MIA
It’s been at least five nights since I’ve seen Grey. I’m starting to feel every one of them.
Sometimes, if I really concentrate, I feel like I’m right there with him. Feeling what he’s feeling. Today is no exception. I don’t know what’s happening, but he feels happy. I try to figure out what he’s so happy about. It’s almost like a game for me. Guessing what makes Grey happy.
I can’t see him. Not in the present sense. I see him smiling on that log.
I can sometimes hear him in my mind. Like when Tay talks without moving his mouth. These are my favorite times because I sit and listen to his deep voice. I don’t know if he’s talking to other people, but it’s fun just to listen to his thoughts.
From his thoughts, I determined he’s an Alpha. He has a brother named Wes. I can pretty much conclude that Wes is the man that looks like Grey.
Grey likes his music. Though he thinks he can sing, I giggle because he can’t. He tries. I think it’s sweet.
He’s also some sort of trainer. I hear his strategies and his instruction to his lower wolves. He likes it. He feels happy training. I don’t. I don’t like fighting. I’m made to as part of the conditions to the Alpha.
Every once in a while, I feel sadness. Like he’s lost something. He feels lonely. I’m feeling it too. When he gets like this, I try to think of the song he played in my ear with that thing.
I try to think of the way it made me feel. I try to cover his sadness with my happiness for him. I don’t know if he knows I’m there, but I like to imagine he does.
Sometimes it’s not so good. I feel his anger and frustration. I block these feelings. I have enough of my own. I push them back to him. I don’t want them. I only want happy Grey. I like happy Grey. Though, it feels like he’s slipping away a little bit each time I listen to his thoughts.
I look out the window while listening to Grey when I hear the muffled sound of someone approaching my cage. Whenever, I hear someone come, I feel like they can see Grey in my mind, so I tuck him away just far enough that they can’t see him. He’s my happy secret that no one will ever know about ever.
I throw on my oversized pink sweater and stand nicely in the center of my cage, watching the large wooden door open.
The Alpha grins when I come into his view. I don’t.
He pulls out the key to my cage. “You look so beautiful, my love. Our guest will just love you.”
“Guest?” I whisper.
He opens the door and waves me out. He pulls me out and stands behind me. He moves my hair to expose my ear. He leans down and places his lips close. “Someone is very excited to meet you.” He whispers.
A feeling of dread washes over me. I wish I could reach in my mind to Grey, but I know he’s just a thought and he can’t save me.
We turn down the stairs. The Alpha has my shoulder.
Walking into the fancy room, I see men standing in the room. All the men have orange and yellow hair.
I wrap my arms around myself and lower my head. The one man is bigger than the rest. His hair is very red and he looks angry. His black suit struggles against his muscles. I feel fear in his presence.
He looks at me and smirks. He turns to the Alpha. “This is the Phoenix?” He drawls.
The Alpha nods. “This is. She may not look like much, but she’s strong. A good fighter. A good mate. Aren’t you, Mia?” The Alpha tucks my hair behind my ear which I hate. I don’t like my face exposed.
I nod. I don’t make eye contact.
The man crosses his arms. “How much water has she had?”
“I give her a cup a day. It keeps her healthy. But I’m afraid it wasn’t enough to improve her small stature.” The Alpha mirrors the man’s image.
“When we take her home, I’m sure we can revive the Phoenix in her. She’ll be strong to lead the pack. Mia. Would you like to come home? You’ve been gone for so long. We’ve searched for you for a long time.” He smiles.
I press my lips together.
“Answer, Alpha Sage, Mia.” The Alpha side eyes me, expecting compliance.
“Yes.” I say quietly.
Alpha Sage sits on the couch. “Join me, Mia.”
I look at my Alpha and he nods. I slowly walk to the couch and sit down. I sit straight and proper, but my head is lowered. My hair making a nice wall between my face and his.
He reaches over and tucks my hair. Making me flinch a bit. “No need to be scared. We don’t want to hurt you. You’re very special to us.” Alpha Sage says softly. “Do you know why we call you Phoenix, Mia?”
