Emilia clung to the hanging on her bed and wept for her child. She had held her tears well enough while Octavius had remained with her even though a few rebellious tears had slipped out. She hung on for dear life with her hand flat on her belly as she wept bitterly.
Ilena stood at the threshold of the room watching her mistress bemoan the loss of a child she would never know and love. On one hand, she held a jar of mead in case her mistress needed it to get too drunk to feel her pain, and on another, she held a pot of hot water with some tea leaves and a few aromatic for though she was a woman of principles she also knew her mistress might require the aromatic plants to dull her pain. She had gotten the plants from the oldest priest who made sacrifices to Daegon, the Intavia god of gods during winter, summer, and fall festivals. He had narrowed his eyes suspiciously at her but did not comment giving the plants over.
As she watched her mistress wallow in misery she knew she had made the best choice. She set the items in her hand on the huge dressing table beside Emilia's bed and poured some hot water in a cup, adding some tea leaves and aromatics. The deceptive sweet smell of the aromatic wafted up and even though her sight was blinded by her tears, Emilia's head came up. Ilena stirred the mixture and lifted it, taking it to the bed.
"My lady, you should drink this," she said softly.
Emilia looked from the cup to her face. Her eyes were filled with tears and more tears ran down her cheeks, her eyes were red-rimmed. Since Octavius left for Camelorn that morning she had dismissed Ilena and every other maid and had taken to her room to cry. But Ilena could only leave her for so long, she was her maid after all and her duty was to her mistress and if anything happened to her she would be held responsible.
"What is that? It smells suspicious?"
Ilena smiled gently and with motherly love. "It is tea, my lady, I mixed it with the chagfris herb to you dull your pain and take your mind off what you had to sacrifice."
Emilia sniffed "What if my mother and father find out?"
"They won't my lady, not if I tell them you are having your monthlies." Ilena took Emilia's in hers and curved around the cup. "Take this, my lady, I have your best interest at heart and I wish to see my lady get over what has happened. Take consolation that you'll be with the one you love from now on and he will give you as many children as you want."
Emilia's eyes welled with tears again. "What have I done, Ilena?"
"You have done what you have to to get out of your father's clutches and his ill-proposed marriage to Helos, my lady. My lady, my king your father will have my mind he finds out that I made you see Prince Octavius without his consent in the first but for what it is worth you deserve happiness"
Emilia smiled through her tears. "But what kind of a mother gives up her child for anything at all"
"A brave one, my lady. One that will be a good mother to the many more children I am sure the gods will bless her with." Ilena pushed the cup higher to Emilia's lips "Drink up my lady and if this does not get you drunk enough to forget your sorrows I have some mead here. You should sleep when you are done forgetting what you had to do today and your guilt will be no more when you awake tomorrow."
Emilia complied, raising the cup to her lips. She let the sweet aroma of the tea calm her nerves. As she inhaled the tea mixed with chagfris, an aromatic that was known to both induce sleep and cause a drunken haze when taken too much, she felt the weight in her heart and chest ease up. She took a deep gulp that scorched her throat and for a moment the pain dulled her mind. Ilena moved away from the bed to sit on the stool in front of the dressing table and poured some mead into a goblet just in case. Emilia breathed a small sigh of relief with her eyes closed as the tangy-sweet scent of the chagfris engulfed her momentarily dulling her mind. She took a deep breath and opened her eyes with a slight smile. Now she understood why father always insisted on having the herb added to the drinks served in his court. It made very quick work of her pain and made her want for something far stronger and even though the echo of her tear resonated at some hidden corner of her mind she felt some small measure of peace.
"Bring the mead, Ilena"
"Yes, my lady." Ilena handed the goblet to her.
Emilia took a sip and it burned a slow trail down her throat down to her stomach where it settled in a hot pool. It tasted quite different from the regular wine she was allowed to drink, it was stronger and had a bitter taste.
"Do you really think I have done the right thing?"
Ilena took one look at Emilia's glazed-over eyes. "Yes, my lady."
Emilia nodded. She took a bigger gulp, emptied the cup, and set it aside.
