I got out of my ride and grabbed my bags. For a moment, I just stood there in the driveway, staring up at the family home there in Aberdeen. Oh Lord.
Place hadn’t changed since I had left. Not one bit.
I looked around, up and down the street. A couple of younger kids were out playing in the cul-de-sac, just like we used to when we were kids. The Leroy house was painted blue now instead of gray, but even that blue paint looked faded and worn now.
I looked back at our house. What the hell was I doing here again? For the first time, I started to think about where I would even fit into this life. This was a tiny, two-bedroom house. Back when Annabelle and I were kids, sharing a room had been fine, but what about now? The whole unit wasn’t very big. There would be no getting away from Mom or her boyfriend. We’d constantly be bumping into one another.
Not for the last time, I was sure, I found myself feeling homesick for the Academy’s dorms. It was just housing for us dancers, but I’d had my own room in a three-bedroom unit. The shared living room had been spacious, with lofted ceilings and incredible views out over the Seine. The metro was just a couple blocks away, and in under an hour, I could be wherever I wanted to be in the city, from art museums and galleries to tourist sites to nightlife and anything else.
Here, I was a couple of blocks away from what passed as main street in town. A few shops, a tawdry bar that I wouldn’t be caught dead in, and who knew what else that had been put in since I had last been here. It wouldn’t be much.
I already couldn’t wait to get out of there, and I hadn’t even been inside yet.
I took a few steps toward the door. As much as I was worried about how the cramped space would feel once I was back in it, there was no denying that I’d had some good memories here in this house. Baking in the sunny, yellow kitchen with Mom and Annabelle. Twirling around in the living room as I watched hours and hours of ballet on repeat and tried to copy their moves.
I might have always wanted to get out of this town, but it hadn’t all been bad.
I knocked on the front door. It felt weird just to let myself in. I might be family, but I hadn’t lived here for years now. And I wasn’t the same person that I had been when I left. I was sure of that.
A young woman answered the door, and it took me a moment to recognize her as Annabelle. She had dyed her light brown hair dark, and it was styled in a sleek bob with a cute fringe just brushing her eyebrows. Her blue eyes were a dead giveaway, though, as was the squeal that she let out when she saw me. She flung her arms around me.
“You’re here!” she exclaimed. “Mom said you were coming home, but I thought she was joking. I didn’t think you were ever going to come back here. What’s up? You’re not engaged, are you?” She peered past me, like she expected some mystery beau to suddenly spring up behind me.
I shook my head. “No, not engaged.”
I sighed, trying to think of a way to explain. I had been vague with Mom, just telling her that I unexpectedly had some time off and thought that it would be nice to come home. Of course, she didn’t buy that for a second, but she had thoughtfully refrained from asking any prying questions, at least until I came home.
I had also been vague on my exact arrival details. The last thing I needed was her making a scene at the airport. I just couldn’t deal with that right now.
“You must be tired,” Annabelle said, grabbing my bag and dragging it inside. “Come on. I cleaned up the room just in case Mom wasn’t joking. You can have my bed for now. We’ll figure out something else soon. Sorry, I upsized to a queen, and there just wasn’t room for another twin bed in there after that.”
She looked so apologetic that I had to laugh as I shook my head. “Don’t worry about it,” I said. “I didn’t expect everything to be the same. It’s been a while.” I paused. “Is Mom here?”
Annabelle shook her head. “She and Clayton just went out to get food,” she said. Suddenly, her face lit up. “Oh, now I know why she was so adamant that we weren’t just having boring meatloaf leftovers tonight.” She giggled. “Anyway, they should be back soon, and then we can have dinner, and you can go straight to bed. Grandma.”
I rolled my eyes and gave her a light push. I had missed her laugh, and hearing it now was like a balm to my soul.
I headed down the hall to our old bedroom. It definitely looked like Annabelle’s place now, but there were certain hints of the fact that it had once belonged to both of us when we were kids. The glow-in-the-dark stars were still peeling off the ceiling above where our twin beds had been, and a couple of my pictures still hung on the walls. Nostalgia punched me in the gut, but I pushed it away.