I shake my head no.
“The phoenix is a mysterious bird. It’s special. Like you. It has a strong love for its people. It gives the people its power. She rises above them. She brings death to life. You do that, Mia. You will bring life to us. Our Phoenix queen will protect us with your love and healing. You will allow us to once again, rise from the ashes and be reborn. Would you like that?” He studies my face.
I nod yes and give him a quick glance.
He smiles. “Good.” He stands and turns to the Alpha. “Now, you return the Phoenix to us and we will help you with your Nomad problem.”
The Alpha nods. “Those are the terms. Once I have the Alpha Female, Mia is yours.”
He nods and does up his suit jacket. “Thank you.” He turns to me. “Until we meet again, Mia.” He nods to me and I return it.
I know I’ve just been traded, but I feel a strange connection to Alpha Sage. Like I know him, but there’s no way I could know him.
I’m still terrified of not knowing what awaits me, but I’m almost glad that soon I’ll be out of the clutches of the Alpha.
This other female I can’t help but feel pain for her as I know exactly what kind of hell on earth the Alpha will deliver.
Through all of this, I think of Grey and his sweet smile. His strong body. His soft face as he talked to me. He seems to really care about how I feel in my interactions with him. Something I’m not used to, but I know for a fact I like it.
I want to get back to my room and hear his thoughts again. They can rid me of all this fear and pain I feel right now.
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GREY
I had a bit of a reprieve from the pain and anguish when foxy lady and I had our encounter in the woods. For a couple of days it was great. Then it started again. Fear, terror, sadness and about a thousand other emotions I didn’t have a name for.
My head again wanting to explode being bombarded by thoughts and expressions. I can’t make sense if any of it. It’s just noise. Pounding on my skull like a bongo. No amount of painkillers helps.
My body is a cool 115F today. Yeah, I’m walking around shirtless and I’m dripping in sweat.
Do you know what happens when a wolf is constantly in pain and uncomfortable? He gets aggravated. My wolf is hypersensitive to everything. I’ve had to shove him down so many times.
In the dining hall, I was eating and my friend Tony came up behind me. He clapped a hand on my shoulder. “Hey, buddy. You’re all sweaty. Good workout?”
I lift my head. My eyes flash blue and I grab his hand. Twisting it back, forcing him down to the floor. I squeeze it until I start to hear his joints pop.
“Ahhh! Grey! What the fuck?!” He’s grinding his teeth as I stand and face him. My lip in a snarl.
“Don’t touch me.” I growl.
“Okay!” He yells.
Wes ran from the good area. “Grey! Let him go!”
Tony’s whining and his forehead has beads of sweat as he’s twisting in my grip.
I rip my hand off, looking around the dining hall.
Tony is on his knees, holding his hand. Wes is staring at me like I have two heads. Honestly two heads would be easier to explain right now.
I feel like I don’t want to stop at his hand. With the amount of anger I feel right now, I can easily shift.
I feel the eyes on me. I hear the whispers clear as day. I need to leave.
I step over Tony on the floor and head to the locker room. I get to a sink and splash my face with cold water. My body is shaking. I’m having a full on internal battle with my wolf.
I stare at myself in the mirror. My eyes glow blue. My arms shake. My knuckles go white. I grit my teeth and crush the edge of the ceramic sink in my fingers.
I step back, looking at my shaking palms. Backing away. I run my hands through my hair and run out the front door of the dorm building. Shifting through my clothes and running into the woods.
I’m out of control. Can I just stay out here before I die. Will he let me? Probably not.
My wolf is laying in the brush. The dark cover of the trees, hiding me from the damage I’ve already caused.
“Grey?” Wes comes through on the mind link.
“What, Wes.” I mumble back.
“Hey. We’re being deployed. You might want to get back here asap." He informs.
A week ago, Bastian set up a special minute man unit for some guy he met in the woods. I guess he’s like the King of the Forest or some shit. I just know it’s a way to get in. We’re providing extra reinforcements for the forest guys Dragon threat.
