Lovey

Chapter 2.

-Zander’s Pov-

I have a strong love hate relationship with my Tatiana. Most days I just want to make her fucking suffer the way that I have, but then again, she lost her parents, too. But I don’t care enough about that to give her any mercy. It was her mother’s fault that they all died. They would have never been out that far so close to our borders if she was so fond of the hills and hills of flowers my father had planted with years ago back when they were just kids.

After our parents died, I tore every fucking thing I could get my hands on apart. The pain of losing them both was unbearable. My incredible father who was my hero and my amazing mother who helped me see the importance of a mate and a Luna were forever gone. That night Little Tatiana became afraid of my and fled the house I searched everywhere for her for hours and when I was about to give up and start panicking I stop to rest by the tallest tree in the cent of the woods, it has always been my favorite spot to get some fresh air.

I was sitting against the tree, worried out of my mind for her. I knew she was my responsibility. Now I had promised my parents that if it come to something like this, I would take care of her. I had been silently crying under that Hyperion tree when I heard sniffles that weren’t my own. I looked up and sure enough, I could barely see a small shoe handing off one of the large branches. To this day, it still amazes me how little Tat Tat even got up there. “The tree is massive.”

I climbed all the way up to the top to get her and I felt bad because she was crying in her sleep. All I know is that I know I had scared the hell out of her or else she wouldn’t have come all the way up here. I was only sixteen and had to be the Alpha. I had never been more afraid than I was that day. It was such a big responsibility to run a pack of wolves.

Red River pack is the third largest pack in the area. I have been working my ass off for years to grow the size of us. Red river has one thousand members. When dad was still alpha, we only had about five hundred wolves and in the last six years we have grown exceptionally. No member goes without or suffers… Well, except for Tatiana Paz Rosas. she’ll be turning eighteen soon. Little Tati has grown into the most beautiful girl I have ever laid my eyes on.

I have never laid a hand on her personally, but anytime I wanted her punished, I will have one of my men do it for me. I cannot have her hating me that much. A year ago when she turned seventeen is when everything changed for me. I started to have feelings for her. It confused the hell out of me. “My girl Sarah doesn’t even compare to her, but she has always been there for me and she’s a good fuck.”

I never wanted Tati to know that she had caught my eye, but for the last year, I would sneak into her room and sleep with her in my arms every night. It’s the best sleep I have ever had. she never knows that I’m there with her all night long. That girl is a heavy sleeper. She never hears me coming or going. I fucking love it.

Sarah was angry that I stopped sleeping with her at night, but I didn’t lie to her when I said it wasn’t safe for me to sleep in the same bed as her anymore. All the fucking nightmares I was having were becoming too real and one night I had attacked in my sleep. I woke up to her screams. I had opened my eyes and found myself on top of her with my hands around her neck, trying to squeeze the life out of her. “That was the last time I allowed her to come into my bed at night, unless it was just for sex.”

I made sure to lock my room when I was not in it and had a guard posted at my door twenty-four hours around the clock. Almost every night Sarah tried to come into my room and when I had confronted her about it, she had lied to my face. which I thought was stupid of her since my guard was witness to her nieve actions. She was dumbfounded when I had showed her my secret surveillance out of my bedroom door.

I had been so angry at her for lying to my face and that was the main reason I went looking for comfort and peace in my Lovely’s bed. Despite her bed being extremely small, I find it to be the most comforting place to be. Not a living soul can know that I go to her every night. I’m aware that she is in love with me. I tried to deny it to myself, but I can see it in her eyes every time she looks at me. No matter what I do to her, she never fails to look at me as if I am all she sees in this world. Each time her amazing light blue eyes settle on me, a chill goes down my spine. “She simply takes my breath away without even trying to.”

I know she has assumed that I cheat on Sarah with all the willing she-wolves that come my way. But today she actually caught me in the act and I have never been more embarrassed in my life. Yesterday, I had heard a couple of guys talking about getting spanked by their mates. I got curious, so I thought it would be less embarrassing if I tried it with one of the maids. I will admit that I did get off on it well, that was until I heard her giggling behind me, then she took off running.

