SEBASTIANI was gazing in shock at the regretful casket that consumed her away too early and had been brightened up by her beauty, even in death. It was crazy how things could turn upside down in a second. I saw the one I loved every single day and suddenly she was gone, and a part of me left too. That was exactly how I felt right now. I didn’t even know if she was going to Heaven, or a place where she might feel safe and with no pain.My despair was huge and I just couldn’t shed one tear. I looked around at the few friends who came; they all had tear-stained faces, but not me. Their eyes were swollen with soaked grief, but not mine. Only my shoulders were slumped under the weight of death’s hand.We placed her in our home, her home. The very space she once felt rescued, lost, found, and loved all at the same time. But also this house killed her in the most horrific way possible.I froze facing her casket, and I had my gaze locked on her white porcelain face. I reached her cheek, slig
Through the hourglass of the past1200 AD, the Land of NorthumberlandDear diary, My life was not the way I pictured it. I dreamed of having someone to love, to rely on, but instead I had to fight against my family’s wish to marry into the pack. And yes, I was a werewolf, and soon a Luna. My parents pointed to Conrad Hewitson as my Alpha; he was caring and thoughtful, but my heart somehow knew it would beat for someone else.“My dear Lettice, you know we love you so much, but these are the rules inside our pack. We wouldn’t have survived for so many years if we had broken them” my mother’s voice was always kind. She was my shelter, my refuge, and my guardian, but this time I felt like she was my executioner. There was a burning fire in my mother’s eyes that no matter what my problems were, she consistently found moments of affection that built the foundation of the woman I am today. The family was very important to me, but sometimes their decisions affected me and echoed through time
SEBASTIANThe next day I wasn’t seeing the situation any differently. Bella was still gone, my baby wolf was still gone, and I…I longed for them in a way that my body broke in half. The heaviness of my despair had reached an alarming level of physical pain.Erik stayed for the night. He actually insisted on doing so, as he was the closest thing to the agony I was feeling. The mystery of her departure still haunted me, as I couldn’t explain the reason. Knowing that she would not be here anymore threw me into endless vertigo. No way out, no way in, just sorrowful memories impossible to cope with, just to live among them until you go near the ones who have left.I decided today I shall go back to Bellingham. There was nothing to do here in Northumberland, the place that had stripped me of so much. I will have to detach myself from these painful roots and start a new life. If I don’t take Bella out of my mind, there would be no way of healing.“Feeling better?”Erik framed the entrance in
SEBASTIANI jumped in that river without even thinking twice, placing my pain way behind me as my wolf’s instinct was as strong as it was at the restaurant when I marked Bella as my mate. I ignored all the signals and followed the scream right into the water. The woman that seconds ago was waving in horror no longer was in sight. People were already gathering, attracted by the uproar she had been making. I went deeper into the depths of the stream, looking for the fragile silhouette that earlier was struggling to stay on the surface. I had to find her!A beam of the sun was piercing the water, unrevealing a perfect porcelain figure underneath. Even underwater, she emanated a natural beauty, hard to explain in words. Her black soft curls that were dancing beneath the water drew my eyes, and then gently caressed the line of her neck and reached just below her shoulders; if goddesses were real, then this little one here was their flawless creation.As I was approaching her, I grabbed her
TERESAI felt my tears were so dry and hot at the same time, leaving dreadful traces into my soul. Struggling to breathe felt like a heavy war, with thousands of people fighting and killing each other. That was a strange comparison. I could still feel the cold water invading all of me, taking away the heat from my heart just as fast as the wind did when I desperately rose to the surface for a gasp of life. Water has been my nemesis for as long as I could remember. My fears had been weighing on me heavily, like a downpour of rain, and as a result, I hadn't been able to move past this situation. I don't know if I ever would. I got saved. I just knew I was. A mysterious someone risked their life to preserve mine. I felt the warmth of a powerful body, so probably, no, surely, it was a man. But who was he? And where the hell did he take me? It felt cozy and familiar. All I remembered was how I took pictures of the saddest face I have ever encountered in my entire career. And suddenly it
TERESAWhat would you do when reality strikes and you are in no position to strike back? When you know what would happen but you don’t have the power to stop it from happening? Well, just embrace it!I did not know for how long I had stayed in this gorgeous man’s house, but one thing I was sure of, that I had stayed more than necessary. So by the time I realized I was staring with no shame at his perfect chiseled muscles, panic settled in like an inevitable fire camp. Tension grew in my chest and my limbs and suddenly I felt like I was lacking air. But this time the fear differed from the other day. The other day??“What time is it??” I asked in a too-loud voice.Sebastian, or whatever his name was, pointed a finger at the wall where I turned my gaze like in slow motion. I was just an actor in a really awful movie. “9:30??? You mean thirty minutes past nine?” And so my breathing became more rapid and more shallow. I was facing a hurricane of emotions and I didn’t like any of them. My
SEBASTIANI didn’t even know how this happened, but after Teresa slammed the car door, I felt a desperate need to get out of there as soon as possible. I didn’t even understand why I was so attracted to her. Okay, it was obvious why, but a human? How could a human being be the perfect half of my heart? I knew from the beginning that Isabella was not my Luna, but for crying out loud, I was still in mourning. I couldn’t afford to let my heart go crazy about this. It has to be just a phase from which I will wake up soon.Although the wolf in me screamed as loud as he could, only one person had the answer, Vicky. I got home quickly and heard Mother in the kitchen preparing breakfast. I miss such meals the most. They were part of our family. But they all feel so distant now. It was the happy memories that sustain us, but we lost them so many years ago. I went straight into my room searching in my troubled mind for the one person who would understand me, advise me like she always did thro
SEBASTIANMy sister’s advice took me out of the abyss into which I had sunk, and at the same time, I realized she was right. But I was a werewolf, a demon from the dark world, and she was a fragile woman, one who would not accept this too easily. She could end up scared or traumatized if she saw me transform. So such an approach is out of the question. For now, I would act with caution. I would gain her trust so that I could finally be close to her without her fearing me.My sister was also going through changes that did not make her happy, and that I insisted so much on getting in touch with her made me feel selfish. But Vicky was just Vicky. I got convinced that her life was not very different from mine. None of us have been with our soul mates and now they both have appeared and we don’t know how to handle it.A week passed, and I never saw Teresa again. Maybe it was for the better, though her scent still lingered throughout my house. There was no corner in here that didn’t smell