LUCIUS After hearing what Freya's parents had to say, I couldn't help but feel bad about what I had done to her. Though I understood it was inappropriate to say such things, I assumed she would treat her spouse the same way others do. I wanted her to reject me because I had assumed she would. I was shocked at how much I had wounded her. Encouraging Selene that I loved her and then encouraging her to reject me felt like a terrible mistake.I doubt the love is still present in my heart, but I knew that what I felt for Selene was love. If I kept claiming I loved Selene and would do anything to get back to her, I knew for sure that things would not work out the way I wanted them to. I was aware of the harm it could cause her. Knowing that she was open to giving other men in her life a chance made me feel hurt. I knew such thinking wasn't appropriate because I had already done that to her. I'm having trouble deciding what to do. There was part of me that wanted to stay with my mate and
FreyaMy heart felt like it had been pierced by millions of swords that are laced with wolfsbane. I couldn't bear to see my friend say to my face that he thinks I'm someone else. I felt sad knowing that my own mate doesn't recognize me but instead thinks that I'm somebody else, but not anybody but the person he said he loves. I don't know whose partner had the guts to tell them to their face that they loved someone else and that their partner looked like the person they loved. My heart wasn't in good shape, and I knew if I didn't take care of it, I might break down. I knew for a fact that my partner is in love with someone else, and it hurt me to know that, but that's the absolute truth that can't be changed. I knew that, being an alpha, I might be able to hold it, but this is different; I wasn't able to hold it. I knew that I had no strength in me to withstand the fact that my partner thinks I'm not the person I am but another person. I feel hurt knowing that my mate loves someone
SeleneI woke up with a pang of a headache, hoping to see Lucius beside me, but I couldn't. I felt my heart ache immediately. I couldn't believe he had been gone for days now. I felt the need to hate him, but I knew that I didn't have to do that because he wasn't responsible for that; Freya was. I felt the need to strangle her and bury her for letting me be apart from my mate.I felt the need to cry and kill him for what she had done, but I knew there was nothing I could do about it. I have been restless the past few days for Lucius, but there is nothing I can do. I have been trying to find ways to contact him, but I have found none. I tried hard and even tried telling the Alpha to contact him, but he didn't want to. I have made up my mind to keep bugging him to give in to my demands. I knew that he would have no choice but to do as I have said.I stood up from my bed and staggered into the bathroom to have my bath. I walked out of the bathroom shortly with my hair dripping with water
LUCIUS I was confused, knowing that my companion had looked in on me while I was sleeping. I had no idea what to do. I sensed a physical drain on my abilities. I knew that anything I asked of her would infuriate her, and moreover, I knew that I now knew her true intentions, so I felt compelled to find out. She had expressed a desire for me to accept her, but I refused to do the same as I was already engaged to someone else and I was in love. I was forced to explain that I believed her to be Selene, even though I knew there was nothing I could say or do to justify what I had done the day before. Furthermore, I have no idea why I did what I did yesterday. I'm walking back and forth in my room in the morning. She knew that I was going to be leaving shortly, but I couldn't understand why she would come look at me. Although I too don't want to leave, I knew that I had to go regardless of the circumstances because of Selene. I knew, as much as I did, that she would be devastated at not
FREYAI was walking past the corridor to Lucius's room when I heard him whistle. I froze on the spot, not knowing what to do, but soon I shrugged it off my mind and walked away. I felt my mind bugging me to check it out, but I knew it wouldn't be a good option. I knew, for a fact, that I couldn't let him catch me. I knew that he might have ideas that I have been peeking at, and I don't want him to think of those. I knew he might think something was weird and unusual about me peeking at him. He will feel that I'm hiding something, and I don't want him to find anything out. I knew if he found out something was wrong, he would keep trying to find out from me. I knew that he would use the opportunity to get close to me to know what was wrong, and after getting what he needed, he would leave me alone. I don't want to get attached to him. I was on my way back to my room, and I passed the same route, which was the corridor that leads to his room. There are other ways, but I felt my mind bu
SELENEI was wearing a frown when I woke up this morning. I was wearing a frown. The bird didn't show up yesterday, despite my expectation that it would. The fact that the bird didn't and that, if he had seen the bird, it should have arrived by now perplexed me. Since the bird was unable to locate him today, I knew it would return. Where is he? I couldn't help wondering. What happens if he's imprisoned or something? As I considered it, my breathing became tight. I could feel the darkness creeping into my eyes, and I couldn't help but worry about him. I had assumed that I would have a way to communicate with him, but that has since altered because I am not receiving a response from him. My eyes went around as I considered all the possible things that could have occurred to him while he was in the cell. Despite my strong belief that he would see my letter and the fact that he did not respond, I had concerns. I couldn't resist trying to come up with a plan to visit him. I'll do everyth
LuciusI had found ways to skip seeing Freya the previous day. I didn't want to see her because she had been in my room when I was washing off the ink that had stained my body. I knew that she had read the letter I wrote to Selene, and I don't know how to face her. I knew she wouldn't be happy reading the letter, but there was nothing I could do about it. I found out late, even before she could tell if I had caught her.I knew that she wouldn't be herself if she knew I had caught her peeping on me, but that isn't my main problem. I don't know how to face my friend after she read the letter I wrote to Selene. I knew that all the things I mentioned were based on our emotions and affections. I knew she would be hurt by that, and I don't want to do anything that can warrant getting on her nerves. I don't want to hurt her in such a way that she would get angry and throw me into the cold room again. I don't want to experience the things I felt in the cold room.One would think that I'm sca
Freya I was in disbelief at what was occurring. My eyes glowed with surprise. I was offended that my partner would be the one to scold me since I couldn't think he would do it eventually. It caught me off guard, and now there's no turning back. I was curious as to who disclosed that. I was positive that neither my parents nor I were the cause. I realized that the best thing for me to do at that point would be to look into the situation, but I'm not ready for that. I want to lash out at something or someone right now because I'm hurt. He can't say it to me again, I promise. He will pay for what he just did, and now that I think about it, I knew I would be held accountable if I hurt him. I wanted to confront him for what he had said, so I stormed out of my room and headed for the hallway that led to his room, but I later had second thoughts. I quickly left the front of his room and made my way over to the training center. There were pack members present, and they began murmuring amon