I’M DOOMED.
Hindi ko inisip na mangyayari ang bagay na ito dahil hindi naman ako kahit kailan na-attract sa iba. And I’m not used to how my body reacts to him. It feels so hot every time he is near me. Pakiramdam ko ay bibigay agad ako kapag inaya niya ako sa kama.Which I can’t let happen.I have a boyfriend. William is my long-time boyfriend for six years. I’m already twenty-five and just waiting to be freed from my family’s caged, then I will asked William to marry me. We will have a family, and children. Iyon ang plano ko simula pa lang noon. Iyon ang gusto kong mangyari, pero nagkandaloko-loko lahat ng gusto ko dahil lang ipinadala nila ako rito sa mansyon ni Remmington.“So? How was it? Is he hot?” tanong ni Rona. She’s on the phone, as I tried to hide myself inside the bathroom for privacy.“Stop it, Rona. I need your help. Please, gawan mo ng paraan para mapapayag sila. Kailangan kong makaalis dito, Rona. Mababaliw ako kapag ipinagpatuloy ko ito,” bulong ko sa kaniya habang panay ang lingon sa pinto -- kung sakali mang may biglaang kumatok doon.“Why? What’s wrong? I searched him online, girl. He is so hot. Well, I can try and asked them to let me have the task instead---”“Rona, hindi ako nagbibiro!” putol ko sa kaniya. Hindi ko alam kung saan nanggaling ang biglaang init ng ulo ko. But I didn’t like hearing her saying that he is hot!Well, he is, but...Oh, damn it, Verena! Hold your horses and don’t be so jealous about this!“I am not joking either. I can have fun with him and find dirt on him at the same time, you know? He is really hot. Did you already try seducing this guy? Oh, well, I know you have a boyfriend so you probably didn’t. But you know what I’m talking about, because this guy is totally my type!” Rona giggled on the other line, while I was already frowning.“He probably won’t like you...” I whispered, irritated.“Ano? May sinabi ka?” tanong niya sa akin pero sarkastika akong napangiti.“Wala. Sige, gawin mo ang makakaya mo. I just need to get out of here as fast as I could.” Or I’ll end up betraying the whole clan, as I pleasure myself in that Remmington Accardi’s arms.Umiling-iling ako agad sa naisip ko. No, hindi puwede ito. I really really need to try my best on avoiding that man. I need to at least see less of him every day.The call ended. I fix myself afterwards in front of the mirror in the bathroom. I really looked weird with a black hair. My auburn hair was way pretty. Tinapik-tapik ko na lang ang pisngi ko pagkatapos ay nagpunta na sa pinto ng banyo. Pero pagbukas ko niyon ay kusang gumalaw ang kamay ko para muli iyong isarado, kung hindi lang nahawakan ni Remmington ang pinto para pigilan ako sa balak na gawin.“W-What are you doing here?!” pabulong kong sita sa kaniya, pero ngumisi lang siya sa akin.“Took you awhile to get out. Did you--”“I did not poop!” nanlalaki ang mga matang putol ko sa kaniya na ikinahalakhak niya.“I wasn’t about to ask that, but okay. Care if you get out from there? People might get the wrong idea about us,” aniya. Nilingon ko ang hallway at wala naman akong nakita na kahit sino.Masama kong nilingon si Remmington.“They already got a wrong idea the moment you came here. Bakit ka ba nandito? Gusto mong mag-bathroom break din? Ang laki-laki nitong mansyon mo tapos wala kang bathroom sa kuwarto mo? Are you kidding me?” nakangiwi kong sunod-sunod na tanong sa kaniya.“No one saw me when I came here--”“That’s not the case, Sir. Empleyada mo ako, at boss kita. Mali ang ginagawa mo kahit saang anggulo pa mang tignan.” He suddenly frowned. Ang noo niya ay kumunot. Nabitawan niya rin ang pinto pagkatapos niyang tumayo nang maayos.Crossing his arms over his chest, he towered me -- staring at me seriously.“What’s wrong about liking an employee? Was there any universal rule about that, because I didn’t heard any. Besides, what’s wrong about liking you? You keep me smiling and amused. My heart felt full when I’m with you, plus... I get really horny when I stare at your lips. So? What’s wrong with it?” Kumabog ang dibdib ko.“H-Horny?” napakurap-kurap kong tanong.He is too honest for heaven’s sake!“Yeah, and I want to kiss you too. Rough and hard. But you might push me, and call me a rapist... so might as well stop myself from doing that,” dagdag niyang sabi na hindi man lang nakatulong sa nararamdaman ko ngayon.How can this guy say everything that is on his mind? How can he be so bold?Habang ako rito ay nahihiya na sa lahat ng pinagsasabi niya. Gusto ko na lamang ilibing ang sarili ko dahil kahit ako man ay iyon ang nararamdaman para sa kaniya... na hindi ko masabi-sabi.