She had done the right thing. The gods had the right to demand anything of her because very soon she would be with her love forever.
Octavius rode his horse into the stable and dismounted striding quick into the servants' quarters through the arched doorway by the left side of the stable. No servant was about at the time of the day because it was evening and they all making preparations to serve dinner so he snuck through passages until he got to the royal quarters. He opened the door to his room and met Garius in it. Garius was polishing his armor, sword, and shield, a task he had given to one of the soldiers. He should have known the old man was going to be waiting for him by the time he arrived.
"Your Highness," Garius bowed.
Octavius raised his right hand to him. "What is the news?"
"Your highness I have spoken to Gustoff and he has agreed to make the weapons available in two or more weeks but the fool demands more payment in gold and bronze"
"Then we will give it to him. He will pay for his greed once we win the war but for now, the only thing that matters is this battle so give him everything he asks for and more and tell him to get the weapons ready in six days because there is no time to waste"
Garius nodded but couldn't stop himself from observing his prince whose eyes were unnaturally bright and with the way he carried his shoulders and bowed his head he knew something wasn't right.
"How did it go, my prince?"
His shoulder slumping further, Octavius turned to face Garius but he held his tears in. "I sacrificed my child," he said simply.
Garius immediately came forward and held his shoulders in a strong grip forcing Octavius to look into his eyes. "Never regret anything you do if you believe it is for a just cause. I lost my son at war because he saved my life when he took a sword for me to protect my back in battle. I regret not being the one protecting him but I don't regret or disapprove of his bravery for my sake."
"This is different, Garius."
"It is not for in this you are protecting your woman, you are the hero here giving up your child for a woman you would rather be with. You will have more children, your highness, brave, strong sons and beautiful daughters."
Octavius nodded and patted Garius' hand. "Thank you. I intend to visit Ashterah's temple tomorrow"
Garius nodded and stepped back. "Whatever you are doing, my lord, do it quick for the princess of Amire will be here in 2 days."
"Your Highness?" Octavius looked up from the stool on which he sat, a priest was waiting in front of him in a shabby cloak covering an equally shabby tunic that was excessively frayed at the hem. He had awoken early, taken a cloak from his trunk, and taken a walk. He had intended to visit the temple later in the day but on impulse had turned towards the cobble-stoned street and headed for the temple of Ashterah the goddess of war. The street was almost empty except for the fishermen who dragged their nets to their boats on the shore. He had stopped to watch them load up their boats and cut the ropes securing them to the shore with an absent mind. He had imagined jumping into one of the boats and rowing it to Intavia away from his kingdom and responsibilities until he remembered he already had his wishes all he needed now was the help of the goddess of war to win the war. With that in mind, he had continued on his way. "You must come with me to the inner room
“How was it?” Angus murmured under his breath. He was standing at the passage a corner way from the throne room. The passage was lined with passive guards trained to be present and not to listen and even if they did listen and gossip from time to time no one else was to hear of any leaked secrets. Still, Octavius pulled his brother into an alcove. “Great,” he replied with a bit of sarcasm he hoped his brother did not hear. He burned with shame and disgust knowing that Ashterah had offered herself to him but he knew that his brother as well as everyone else would call him a fool for not accepting her offer. Every man considered a night with the war goddess an honor even though not many men came out of her temple at Mount Kpamos alive. Angus raised his brow. “Just that?” He sighed. He dipped his hand into a slit in his tunic and brought out the copper coin that held Ashterah’s emblem and showed
The whole army that consisted of newly grafted soldiers and war heroes who had fought with King Philip marched out to the battlefields with their squires, maids, and a few helpful hands. Both squires and extra hands helped to build tents. Words had reached the Camelorn army that the Amires had set the northern villages on fire, killing, raping, stealing, and destroying. Octavius had hastened Gustoff with the weapons, getting more than 3000 swords, shields, and clubs, the trained archers had been supplied with new quivers, arrows, and new bows all with Ashterah's emblem, the foot soldiers marched in front with boxes of fire powder, horse archers and captains held their horses and led them to the makeshift stable the squires built while battalion leaders assembled to supervise. Octavius, Garius, Festus, and two more generals; Calors and Inobus supervised the all-around activities. Octavius walked slowly in the direction the maids went carrying woods for fire, pots, and pans to cook wi
