Chapter 5

Love can either make you or break you. True to what they say, if love is nourished it will grow beautifully. But a love that isn't will slowly break us inside. And that's how the love I had for Zach shattered me.

Nagpatuloy ng isang buwan ang madalas na pagkikita namin ni Zach. Kung ano ano na lang ang dinadahilan ko sa mga magulang ko para makapunta lang sa condo niya at makasama siya. We were happy but it was short lived.

"Ah. Zach... Faster..." I moaned as he continued to rammage me.

"Thought you don't like it fast," he whispered which gave me chills.

He followed what I said as he continued to rock me with his fast and rough movements. Halos malagutan na ako ng hininga sa bilis ng paggalaw niya sa loob ko.

"I'm going to cum," I told him.

"Cum for me, baby," aniya. Naging mas marahas ang galaw niya kumpara kanina. Nanghihina ako nang maramdaman kong nilabasan ako.

He was stroking my hair when we were lying beside each other.

"What are we, Zach?"

He stopped what he was doing. Instead of responding, he asked a question. "Why are you asking?"

"Just tell me."

"We're happy."

"We don't have a label. Kabit ba ako?"

"What the fuck?" Bulalas nito. "No. Look at me." He cupped my face. "You're not a mistress, okay. We're happy, right?"

Tumango ako. I felt him kiss the top of my head. I'd just settle for whatever he could be as long as I'm happy... we're happy.

I don't want any woman to come between us. Kung sino man ang babaeng nasa wallet niya. I could make Zach happier. Not her. It should only be me.

"Zach..." I called him.

"Hmm?" Pikit mata nitong sagot.

"Can I blow you?"

I want to drive him wild, explore every inch of him, and love him so that he won't find another woman.

Napadilat ito sa narinig mula sa akin.

"What? What are you saying?"

"I want to blow you, I said," mariin kong sabi.

"Why? You don't have to."

"But I want to." I insist. I'd make sure I'm the only one who does things for him so he won't forget me. How I made him feel heaven.

"Are you sure?"

I nodded my head.

"I'm not forcing you, Vell. Just tell me if you want to stop."

Tumango akong muli. He removed the blanket. I knelt down in the middle. His proud member welcomed me. I tried to hold it using my right hand but it wasn't enough so I used both of my hands. He chuckled at my reaction. He gave me a peck on my lips before I continued to move it up and down.

"Shit. Vell... you're killing me..." anas niya.

I continued to do it. And when I decided I wanted to put it in my mouth, I could hear heavy breaths from him.

I tried the best that I could to make it fit inside. He's huge. It wasn't enough! Nagtaas baba ang aking ulo habang nilalasap ko ang kahabaan niya. I'm going to cry because of it but I kept up. Zach held my face, and gathered my hair as I continued to blow him. Taas baba. I even played with his ball.

"Fuck..." marahas nitong sambit. Napaangat ang kanyang ulo habang nakapikit ito. I even saw him biting his lips. That satisfied me. It just means I'm doing well. I started using my tongue. Dinilaan ko iyon pataas pababa.

"Tangina... Vell... fuck... Ahh..."

He guided me. Siya na ngayon ang humawak sa ulo ko. Nagsunod sunuran na lamang ako habang mabilis niyang ginagabayan ang ulo ko. Halos maubo ako nang maramdaman ko iyon sa lalamunan ko. I wanted to cry! Pinigilan ko na lamang. Ginawa ko ang lahat. Pinagkasya ko iyon sa loob ng bibig ko.

I felt wet when he even cupped my breast.

"You're so good. Fuck your mouth..."

I made him happy.

"Lalabasan na ako. Putangina..."

I did my best to pleasure him. Hinawakan ko ito habang marahas na gumagalaw ang kanya sa aking lalamunan.

When I felt his release, napuno ang aking bibig.

"Don't swallow," his authoritative voice knocked me. I nodded. Iniluwa ko iyon. Kumuha siya ng tissue sa gilid at pinunasan ang gilid ng labi ko.

"You're amazing. Thank you, Vell."

"Anything for you, Zach." I smiled.

I thought we were done, but Zach wasn't because he held my legs. Zach was now kneeling between my legs.

"Zach..." The fire inside my body was starting to build up.

Nanlambot ang mga tuhod ko nang magsimula siyang hagurin ang pagkababae ko.

"Zach... please..."

"Please what?" He smirked.

Nakagat ko ang pang ibabang labi ko nang sinumulan niyang ipasok ang kanyang gitnang daliri.