“I have a boyfriend,” I finally uttered as a final resort to him like how I did it in the garden this morning. But Remmington once again smirked at me.He eyed me from head to toe, but not like the first time we meet -- it wasn’t with indifference, but amusement. Like seeing me standing in front of him, makes him feel something different -- something that excites him.“I know that, Hon. You already told me that earlier, but you see -- just like this morning, I don’t really give a care,” he slowly said while licking his lower lip.“I will resign from this job, Sir, if you continue this,” banta ko sa kaniya pero lumawak lalo ang malademonyo niyang ngiti.“You won’t find any job after this, Hon. Not even as a janitress or gardener,” banta niya pabalik sa akin.Hindi ako nakaimik. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from talking more. I’m really doomed. From the moment I entered his mansion, and meet him -- is the day I already started digging my own grave.Literally.“NAPANSIN ninyo? Parang hindi na masiyado umaalis si Sir Rem dito sa mansyon,” bigla ay sabi ni Lera. Sabay kaming lumingon ni Sheena kay Remmington na nandoon sa sala. Kausap nito si Mics, pero mula rito sa kinatatayuan namin ay wala kaming marinig na kahit ano. “Baka wala na siyang trabaho sa ibang bansa,” sagot ni Sheena pero umiling agad si Lera.“Narinig ko kayang nagreklamo si Mics kahapon. Ang rami raw kasing tumatawag kay Sir Rem mula sa ibang bansa. Gusto raw siyang makausap at ma-meet sa personal, pero sinasabi lang ni Sir Rem na marami pa raw siyang gagawin dito. Iyon nga lang ay sinabi sa akin ni Mics na wala naman daw talagang trabaho si Sir Rem dito sa Pilipinas masiyado. Ang pinakahuli ata ay iyong sa pinagawa niyang beach resort sa Pangasinan,” sunod-sunod na sabi ni Lera. Lumingon pa ito kay Remmington bago niya tinitigan ng mariin ang lalaki. “Hindi kaya ay dahil sa nangyari roon sa nagpapanggap na maid? Naaapektuhan ba si Sir Rem sa mga fake news na kinalat ng ba
“I TOLD you she was a bad news, Remmington. Look at you now, if people learns that what that woman said was really true then you will lost everything that you have. Even if she dies, she will still have the last laugh,” my cousin, Harvien Kavanagh, uttered with dismay on his face. I chuckled at that. “I don’t really give a fuck if she gets the last laugh, as long as she dies,” malamig kong turan dito.Hindi ako makapaniwala sa nangyari. That woman, Rosey Buenaflor, was a spy brought by a magazine company! She tried to get into our mansion to actually learn more things about me. To unveil the mask I’ve been wearing ever since, but that was a wrong move on her part. Getting caught in my studies, and her writing in her blog about my real identity is actually her calling for death. “Kapag may ginawa ka ngayon ay lalong pagdududahan ka ng lahat. They will think that you killed her to shut her up. You shouldn’t move unless the issue dies--”“I can’t wait until the issue dies, Harvien. I ne
“SIR!” she called. Agarang naglumikot ang mga mata niya habang ang kaniyang mga kamay ay mabilis na tinakpan ang kaniyang sarili. Pero huli na ang lahat dahil nakita ko na.She was wearing something so alluring in the middle of the night, that I was actually glad that I found her here first. Dahil paniguradong mabubulag ang kung sino mang titingin sa kaniya habang ito ang suot niyang damit.My smirk grew wider. “Hindi mo kailangang takpan. It’s actually hot... it suits you,” pabiro kong sabi na ikinasama ng tingin niya sa akin.“Bakit po kayo nandito? Akala ko ay bukas pa po kayo uuwi?” tanong niya. I am supposed to be offended by how she asked me, but I am more amused than offended. No one have ever asked me questions like she does it. “Tinapos ko agad kasi namimiss kita,” sagot ko sa kaniya. Natawa ako ng mas lalong nasira ang ekpresyon ng mukha niya. She rolled her eyes at me. Hindi ito tulad ng pinapakita niyang personalidad sa iba. She was more beautiful this way. Nagagandahan
