I shut my eyes as soon as I opened them.
Wtf!
Why is it so bright in here? What happened? My room is usually dark. When my eyes finally get used to the light I realised it's not my room after all. Where am I?
Like a flash, I recollect the events of yesterday. Our arrival and then at night, a drunk Ryder. The window, my face went in that direction spontaneously and I realised it's still open. Little wonder it's all bright in here. I stared at the ceiling for a while while I listened to the low…. Coming from Ryder's room. He must really love that band.
After a while, I decided to get out of bed and put on some clothes as I was done doing this, I heard my door close behind me and I looked up to see the race of the person I so dread.
Arrgggh
Will I ever get used to seeing his face each day now that we live together? I don't think so.
Stepping away from the mirror, "Have you ever heard the word 'privacy' before?"
I studied his face, he looks okay, his hair is a little disheveled other than that, he didn't look like someone who's just got out of bed or having a hangover.
He cocks his head to one side as he stares around my new room moving a little further into the room. "I just want to make sure you don't run your mouth to our parents about last night. Rest especially my dad"
I laughed a little "why? You don't want him to see the asshole he's raising?"
I watch as his teeth grit tight together and his jaw hardens. He frowns, his lips forming a firm line as he furrows his eyebrows and takes a few hesitant steps toward me. “Just—just don’t say anything.”
I fold my arms then step back giving myself enough space away from him.
"What are you hiding from him? It's okay to say you had a few drinks and passed out." I took one step closer, suddenly finding my confidence. " Maybe if you tell me I can consider keeping your secrets."
"Secrets?" He chuckles. "Hey, Rocks I'm not in here for a lecture, I only came to warm you about running your mouth or I that a fucking problem for you?"
It's not like I'm not expecting him to lash out on me but I swear I wince as he said Rocks. Why can't he call my name? Maybe I'm just insane to think living together with him will change things between the two of us. I laughed at the idea in my head.
"Are you mad your father is getting married?" I suddenly asked what's been on my mind since last Friday.
He looks surprised as if my question caught him off guard. He has an unreadable expression on his face so I can't make out if he's telling the truth or not.
"Fuvk, No!"
Then why? Why do you hate me so much. I'm pretty sure it's not because of this step siblings' relationships because he couldn't stand my sight right from school.
"Just don't say anything" he called and he walked away without closing my door.
Asshole.
****
Throughout that week, I didn't see much of Ryder. At school he stayed the hell away from me and everyone else. Since the blown out episode with him out here, I can finally walk without feeling eyes on my body and hearing people whispering my name in low voices and some oblivious to my hearing. Haha I raised my hands in victory. Cheers to me I can finally love school and not count the days to graduation. I made a couple of friends even though we haven't been that close. Just a couple of hangouts and little chit chats during classes.
He didn't seem to tell people we're step siblings so I kept to myself too. Well, except Lexi.
When I got back today, I found the house empty as usual. Mom and James are off to work and Ryder? Off to whether he goes every afternoon.
"How's Your brother today?" Lexi asked
"Stepbrother" I corrected.
I told Lexi about the night he came home drunk and the next morning how he barged into my bedroom and demanded I keep it away from our parents.
"You still haven't seen him around?" She asked Surprise is evident in her voice.
"Yes" I nodded. "I'm not sure he's in because his CD isn't on"
Her next question took me by surprise. "You've seen his room?"
"What? No way! He barely even talk to me"
The idea of seeing Ryder's room became intriguing to me. What will it look like? I'm sure the walls will be covered in animal skulls and a huge black snake drawn against his headboard. I waved that imagination away but whatever else I try to picture isn't a good idea.
After a little talk with Lexi, we hung up. On my way downstairs to drink water, I paused by Ryder's door. No sign that he is in yet. I thought about Lexi's words from earlier and I became curious of what it looks like. The dark things he does while locked up in here. Taking a look won't hurt I guess, especially when he isn't here. Without thinking straight, I Sprint back to my bedroom and bring out the old little camera my mom got me some years ago. I dust it off, then wipe its lens. It might be old but works perfectly.
Standing in front of his door trembling, I recited the psalm twenty three three times then muttered a quick prayer of success. I gripped the handle and discovered it unlocked.
Good.
Now I won't want to worry about breaking into his room. I passed the door open and stepped inside. I was first greeted by the smell of his woodsky Cologne. The room is dark since the lights are off. His look looked entirely opposite of what I had pictured. Instead of Animal skull on his fall, it's replaced with handwriting painted in different colours. If he did this himself, he is well damned talented. I moved to his drawer but I refrain from pulling out its contents to see what he has there.
I'm not going to stare, just touch. I reminded myself.
I pulled out my old camera and started to record a video. Once I have enough footage of his entire room, I stop the video and smile in triumph. Even my heart problem fades away. I start towards the door but a shadow blocks my way. I cease to breathe when I stare up at my nightmare.