"Zach!"

He was amused at my reaction. Kinuha ko ang unan sa gilid at tinakpan ang sarili. I felt so exposed! Mabilis namang tinanggal ni Zach iyon.

"Don't close your eyes, Vell. Watch me pleasure you."

His finger started moving. Sunod sunod iyon na halos ikabaliw ako. Napasabunot ako sa kanyang buhok.

"Zach... Ahh. Hmmm...."

He added two more fingers. "Shit! Zach! Please!"

My went crazy when he also lavished my clit. God. He continued to pump his fingers.

"Cum for me," aniya. Pabilis nang pabilis ang galaw ng kanyang mga daliri sa loob ko. He was still doing vigorously. I didn't want him to stop. Wala pang isang minuto ay naramdaman ko ng lalabasan na ako. Lupaypay ako nang maramdaman ang paglabas nito.

Zach's lips turned upward. I was surprised when I saw him licking his fingers.

"Zach, ano ba!"

"You're so sweet. I can't get enough of you."

Niyakap niya ako nang mahiga siya sa tabi ko. Whatever we have right now, I'm willing to gamble everything I have for him.

I went to school the next day. Geneva was eying my suspiciously.

"Blooming, ah? Nadiligan na naman, ano?" She laughed.

Pinanlakihan ko siya ng mata. "Geneva!"

Mas lalo itong malakas na natawa. "Sana all na lang talaga."

Naikuwento ko sa kanya ang madalas na pagkikita namin ni Zach. She even warned me not to trust the guy. Pero huli na dahil pinagkatiwalaan ko rin siya ng aking puso.

"Gen naman! Stop making fun of me!"

"Hindi na. Naiinis ka na eh," aniya. Kumuha siya ng pagkain namin.

"I'm telling you, you have to be careful. He's a bachelor, Eyah. Madaling magsawa ang mga kagaya niya. I hope he's sincere with you."

"He is," sabi ko na lamang.

"Pero walang label." Pagkontra niya.

"We're happy."

"Sige na, desisyon mo naman iyan. I'm just reminding me of your choices."

"Let's not talk about it, Gen. May quiz later, hindi ba?"

"Ay shet! Oo nga!" Natawa ako. We reviewed after eating.

Kinabukasan ay nag-bake ako muffin. I knew how to cook because Manang Sally taught me. Baking isn't hard as long as you follow the right measurement.

I wanted to surprise Zach in his office. I wore my khaki dress, fit enough to hug my curves. I even applied a light make up.

Bitbit ko ang cookie na binake ko kanina. Nasabi niya na sa akin dati kung saang floor siya. The secretary asked me if I have an appointment when I got inside.

"I'm sorry, Ma'am. You cannot enter if you don't have an appointment."

"But he knows me!" Giit ko.

"I'm sorry, Ma'am. We're just following his orders."

"Tell him my name," mariing sabi ko. Minutes after, Zach went outside with an old man, probably an investor or his business partner. He looked surprised when he saw me.

Sinenyasan niya ang sekretarya niya na papasukin ako. Umirap ako sa babae bago tuluyang nakapasok. Hinila ni Zach ang braso ko. Napadaing ako sa sakit.

"Why are you here?" Matalim na titig nito sa akin. Sandali akong nakaramdam ng takot. It was the first time he looked at me that way.

"I- I just want to surprise you," I said.

"You should've told me!" His chest was heaving.

"Surprise nga, hindi ba? Am I not allowed inside?"

Umiling siya. "No. But you still have to inform me, Vell."

"Alright." Inabot ko sa kanya ang muffins na dala ko.

"I baked this for you." Ngumiti ako sa kanya.

"Baby, I don't like sweets."

"What? Hindi ko alam. I'm sorry."

"It's okay. I'll accept this."

"But you told me you don't like it."

"You made it."

My heart warmed at what he said. I gave him a peck on his lips. I was about to move away but he was quick to hold me in his arms.

"You surprised me, baby." Kagat nito ang aking tainga. I shivered at what he did.

"Z-Zach..." I breathed.

Zach closed the door. Umupo siya sa kanyang swivel chair, at pinaupo niya ako sa kanyang kandungan. I was at his back while his hands roamed around my body.

"I want you," he whispered. His hands went inside my dress until he found my breast. Both of his hands were palming it.

"Zach, not here," I reminded him.

"Ahuh... I'll choose where we'll do it. I want you to blow me, baby."

