While Joon left to get something, David was busy looking through the dresser for in God's name what. I stopped struggling, knowing by now that wouldn't work. My chest still moved quickly up and down from nerves. These men were crazy creeps and I had to get out of here. Now I was looking around me for something to get me out of these restraints.
Seconds felt like hours. I didn't like waiting for what's to come. I felt my safety was at stake here. Like prey wondering when they would be hunted down by their predator.
The entrance of Joon in the room snapped me out of my thoughts. He held something in his hand but I couldn't see what it was. I squinted my eyes in the hope to make out of the shape of the object he was holding, with not much success. They were whispering to each other and walked up to me. I hated that I didn't know what was going on.
The two men looked like giant cats sneaking on their next meal. Desperately I struggled against my restraints.
"Now Fleur it's very important for you to keep still," David said. He held my right arm so I couldn't move it. I tried to get out of his grip but it didn't work. Help.
"Get your hands of me!" I yelled. It didn't work they kept doing with whatever they were doing. Then I saw Joon holding my arm as well with his hand through the bars. I didn't understand why they wanted my right arm to keep still. Then I saw it and it made me shiver from fear.
"NO! Keep that thing away from me!" Joon was holding a syringe with god's knows what in it.
"Fleur calm down, it's just a muscle relaxer you will only feel a pinch, and then it's done," Joon spoke softly to me. But it didn't help me to calm down. How did they get a hold of these things? These things are not being sold right in the open. How crazy are these people?
Everything happened in slow motion. I saw how Joon bent over the crib, steading the syringe in his hand. In the last attempt, I tried to move my arm away, but their grip was firm and I couldn't keep my arm away from them. Then I saw how the needle penetrated my skin and soon after Joon injected the clear liquid in my arm. Tears were now streaming down my face. I felt violated. I hated them. I hated them so, so much. I wanted to scream and yell to the world. Frustration and anger were all I felt. They controlled me now, not only where I was but now also my movements.
"Ssh, it's okay, little one, you're okay," Joon tried to soothe me with his words, it didn't help. I felt how it became more and more difficult to move my body around and with that only more tears appeared.
While Joon tried to keep me calm David unlocked the cuffs and then picked me up. By then my whole body was limp. My head was put on his shoulder to prevent my head to bend or move in a bad way. I even had no control over my head. I felt utterly helpless.
David laid me down on a dresser that had a sort of mat on it. When he had made sure I wouldn't fall of he started to undress me. That was it for me, I completely broke down.
"Stop! No! STOP! I don't want this! Please stop!" I screamed and cried. I tried to stop him with my hands but I could barely move them. I became even more frustrated and sad than I already was. This wasn't right. David tried again to calm me down but failed. He didn't stop though. Right now I was only in my undergarments left and he started to remove them too. My breathing picked up, I panicked.
"Sweetie calm down. Like Joon and I said we won't hurt you, relax." And with that, I was now completely naked. I closed my eyes and just cried. I felt helpless and violated and I couldn't do a single thing about it.
David put then my legs up and cleaned me down there. Before I could voice out my thoughts he again said that he wouldn't hurt me and with that, he put my legs down. Then I was lifted up a bit by my hips and something slipped under me. While I was busy thinking what it could be, I felt something snug around my private parts, and then it hit me. David had put a diaper on me. My face paled. These men were taking the ddlg lifestyle to a whole other level.
"I-I don't need a diaper," I tried to say as stern as I could but the crying didn't really help.
"Oh little flower, of course you need a diaper. Those muscles down there won't help you to hold it up to go potty." I didn't even think of that, that stupid syringe was now even worse then before. A couple of more tears were rolling down my face while David grabbed me some clothes, no not some clothes, but baby clothes. “Don’t worry sweetie, you can wear pull-ups if you are more settled in.” Davide said those world as they would comfort me, but they did not.
He held a white romper with pink hearts on it. He had put it on me together with some white socks. I thought he was done but no. He put light pink mittens on my hand. Mittens! Why would you put those even on my hands when I can't even move them.
He picked me up, put my head on his shoulder and with that he left the room.