“INIIWASAN niya ba ako?” tanong ko kay Mics na nasa likod ko lang. Abala ako sa pagtitig kay Honey na hindi lumilingon sa akin simula pa kanina. Nothing happened in between us. I respect her, so I didn’t dare to touch her while she was asleep in my bed. In fact, all I did was to stare at her until I was satisfied -- and that means until morning came. Nang magising siya ay mabilis siyang umalis sa kuwarto ko ng walang sinasabing kahit ano. She ran away from me just like that. And ever since I came down to the sala, she did all sort of things just to avoid me. Iyon ang sa tingin ko. “Sinong tinutukoy mo, boss? May problema ho ba?” Nag-angat ako ng tingin kay Mics na hindi naintindihan kung sino ang pinag-uusapan namin. Hindi ako sumagot at umiwas na lang ng tingin. Pero kalaunan ay hindi ako matahimik kaya muli akong nagtanong.“How do you asked for someone’s attention, Mics? Especially, a woman’s attention. Did you asked for it directly? Or text it? Or probably write it in a piece
“ANO na, Remmington? May balak ka pa bang lumabas sa lungga mo?” the person on the other line, Harvien Kavanagh, asked. Ilang beses na niya akong tinawagan para lang alamin kung buhay pa ba ako o matagal ng nakabaon sa libingan ko. “What do you want?” tanong ko sa kaniya. “And don’t think of saying excuses. I know you you are just fooling around every time you said that you just want to check if I’m breathing or not,” dagdag ko pa. My cousin laugh.Siya lang ang nag-iisa kong pinsan na kasundo ko. He is my first degree cousin in my biological mother’s side. I found him here in the Philippines as a beggar on the street. Dala-dala niya ang apelyido ng kaniyang Ama na iniwan sila noon para sa ibang babae. I took him in when I learned that his mother, which was my mother’s sister -- left him too because she can’t feed him. Unfortunately, our mothers were both prostitute in a club. That is where they also meet our fathers and had us. Kaya sa lahat ng mga taong malapit sa akin ay si Harvi
“I DON’T plan to cheat on him with someone like you.” My own words echoed in my mind for the fourth time since the moment I left his room. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nakaramdam ako ng konsensya pagkatapos ko iyong sabihin sa kaniya. Alam kong hindi niya kasalanan ang nangyari sa aming dalawa. I let him do it, and didn’t do anything other than saying stop. I was still moaning his name even after that, so it wasn’t just his fault but mine too. Pero hindi ko magawang aminin sa sarili ko na may kasalanan ako. Na may ginawa akong mali. It wasn’t his fault, but mine. I was the one who cheated on my boyfriend the moment I moaned his name because of the pleasure building up inside me at that heated scene. “Girls! May narinig ako kanina! Hindi kayo maniniwala!” bungad agad ni Lera nang makapasok siya sa kusina. Lumingon-lingon pa siya sa likod niya habang abala naman kaming dalawa ni Sheena sa pagluluto.I mean, abala si Sheena sa pagluluto. I was only washing some fresh ingredients as per t
“YES! Sabado na!” Tumalon-talon si Lera habang nakataas ang mga kamay. “Anong mayroon?” tanong ko, nagtataka. Noong isang araw lang ay umalis na si Remmington dito sa mansyon para magpunta ng ibang bansa. We never talk again after our conversation in his room. Inabala ko na lang ang sarili ko sa mga gawain, at minsan ay nakikipag-usap ako kila Lera at Sheena para aliwin ang sarili ko. “Nagtrabaho ka ba talaga para maging maid? Kaloka ka, girl, ha!” Napangiwi ako ng hampasin ako ni Lera sa kaliwang braso ko. “Day offs natin ang Sabado at Linggo. Hindi mo alam iyon? Hindi mo ba binasa ang mga makukuha mo kapag nagtrabaho ka rito?” Sheena’s confused gazed was on me as she asked those questions. Hindi ako agad nakaimik. Nandito lang naman ako para maghanap ng baho kay Remmington. Hindi ako nandito para sa ibang bagay kaya siyempre hindi ko alam ang tungkol sa ganoon. I was never interested in staying as a maid forever, because I am after all one of the heiress to the Lacroix Company.
“YOU looked pale,” Cove commented in a concern tone. She stared at my face thoroughly while I sighed. I don’t want them to notice that I’m not doing fine, but I am. I can just not speak of it, but my face tells them about it. It has been a week since Remmington left the mansion. I didn’t hear any news about him, not even from Manang Gina. Sheena and Lera doesn’t seem to mind about it either. Kahit ngayong nabigyan ulit kami ng day off ay siya pa rin ang nasa isip ko. It was just me whose affected by his presence suddenly being nowhere.Kapag nagta-trabaho ako sa mansyon niya noong nandoon pa siya ay palagi kong nararamdaman ang titig nito sa akin. Kahit hindi niya ako kausapin ay alam kong palagi siyang nakasunod sa kung saan ako pumupunta kaya ngayong hindi ko siya maramdaman o makita ay naninibago ako. Pero tama lang naman ito. He is not supposed to be around me. I am supposed to ruin him. Not like this. Not long for him. Not hope for him to come back. Not hope for him to be her