Ryder
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He is leaning against the closed door obviously blocking my way out. How did he get in here? I didn't hear him climb the stairs let alone come in. "What are you doing here?" His voice is calm."No..noth…nothing" I stammered and quickly god the camera behind my back but it was too late as he already saw it."Oh!" His eyes widened In recognition as he took in the scene before him "Give it to me" he extended his palms out towards me. I start to bypass him but it's of no use as he had already shut the door. I stood incredibly close to him as I inhaled the smell of freshness from him. I've never been this close to him. Never. It has always been him intimidating me and me running away. But that had stopped. I made that clear weeks ago that he couldn't triumph over my weakness again. Plus, I've already decided that I'll stop being a victim to his unjust war. I tightened my trip around it "No" I said firmly. He can do what he likes all I care. He takes a step closer and I take one back. "
*****I opened my eyes. My hair sticks to the side of my face with sweat.Heat smothers my body and my breasts tighten against the towel.That’s not all.Oh. God.My hand rests between my legs and I’m… wet.I jerk my hand free as if I was caught stealing.I remember last night after an early dinner with mom, dad and Ryder I came in here to study but I ended up falling asleep. heard a muffled sound coming through the wall from Ryder’s bedroom. It must be what woke me up from while at the brink of getting a good orgasm. I listened carefully and It sounded like someone crying in pain, but as I cocked my ear towards it, I realized it was a woman moaning with pleasure.God, he was such a vulgar man-whore. He's watching the blues. Omg. I tried to picture him stroking himself while watching and insert my fingers where it aches me between my legs. The lady starts moaning faster and I follow the Rhythm with my fingers in an effort to finish what I have been dreaming about but my hands don't s
One fact I disagree with is that I'm obsessed with my stepbrother. Ex bully but now my stepbrother. The transition is overwhelming and unbelievable. The guy who I had vowed to hate and get away from. The one who makes me feel insecure of myself. The one whose voice makes my blood boil. Just like the dew disappears with the morning light, all of this magnimonity was replaced with a feeling I can't place my hands on. Ryder is more than I had earlier pictures of him. Of course he is a badass guy who still pisses me off anytime he wants but beneath him is something more. Ryder and I never spoke of the sexual tension between us even though it ran through my mind each time especially the movie we both shared in his room. I was pretty sure it didn’t mean anything to him, that he was just trying to lose me even though the sensations I experienced were the same as if we were in the movie. The past few weeks have been less dramatic. He's been busy with practice so I see less of him at home.
We stare at each other, both of our eyes wide. Like we just woke up from a century's worth of sleep and realizing the change in the world. We were surprised at what just happened. I can't read the expression on Ryder's face. I can't tell if he regrets what just happened or it's just part of what to expect. "I'm just going to leave," I mutter. I stand up and straighten my blouse, stepping away from him. It didn't take me any second before I exited his room, not glancing back to spare him a look. I leaned against my door the moment I'm in my room and closed the door behind me. I stood there blinking for forever and staring into eternity. I placed my hands over my chest to stop my racing heart. There is no logical explanation for what just happened. I just freaking kissed my stepbrother. The guy who weeks ago is the last person I ever wished to come across. The guy who infuriates and makes my blood boil. The guy I seriously wish to get away from. The guy who never dated girls. The guy
I was in a calculus class when I heard my phone chimed. I was relieved I could get my eyes away from Mr Allen and his boring lectures. Infact, I have been dying to get off this seat for a long time. So when I got a message, I became happy. I reached between the pocket of my sweater and pulled out my phone. It's a message from Ryder. Why is he texting me in school? The few weeks since I've known Ryder now, he only texts when he has anything naughty to say or to disturb me. Something within me tells me something is wrong somewhere. I mean, he never texts in school at least. Before I could find out what the message entailed, I heard the demanding yet ugly voice of Mr Allen calling me. "Miss, McConnell, are you still with us?" I look up to find his eyes boring into mine like he has been staring at me a long time ago. I broke the contact and looked around to find all the double pairs of eyes lingering on my body. "Ye..yes" I stuttered. "Good" he says before turning to the board to co
"I know all of this is fucked up because you're my fucking step sister. I shouldn't want you or fell attracted to you but I can't help it Genie" His eyes are no longer gentle. "I know you don't feel the same way but I need to get the words out now" "Why?" My voice is a little quiver. "Why what?" He asked "Why are you telling me all of this now?" I repeat. I'm confused and feeling sick right now. "Why did you have to tell me all these Ryder?" "Because that's the way I feel" his voice is calm. "I thought you hated me" He laughs. "You believed that?" "I've never been myself around you Genie. You turns me on so fucking badly that I hated you. I hated the fact that you get to me and makes me feel in the way I've never felt before" I'm stunned into silence by the new revelation. The guy who had made my life a complete hell is actually attracted to me. "Since when?" I couldn't help but ask the one question that has been on mind since he started all of these. Did he woke up tod
Lexi. Her face was wild and filled with shock. Like she has just walked in on her boyfriend with another girl in bed. This isn't far anyway. Her best friend is making out with her hot step brother."Lexi, wait I can…" I tried to explain but she didn't wait for that as she turned and started running down the staircase. I sit down on the floor, tears gathering to my eyelids. My face is filled with embittered agony and tears that threaten to fall. I can't lose her too. Everyone here hates me already and now that things have started to get better, I got into this with Lexi. She was the only one who stood by my corner when the whole school was against me. She fought for me and stayed with me. Ryder couched beside me and wrapped his arms around me. "Hey, it's okay," He said, pulling me up with him. I couldn't even bear looking him in the eyes. The butterflies that I felt in my stomach earlier were all gone bad replaced with regret. I shouldn't have done that. I picture my mum telling m
"Can you wait here for a minute, I have to go get my car" "Why? Aren't we getting lunch again?" I asked suddenly worried why he decided to leave me all of a sudden."Yes we are. There's a restaurant down the street" "You're asking me to skip school with you?" I'm horrified. I've never skipped school in my entire life. I wonder what my mom would say if she finds out about this. He laughed at my expression then shrugged as if it's not a big deal. "Loosen out a bit Genie, school's almost over by the way" he says before walking away. The car ride was in silence. I'm grateful Ryder decides to keep his damn mouth shut because I finally get time to think. The past one month in my life has been hectic. Ever since Ryder came into my life. Do I actually like him? I can't answer the question but I know I'm attracted to him in a way I shouldn't. Every time I felt his hand on my skin, I felt tingles all over my body. Maybe it's the euphoria that you're doing something so forbidden and that yo