I’ve been waiting for this. If my foxy lady is a Nomad fighter, she’ll be at this fight. I’ll corner her and take her somewhere to talk. I just need to talk to her. I need to try to convince her to accept me and make the bond. Then everything will be ok again.
Boy. Did I have it all wrong.
GREYI’m sitting in the transport truck. It’s bouncing as we speed to a location we’re told is Helena, but I know from history, Helena was destroyed when Torrent attacked so I’m not sure where exactly were going.My leg is bouncing as I lean on my knees. My eyes glued to the floor of the truck. I only glance up long enough to see Tony and his evil stare as he sits across from me. His hazel eyes boring holes in my brain.As I struggle to cage my wolf, I look at him. “Sorry, man.” I grumble.His eyes never falter and he doesn’t say a word. He just throws daggers at me.Wes is beside me. “Hey, Tony. Cut him some slack. He’s...not himself.”“Yeah, well.” Tony growls. “Keep him away from me.”I look at Tony as his eyes flare.I look down, nodding.I hate that I hurt my friend and I can’t even explain myself. I’m not ready to even try to explain what this is.Not until I find foxy lady and figure this out. I have a really good feeling she’s going to be at this fight.I run my hands to the n
MIAMy chest hurt. I didn’t understand what was happening. I’ve never had these feelings before. But when Grey left me in the cage, I wanted to cry. I could tell he was angry with me. I did something wrong. I don’t exactly know what. I can only think it’s because he wants to be where I am and he can’t. The Alpha would never allow it. He doesn’t know the danger he’s in.When he left, it made me very sad. I waited for him to come back, but he didn’t. Instead, others came for me.A big man in a uniform. He grabbed me and took me to a room. I was scared. I wanted Grey. I don’t know where I am. Grey was familiar and made me feel better. Now, he’s gone.I was taken into the room. I’m nervous and hide my face. The tall Alpha with long hair is scary. The dark haired Alpha is loud. The blonde haired Alpha is quiet which is OK. Then I see Alpha Lucius. I think he can help me. He can take me back to my village and out of here.“Where am I?” I squeak.“You’re with the outsiders.” Alpha Lucius say
GREYThe pounding.Make it stop.Why won’t it stop?I sit on the floor of my room holding my hair in my hands with my elbows on my knees.It’s crushing my head. Turning my brain to pulp. Just pounding and pounding away.I’m in the dark because the light hurts my eyes. I’m dripping in sweat and shaking.“Grey! Open the door!” It’s Wes.“Go away!” I growl loudly.“No! Sorry, bro. I’m not leaving until you open this door.” He yells through the door to my room.“FUCK OFF!!” I scream a growl and throw my lamp. It’s shatters on it.“Grey. Brother. Please. I want to help. Let me help you.” He says.“You can’t help me, Wes! No one can.” I hold my head tighter. I feel like my brain is going to explode.“Grey. Open the door. Please.” He pleads.He’s not going away and if I know my brother, he’ll never leave me alone. As twins, we don’t like it when one of us hurting and we will do anything to try and fix it. I better let him in before smashes the door down.I get up and walk to the door. My hea
GREY“Grey?”I jolt up. The sun burns my eyes and I reach up to shield them. Looking around, I grow confused when I see im in a field. I can feel the warmth of the sun. I see the breeze making the field flowers dance.“Are you ok?”“Who’s there?” I rise to my feet. Walking slowly in a circle. I scan the treeline edge for signs of movement.“I’m here.”I turn in the direction of the treeline. Walking slowly past the first trunks.I hear a tiny giggle echo through the trees.“Who’s there?” I scowl. I’m in no mood to be played with.“Hello.”I spin around and there she is. My face softens. She’s standing in a cute oversized pink sweater. My breath was completely taken away. Her big blue eyes find mine and I’m lost. My hands ache to touch her baby like cheeks. Her soft lips beg mine to kiss them. Desire swirls around in my gut.She’s got a small smile on her face.I look around. “Where am I?”She slowly takes a finger and taps her temple.“You’re doing this?” I step closer.She nods.“How
