten loose and it attacked me.

Mother was terrified when she realized that she had mistakenly left me out, but what could she do? Her three-month-old Alicia had always been more important.

This time though; It felt like a dagger had pierced through my chest. I wasn’t sure where all the pain was coming from. All I knew was that my entire body was dead weight and I could barely feel my legs.

“Louisa!” Someone shrieked and I heard a gasp. “Get it off her, It’s—“ I could barely hear them clearly over the sound of the chandelier falling; which replayed in my head even though it had happened moments ago.

“Someone call 911!” Another person yelled and I felt someone grab my hand and squeeze it.

I swallowed thickly and tried to speak but my jaw was stiff. As my view gradually turned black; I felt a tear slip down my cheek. I couldn’t hear Moore, had he also gotten st