"Zach, no. Ayoko rito! Sa inyo na lang please. Not here," untag ko. Umiiling ako sa kanya. Not here in his office. It felt inappropriate.

"There's no CCTV here, Vell. We won't get caught, okay. Trust me."

"Pero—"

He cut me off. "Don't you trust me?"

"I do," sagot ko.

"Then do it. Pleasure me. Blow my mind, Vell."

One thing I learned about Zach is that when he wants something, he's firm about it. Just like now, he wants me to do it. He doesn't mind about the place as long as he wants to do it. And here I am caged by him. Caged by his desire and lust for me.

I knelt down and I bobbed my head to him. I licked his hardness as if it was the best popsicle I've ever tasted.

"Fuck..." he moaned. His expression was enough for me to know that he's enjoying what I was doing.

All for him.

He fucked me in my mouth. "Damn that sinful of yours, baby." Halos sabunutan ako ni Zach nang mabilis niyang iginiya ang aking ulo. Marahas din ang kanyang paghinga.

Nang maramdaman ko nang papalapit na siya ay malugod kong sinalubong ang paglabas nito mula sa kanya.

"Spit it," he said. He took the issue from his table and made me swallow his juices. Pinunasan niya ang gilid ng labi ko.

"Thank you, Vell."

I smiled. Akala ko'y tapos na. But Zach is Zach. He won't get enough. He made me sat in his lap again.

"Nice outfit, baby. Easy access," he sexily murmured.

He lifted up my dress and made me sat in his hardness. I feel so full. It was the first time we did this in this position.

Naramdaman ko ang mabilis na paghinga niya sa likod. Itinaas niya pa lalo ang dress ko para tuluyang maglantad ang mga hinaharap ko. He cupped both of my breast as he started guiding me.

"Ride me, Vell."

I don't know how to! I let my instinct took over me. I moved slow, then when I picked my pace, I started moving fast. His hands were still on my breast. He let me move.

"Shit... you feel so good, baby..."

Napapikit ako sa sarap na nadarama ko. I love Zach so much. I never knew I'd fall for a guy like this. His hands left my breast, and he was now the one guiding my body. Pabilis nang pabilis ang kanyang paggalaw. Parang malalagutan na ako ng hininga. He's driving me crazy.

"Ahhh... Zach..."

"Ssh.. Baby... You don't want them to know what we're doing. Keep your voice down."

"I can't..."

"You have to."

I bit my lower lip to suppress myself from moaning but it was so hard. He was moving too fast. Zach always liked it hard. When I was about to reach my climax, nagulat na lamang ako nang sinabutan niya ako.

"Zach!"

"Sshh... I own you, Vell. Remember this. No one's going to let you feel this way like I do. Akin ka." He held my neck.

"Sa'yo lang ako, Zach."

I felt tired when he was finished. The liquid he released inside my body made me full. I'm on my pill. Hindi ko na rin gusto ang condom. I wanted it raw with Zach. Only him.

I quickly took a bath when that memory knocked me. Why do I keep remembering the past? I should've forgotten already! Napahilamos ako sa inis ko sa sarili ko dahi sa mga naiisip ko.

Even if I had tried to get rid of my feelings for Zachariel, my body sometimes betrayed me. The little adventures I had for him was something hard to get rid of.

Today's my wedding. I should be happy because a wedding for a woman is worthy to be remembered for a lifetime. But this wedding is just the start of my plan to destroy Zach. After taking a bath for a long time, I wore my bath robe.

The news about Samantha's scandal also blew up in the internet earning thousands of negative reactions from netizens. That's expected already.

Napangisi ako. Everything's going on my way.

As I made my way inside the church beside my father, I could see the eyes of people focused in me. From the corner, I could see my mother slowly wiping her tears with a tissue. I don't know if she's genuine but I found it heart warming.

"I hope you'll find happiness, Vell. I may not be the best father, but I love you." Hindi ako makapaniwalang naririnig ko iyon sa aking tatay. Bata pa lamang ako naisip ko na ampon ako dahil sa pagtrato nila sa akin. I could feel a tear sliding into the corner of my eyes. I hastily remove it using the back of my hand.

Geneva, my friend was also there. I smiled at her. My brother couldn't attend today, but he congratulated me when we had our video chat earlier. He was happy for me. Everyone's happy for me, but why couldn't I find happiness inside me?

Nang nagtama ang tingin namin ni Zach ay hinawakan niya ang aking kamay.

"Today, I pronounce you husband and wife."

Today under the bright sky, we proclaimed our marriage without love. A marriage that also started our downfall.