Chapter 6

Harlyn

When the guards and the driver dropped me off, it was already dark.

“I did you good by picking a hotel, just go in and book a room for the night and then from tomorrow, you can find your way. I should warn you that they are humans as you are currently in human territory. You can barely see any shifters around here,”

The driver had said right before he zoomed off into the distance.

Even though I wanted to get in another car and drive back to the pack, I couldn’t do it. it would only cause me trouble. If I go back, I might end up being thrown into prison and I didn’t want that. As much as I didn’t know how to interact with humans, I summoned a little courage and looked ahead to see the hotel that the driver had been talking about. I walked towards it in fear. My wolf was still silent, she hadn't spoken since we left the king’s room and not even on the long drive to where we currently were. I understood her but wished she would speak to me. It would be nice to know that I am not completely alone.

I walked to the receptionist and told her I wanted a room, my voice sounded hoarse from the crying and it wasn’t the end of my crying. As soon as I got into the room I paid for, I sat down on the floor and cried my eyes out wondering what I did to deserve such an ill fate. I begged the moon goddess to take pity on me and take away my pains but nothing worked. I managed to take a bath and wash the clothes I came in because that's all I had, I wore the hotel robe and went to lay on the bed. The bed reminded me of a bigger bed, the one I had slept in the night before, the same one I thought would be my new bed going forward after my alpha marked me. What a joke it turned out to be. my finger went to where he had marked me. I could still feel a sting but I knew it already healed. I was mated without a mate and carried the smell of the man who rejected me. It brought more tears to my eyes.

I fell asleep with tears in my eyes and woke up the next morning still in tears. Nothing could console me when my life was in shambles and I didn’t even know where to start or where to go. I spent the whole day in the hotel room, not like I had anywhere else to go. I didn’t want to interact with humans all that much but I knew I couldn’t hide in the hotel room forever, I needed to find cheap accommodation and not just that, I needed to find a job. But the problem was I didn’t even know where to start. I fucking knew nothing about the human world. Before I started working in the palace, I worked as a maid for one of the influential families in the kingdom and that’s where the queen mother had found me in one of her visits. Those people treated me so badly. When the queen mother had asked me if I would love to work for the palace. I had said yes without even thinking twice. It had turned out to be a good decision until the queen mother had passed away. Before she died. Princess Sophie and her friends were already mean to me but they never took it to the extreme like they started doing after she passed away.

“I wish you were still here,”

I whispered as tears flowed from my eyes. If she was still alive, I was sure she would never have allowed the alpha king and the princess to treat me the way they did or let them throw me out of the palace with nothing. More tears fell from my eyes as I thought about how I would live from now on.

Since I couldn’t bring anything with me, I had nothing on me to start life so I was starting from scratch. I already knew I would never be accepted to any pack so that was out of the picture. If only I could transform, it would have been easier for me to find a new pack. I was submissive and easy to deal with. It would have been so easy but life was never meant to be easy for me and I already accepted that fact. I checked the time and got out of bed. I already checked the hotel menu and their food was too expensive, I couldn’t afford it unless I wanted the money with me to finish soon. I got dressed. I haven’t eaten anything since yesterday and was super hungry. I needed to find a cheaper place to eat. I checked my reflection in the mirror and almost started crying again as I looked so pitiful.

“We will be fine,”

I heard my wolf say for the first time since we got rejected. Her voice was so tiny I could have missed it if someone else had been in the room with me. She was hurting and still wanted me to know I wasn’t alone.

“I don’t know if we will ever be okay, now I can even train to get you out,”

I lamented, back at the palace, no one knew it but I used to train myself and we have been working together to find a way for me to transform. We were making progress but now I can’t even do that in human territory. I have read enough about humans to know that my kind would scare them and I might end up in a zoo or something if anyone found out about what I was and I didn’t want that.

“Still, we will be fine,”

She voiced. I hoped so too even though I had so little faith. My stomach rumbled. I needed to eat as I couldn’t keep starving myself. I took the envelope that the princess had given me and took out some money before keeping the envelope inside the pocket of my skirt. I got out of the hotel room and walked downstairs to the reception. I gave the keys to the receptionist and made my way out of the hotel after asking her where I could get cheaper food. She showed me a place that was a little far from the hotel.

It didn’t take long for me to locate the place. There were a good number of people. All humans, the place was loud as hell. I sat down at an empty table. The waiter came over and gave me the menu. I picked rice and beef stew. I waited only ten minutes for my order to arrive and ate in silence. No one seemed to take notice of me or if they did, they didn’t show it. I was used to being ignored so it didn’t bother me at all.

After I finished eating, I left there and instead of going back to my hotel directly, I took a walk, trying to get familiar with the place. A lot of people were walking by me and everyone was just doing their own thing without taking note of what others were doing which wasn’t really the case back in the crimson moon pack. Each time I leave the palace, I always have people looking at me weirdly and talking behind my back because they know I am different, they know I don’t have a wolf and some even go as far as making fun of me and calling me weirdo to my face. I shook the thought of the humiliations I went through in the crimson moon out of my head and focused on looking around.