I didn’t want to live in Aberdeen. Not before, and not now. Not ever. I was just here to pick up the pieces of my life, rest up, and train hard. I would be back in Paris within six months. Sooner if I had my way. No time to get attached to things here.
“Oh my god, you must be loving France, right?” Annabelle asked, flopping down on the bed next to where I had gingerly sat down, more to give my ankle a rest than out of any real desire to lay down there. I couldn’t help feeling out of place. I should offer to stay out on the sofa, I knew, but I also knew that a few months of sleeping on an old sofa was not what the director wanted when he told me to take six months to heal up.
“Paris is great,” I said, shrugging. I didn’t know what else to say. Annabelle had never been the kind of person to travel. She still lived here with Mom and Clayton, while theoretically saving for college. But she’d been saving for college for years now. I knew that school was expensive, but I was sure that if she really meant to leave, she would have by now.
She had never once come to visit me abroad, not even when Mom came to visit me. I knew she was too scared to travel. She’d probably live here in Aberdeen for the rest of her life. She wouldn’t be the first person to do that.
It was still crazy to me that we had once been so close, and yet we couldn’t have turned out more differently.
“So are you, like, getting transferred to an academy in New York or something?” Annabelle asked. “Is that why you’re back here? You know, Mom would love it if you were a little closer.”
AudreyI shook my head. “No,” I said. “I love Paris. I don’t want to leave any time soon.” I paused, thinking back over my time there. “The Global Traveling Dance Academy of Performing Arts is so amazing, Annabelle. They’ve helped me so much with my dancing, and—what?”Annabelle was cracking up, and I tried to think about what I’d said. “The Global Academy of Traveling Pants, or whatever it is,” she said, giggling. “Do they make you say that every time you talk about them?”I bristled, unable to help it. “The Global Traveling Dance Academy of Performing Arts,” I corrected. She giggled some more. “It’s one of the most prestigious dance academies in the world.”“Sure,” Annabelle said. “Well, we watched that DVD performance that you sent Mom. Hate to say it, but it all just looks like ballet to me. I mean, really good ballet. But just ballet.”I shrugged, looking down at my hands. I didn’t know what to say to that. I knew that no one here in Aberdeen would ever understand anything about
JesseI was expecting Dan to show up on Saturday morning, which was part of why I hadn’t wanted to draw things out with Joe the night before. Dan owned a restoration company in town, and he always came to me for lumber, tools, and other odds and ends for his crew. He was a big money-maker for the store, one of our best companies. I didn’t trust anyone else to handle business with him.That was partly because Dan was one of the most demanding customers that we had as well. I watched him run his hand down a piece of lumber. He looked up at me with knitted eyebrows. “This the best oak that you’ve got?” he asked. “We’re refinishing countertops and trim in some of those old cabins out by the lake, and the woman who has us doing it wants everything to last into the next century, not just the next decade. Look at all the knots in this piece!”I peered at the sample and then the piece of paper attached to the pile. Then, I nodded, jabbing my finger at it. “Yep, this is the stuff for the trim.