David left the room with me in stupid baby clothes and that freaking diaper. Only there was no time for sulking as we were walking through the house. Now was the right moment for me to look for escape routes. But the only thing I saw was a long hallway and the stairs leading us downstairs. I only got a glimpse of the front door, after that, I saw no more signs what could possibly lead me to an escape route.We walked past the living room and went into the kitchen. First I didn't know what was waiting for me but it was already too late when I sat in that torture device. He had put me in a highchair, a highchair! I couldn't even remember the last time I sat in such a chair because I was too young to. Conclusion I didn't need a highchair. These men get more and more on my nerves."Get. Me. Out. Of. This. Chair!" I knew they wou
After breakfast, Joon took me out of my chair and put me on his hip with my head on his shoulder. I hated how close I was to my captor. I hated how my body made contact with his. I wanted to be as far away from him as possible. In my mind, I had run already half a mile from these psycho men. I never liked physical contact because I had only bad experiences with it. So, them touching me was absolutely the worst.I saw that we were walking towards the living room with David following us. While they were talking I was taking in my surroundings. I needed to know how this house looked like so when I could walk again I knew my fastest route out of this house."Joon you should really see this, she looks so cute with you!" David squealed."Then take a photo babe. I would like to see the
If I could disappear or turn invisible right now I would do it in a heartbeat. Right now I was laying down on a big changing matt and to say it was humiliating was an understatement. First I had to deal with the mere thought that I had peed without knowing and then with the thought of getting changed like a baby. This was absolutely degrading. The whole time I was getting changed by David I had looked away while I was crying.What did I do to deserve this? Couldn't the world just give me a break?"Sssh Fleur, sssh, it's alright. It's just a quick change. Look here we go. All cleaned up and ready for the day." He picked me up and put me on his hip. Instead of walking out of the room he sat down on a rocking chair and started rocking us.David said sweet nothings to me while I was
After the little chat I had with David I felt fear and hatred in me. These men were just as horrible as any other men close in my life. Beating me when I did not listen. Why do I need to listen to them? Who are they to order me around? Now I think of it, nobody has the right to order me around. Saying what I can or cannot do. It is my life.But the longer I sat on his lap the more comfortable I got. His chest was warm and from time to time he stroked my hair and kissed my head. As he said to me earlier he cared about me, which was hard to believe. Nevertheless, it was a foreign feeling for me. People around me tend to not care about me. I remember my childhood and teenage years as being very lonely. People only talked to me when they needed me for their own selfish needs.Having friends was a concept I was not familiar with.People
I was happy. Days, no weeks, I had studied for this important test and it had paid of, all those hours of hard work, all those sleepless nights brought me to this moment. I was too eager to get home, I ran instead of walking. I couldn't wait to tell my parents the good news. They just had to be proud of me, right? Of course, I worked so hard and had a good grade. No an excellent grade. With that thought, I ran even faster.I arrived at my home and quickly put the key in the door and walked through the opening. Once inside I made a beeline to the living room. There I saw my mum and dad drinking their afternoon tea and coffee. Perfect both of them were home so I could share the good news at once."Mum! Dad! Look, Look!" I bounced up and down as I stood in front of them."Fleur! What did we tell you about your loud voice?!" My mother scolded me with a frown on her face"And what did we tel
After I calmed down and the three of us filled our stomachs with lunch, Joon had left us again to go to his office to work. David had decided to take me again to the living room."Now that your tummy is all filled up with yummy food we can do something fun," David spoke to me in a baby voice. "So what do you want to do sweetie?" He looked at me, waiting for an answer.I just shrugged my shoulders. I really wasn't in the mood to do something 'fun'. I wasn't in the mood to do anything at all. I felt empty knowing that things wouldn't get better for me, only worse.Just like at home I wanted to curl in a corner and just listen to some music. I wished that I was invisible to them as well. Joon and David's attention was torturing me. I wanted to be left alone."How about some coloring?" I looked at my hands where those stupid mittens were still on and looked back at him."Are you serious? With these?" I asked while holding up my arms.&
As I woke up the next day I remembered how angry and upset I was last night when I was left alone in the crib. I was angry at them, my captors, and I was angry at myself for being so timid. I have made it too easy for them. I let them walk right over me. I barely made things hard for them. I felt like a doll, someone you can pick up and dress up however you want.My anger grew and grew while I was laying there by myself. All my pent-up frustration from over the years and these last two days were starting to blow up. I was seething. These men were horrible. I never asked for this. Right then I was ready, I was ready to show my anger and make things really difficult for them.But I doubted myself. I had never been angry or furious at someone. I feared that in the end, I would just submit to them because I didn't like conflicts or punishments. But I had every right to not co-operate with them.This made me wonder why I always listened to my parent
I just laid there on the soft material of the playpen. I felt empty. The punishment wasn't bad. Although it did hurt. It was mentally more painful. It was the memories that came with it. The trauma that I felt.It reminded me of one specific memory, the summer when I was ten years old. All summer I was by myself because my parents and sister were busy with who knows what. I think they even went on vacation when they hired a nanny for me. I didn't even know the difference between them being away or staying at home.But all of a sudden my sister wanted to do something with me. I think my parents send her to me. In the hope that I wouldn't lose my social skills and so that my sister and I wouldn't get that estranged from each other. So when needed, my sister and I could get along when there were visitors in the house.I was playing in the backyard at the small lake we had for ourselves. I had seen some fish and they looked fun to play