I tried to catch her, but I wasn’t even thinking straight when I ran after her. I ended up falling on my face because my pants were still around my ankles. Later, when I got myself cleaned up, I went looking for her, but she was nowhere in sight, so I thought I would check Shayla’s room. I never thought she would actually be in there. But now that I found her, I knew this was her only safe place from me.

All my anger melted away when I saw her sleeping peacefully and I again couldn’t help myself, so laid next to her all afternoon and napped with her. This was different for me. because even though I sleep with her every night, I have never held her in the middle of the day. I didn’t realize I was craving her warmth so much until I got a taste of something so sweet. “Just listening to her breath calms the storm I battle with in my head.”

When I had kicked her out of the beta quarters all those years ago, I also made her part of the omega maids. “I should have known better than to get laid in the attic where the inventory is kept.” But I must have her punished for walking in on me and laughing. She will start thinking that I’m having mercy on her otherwise. I’m going to have my gamma do the dirty works for me. I hardly ever ask my beta to harm her because he loves her too much. She’s like a second daughter to him. “I know once he finds out what I’m going to have done to her, he is going to come storming into my office like he always does.”

— Gamma Chase, find the brat and whip her with your belt. She gets ten strikes on her back.

What brat are you referring to, Zander? You lay with many she-wolves.

Gamma, why are you playing dumb? I’m speaking of Tatiana. She is the only one who suffers from my heavy hand.

On it Alpha, but let’s not sit here and pretend that it is your heavy hand that brings her unnecessary pain. The girl does not deserve the life you have put upon her. Nor should she be getting whipped again just because your ass cannot keep it in your pants. Maybe this matter will teach you to be faithful to my cousin, Sarah. Even though I think she is a bitch for always slapping around Tati for no good reason other than to be her living nightmare.

“Shut the fuck up, Chase. I didn’t ask for your opinion. Just do what the fuck I said and get it done now!”

Whatever Zander, you’re an asshole! And don’t forget Sarah’s brother is done with his Beta training. He’ll be arriving today. He’s ready to take over for your father’s beta. And in case you forget, Nate has had it pretty bad for Tati ever since we were kids. If I were you, I would lay off her for a while or he is going to be challenging you. He’s only taking over as beta because you’re his best friend and he loves you. “That guy is all Alpha, just like his father.”

Fuck you Chase, do not tell me what to do with my pack member! And Nate will have to learn about his place just like you have.

— How dare my gamma say shit like that to me! Tati is mine to do with as I please. Besides, I’m sure Nate is over his Little crush by now? I remember how angry he was when I made her move into the shack. “He had walked up to me and punched me in the face hard.” My father’s beta had to separate us. We were both bleeding profusely from the wounds we had left on one another.

Nathan had a favorite ring that he always wore and he never told us got it. All he would say was that it was a gift. “He never took that ring off his finger.” I found out the hard way that only the band was platinum, but the face of the wolf that was attached to it was silver. So on the day that he punched me, the face of the wolf had left a scar on my face. I hate that I have to see it everyday it’s a constant reminder that he fought for her. I hated that he had the balls to standup to me. “One thing for sure is that Nathan Parsons is not afraid of me.”

— I went to my office to get some paper work done when Sarah knocked on my door.. Come in baby.

Alexzander, must you always work so hard? It seems as if you hardly ever have time for me anymore. I’m finding myself spending more time missing you than I am fucking you!

Sorry princess, what must I do to earn your forgiveness? Tell me and I shall give it to you.

You bet your ass you are going to give it to me. This is what is going to happen. You are going to get up from your seat. Walk over to me. Then you are going to lift my pretty little skirt and find that I am not wearing any panties. Next you will carry me over to your desk, bend me over and fuck me into next year. Got it?

“Fuck yes I do babe, message clearly received.”