JesseJoe followed me into the back. “Maybe you should have hired the kid on probation,” he said.He didn’t say it loudly enough for Chance to overhear him, but I still gave him a look. “Everyone deserves a chance,” I said.Joe snorted. “Chance deserves a chance,” he said. “That’s really funny, Jesse.”I rolled my eyes. “Come on, get to work.” “Aye aye, boss,” Joe said, saluting me, his eyes twinkling.“Mixed metaphors,” I muttered under my breath, but I couldn’t help grinning as well.We hadn’t done much when Chance came running back to find me. “There’s not enough cash for me to give change,” he said, sounding panicked.I frowned. I had counted the drawer this morning, and unless someone was trying to pay with a really huge bill, there shouldn’t be any problem. Most people paid by card, so I doubted the drawer was already empty. We hadn’t had that many customers in there that morning, even.Joe gave me a look like “can you believe this fucking kid”.“I’ll be right back,” I told him
AudreyWhen I got up on Sunday morning, I could smell breakfast cooking in the kitchen. Bacon, pancakes, orange juice, and who knew what else. Mom always liked to go big on Sunday morning breakfasts, and I was sure going to get big if I started eating like I used to. I’d never get back to dancing again. I really needed to talk to her about that.I was surprised when I wandered into the kitchen, though. Mom beamed at me when she saw me, gesturing toward a plate. “I remembered when we were in Paris that you always ate those egg white omelets and fruit for breakfast,” she said.I knew the omelet had probably been cooked in butter, but I was touched again by the effort that she was making, even though I had just shown up here out of the blue. “Thanks, Mom,” I said, sliding into my seat at the table across from where Annabelle was already seated.“How are you feeling this morning?” Mom asked. “Better?”I nodded, and in fact, I somehow was. I was getting used to the idea of being here, at l
Audrey“That sounds like fun,” Mom said. “I bet you really would love it, Audrey. Maybe you’d run into some of your old friends. You could probably show them a move or two.” She winked at me, and I had to fight not to roll my eyes.Show them a move or two? Did she think I was going to bust out a few of my ballet moves right there in the middle of some small-town bar? It just showed how much she really thought of me and my career.“I’m not in contact with any of my old friends,” I said, hoping that would be the end of the matter. The last thing I wanted to do was go to a bar by myself. I didn’t want to be that desperate stranger standing off to the side, trying to attach myself to a group.I felt another pang of homesickness for my life in Paris. I hadn’t gone out alone in all the time that I’d been there. The other dancers at the Global Traveling Dance Academy of Performing Arts, the ones who had been there for a while, had immediately taken me under their wings when I had arrived, sh
JesseI mounted the sign back where it was meant to go and climbed back down, to applause from Tristan’s daughter. “You fixed it!” she said excitedly as she peered up at it.I grinned in spite of myself. “Wasn’t too difficult,” I told her, but I accepted the high five that she gave me anyway. I straightened back up and turned to Tristan. “That wind last night was pretty crazy, huh?”“Yeah, came up out of nowhere, too,” Tristan said, looking worried. “I’m afraid what that means for storms this year.” Then, his worry cleared as he clapped me on the shoulder. “At least I’m lucky enough to work right next door to the town handyman. You want to come inside for a piece of pie?”“God, that sounds great,” I said. I’d been going since dawn that morning. Not only did I have the hardware store to open, but I’d gotten calls from half a dozen people in town who all wanted to know if there was any way that I could help them with storm damage that they had suffered overnight.I’d left Tristan’s dine
AudreyI dug through my bag, trying to find some sort of outfit that would be suitable for a bar in Aberdeen. Annabelle and I had snuck out to go to shows in town when we were teenagers, with more or less success, depending on the night. What the hell had we worn back then? Jeans? I didn’t think that I had worn jeans in years now. Surely not in all the time that I’d lived in Paris.When we went out there, I was usually in a dress or slacks and a button-up blouse. But both of those things seemed too formal for wearing around Aberdeen. I didn’t really care about what everyone here thought of me, but I wanted to be comfortable and not look like a snooty rich girl out of her element. If this really was about research, that wasn’t going to help me one bit.“God, I wish I were as skinny as you,” Annabelle said as she came back into the bedroom after her shower with just a towel wrapped around her.I snorted. “You look amazing, and you know it,” I chided. “But if you want to give up on all t
Audrey“I’m in flat shoes,” I reminded her. Her shoes. She shouldn’t need reminding.Annabelle shrugged. “Come on, get in,” she said, walking over to the van.I stared at the door that she held open for me. I wanted to argue, but the words wouldn’t come. And anyway, I could tell that this was the kind of battle that I just wouldn’t win.I slipped inside. When Clayton put it in drive, the van lurched, and I winced. It made a terrible sound as it drove through town, and I felt more and more embarrassed. Finally, we came to a sputtering stop outside the bar. People were definitely staring as Annabelle and I got out.I cringed, but I was surprised to see that Annabelle didn’t seem to care about the attention. Instead, she smiled and chatted to a few people she knew, talking about how nice the evening was and how good it was to be done with winter finally.We headed inside. Gabby’s was nicer than Finnegan’s, but it was still definitely a dive bar by anyone’s reckoning. You would never find