The blast of the horn echoed throughout the camp and horse soldiers came out dressed in their armor, holding shields, foot soldiers carried spears with their shields, archers led by their captain Angus dressed in dark red cloaks held their bows in their hands tested the taut bowstring and adjusted the arrows in their quivers, captains ran through the camp hurrying squires about their duties. The squires carried swords and shields to their master, carrying also the bridle for their horses. Octavius stood before his armor rack and ran his hand over the same armor his father had used before in many battles, although some additional protection had been added over time, it was beautiful and strong. He began to remove the pieces off the rack and put them on with the help of a squire when he caught sight of an image on the breastplate of the armor. The red tunic of a voluptuous woman was vivid and as she came forward his heart dropped. It was Ashterah. She sensed his discom
The battle raged on and on for months, new soldiers joined the army as more men dropped dead, and with every passing Camelornian victory Octavius hungered for more. It was a feeling he could not explain, he wanted to shed more blood, wanted to see more of the enemy bleed to death. He sliced through the belly of a heavily armored Amires soldier with his sword, he reveled at the sight of him bleeding to death. He used his shield to push another soldier off his horse and watched as he dropped to the floor, the soldier's helmet came off revealing a heavily bleeding head. Octavius watched the blood drip and licked at his lips. Something was wrong with him and he couldn't put a finger on it, all he knew was he was suddenly a battle machine tearing through the enemy army, killing and hungering for more death. Garius, Angus, Festus, and the rest of the captains fought just as hard behind him. With unrelenting strength they fought as hard as the Amires, dealing a heavy blow to their
More days passed, more months, and then a year before the Amires surrendered to the Camelornians and then a half year later the Camelornian army packed up, counted their dead and buried them, put their loots together, and broke camp. Weary but victorious the men marched all the way home. Octavius, now twenty, sported a shadow of a beard, his once young, teenage, inexperienced body was a form of hard muscles, and his skin was darkened by the hot desert heat. Angus, now 17 was taller, he grew his hair so long it was past his shoulders and he held it back with a twine, his shoulders were broader, and though he still had his laughing, twinkling eyes his face no longer held youthful innocence. As the men approached the kingdom Garius moved his horse to walk beside his crown prince. He studied him with both worry and pride. Octavius had performed his duties beyond his expectation, had been in battles, and seen young princes fall behind their soldiers for fear for their liv
The feasts for the return of the soldiers continued for days and even on to the wedding feasts of Octavius and his bride. Noblemen and women of Intavia came to honor the princess as she was joined to her hero. Octavius in his newly decorated robe stood waiting at the temple, the men; priests, nobles, and royalties, waited for Emilia and the women were to accompany her. All the people of the kingdom were gathered, singing and dancing, eating and drinking. It was an opportunity for the beggars to fill their bellies with the finest food and an avenue for thieves to satisfy their hands. Precious pieces of jewelry disappeared from noble hands into the pockets of thieves. The women who had been preparing Emilia emerged and began a long procession to the steps of the temple. Ilena walked beside her princess with smiles on her face. Emilia had a wreath of white flowers resting on her head and her long blonde hair was blew gently in the light wind. At the sight of the beautif
14 years later… "Call my son, I want to speak with him," the king said in a low croaky tone. "Which of them, my king?" the priest asked as he bowed low. "Octavius." The priest bowed and left King Philip's presence. He stepped into the passage where Octavius stood with his wife Emilia by this side, beside them was Angus in his red cloak, the official archery uniform, the king's court stood with them at the passage with heads bowed down. At the sight of the priest, Octavius gently uncurled Emilia's fingers from around his arm and approached the old man. "How is he?" he asked the priest in a low voice. "He wants to see you, my prince," the priest responded. At the look of hesitation on Octavius' face he added "It's alright, my lord, the king is not contagious." Octavius nodded and let the priest lead him to the room. The room was darkened, the heavy curtains were drawn close, the atmosphere in the room was heavy also very heavy as