MIA“So, I think a nice pink and blue color scheme. What do you think?”Sarah’s so pretty. She has blue eyes and blonde hair, but her hair is so much brighter than mine and she’s super sweet. She’s helped me with all kinds of stuff like shopping and decorating. I’m not allowed to leave the place I’m in, so she showed me on her cell phone where the clothes were and we looked at pictures. She says she’s going to give them to her mate to have him buy them for me. I told her I didn’t have anything to trade, but she insisted if I was going to be part of the group, I had to look the part.“Group? There’s more of you?” My brows went up.“Yep. There’s Alexi. She’s wonderful. She has a cool accent too. You know Wren. Then there’s Anna and Sammy. They’re all older than me, but it’s cool. They teach me a lot about being Luna.”“Luna?” I look confused.“Yeah. When we mate to an Alpha, we become Lunas. Except Wren. She’s an Alpha too. The first formal female Alpha. I think that would be so cool, J
MIAI cover my mouth with my sweater sleeve and wrap my arm around myself. We’ve driven for hours. We had to stay in hotel last night. I did get my own room, but I couldn’t go out because there were guards outside.I wandered around the room and looked out the window. We are very high up. The lights were pretty.I curled up in bed and couldn’t help, but cry. I cuddle a pillow and thought of Grey. At first, I couldn’t feel him or hear him. My thoughts were black. My Grey was missing. This made me cry harder. I wish upon wishes that he’d come back then I heard something. Faintly in the black of my mind.Grey was singing badly. It made me giggle with my tears wetting my cheeks. I liked this song. I sat and softly cried while I listened to my Grey so far away.He was making funny sounds to the music and I had to hold back my laugh. I was sad when my mind went black again and my Grey disappeared. I called him back in my mind, but it feels like there’s something in the way. Is he trapped? I
GREY“FFFFUUUCCCCKKKKK!!!” I scream at the black lake. The moon above it is partly covered by clouds. My dress shoes slip in the beach sand as the light of the stars shimmer on the water.I’m full of all kinds of anger.I tip back my big bottle of Jack, pouring whiskey down my throat like it’s my fucking job.I empty the bottle and with a loud Alpha growl, I throw it in to the lake. I stumble to my RAM1500 Sport and grab another bottle.I stumble back to the shoreline and slam my ass in the sand. At this point, I don’t know whether to fucking cry or go on a rampage snapping necks.Even though feeling foxy lady’s feelings was killing me, not feeling them is even worse.With rage, I pull at the bracelet. “Fucking get off!!” I grind out. I pull until I can’t breathe and give up after I see blood. I have to remember I can’t heal right now.I scrub my hands through my hair. The heat burning in me is firing out each and every pour. My dress shirt is so drenched in sweat, you’d think I went
GREY“Argh.” I fall to my knees. The pain and heat are getting to be too much. My heads barely there.Wes picks me up. “Come on, bro. Just a little farther. We’ll get Mia to reject you and you’ll be ok.” He grits at my weight.“I can’t…” I pant. I can barely breathe.“Yes, Grey. You can. Stand up!” Wes struggles.Lucius comes over and grabs my other arm. They both lift me up. “Walk.” Lucius barks.I turn my head. I can barely see him. “Fuck...you.” I say weakly.He smirks. “Come on.” He bounces me, adjusting my arm in his.Wren comes over and picks up my head. She runs her palms around my sweat soaked face. “He’s burning up. We need to hurry.”“Too bad…he’s not…as hot as…me...huh, Wren.” I smile.She smirks. “In your dreams, Grey.” She slaps my cheek and makes my head fall.We walk the last leg and arrive at Mia’s village.“Tay!” Lucius barks.Some people run from the camp to his house. Moments later, Tay comes jogging out. Lucius hands my arm to Wren and they hold me steady.“Lucius?