NAYA
Everyone gets busily slipping into their seats with their partners. Since the bus has a two seats in each column, assigned partners should seat next to each other and sleep in the same tent for the entire duration of the trip. As of this moment, Mrs. Lee is checking all the students’ attendance right before the bus door.
The sun is out so she has to wear sunglasses, but one thing that has not changed about her is her teacher's uniform. It’s always been a black, knee-length skirt and a white button-up shirt. She looks hot to be a teacher, by the way. There is always be this one teacher that most population in school will admire because how admiring their physical appearance is which I think is Mrs. Lee in our campus. But I think every teacher is admirable in their own ways.
When it’s me and Justin’s turn, I smile at her while Justi
Hi again my lovely friends. :)) I'm back with another Chapter. This time with a rising confession and heated feelings.
A D A MThe bus got an engine problem close to the destination. At first I thought we were heading on a mountain trip, but I’m happy to see the beach location from afar where the bus stands by as the driver is contacting a mechanic to fix it.Mrs. Lee instructed us to walk our way to the destination, since it will take us only ten minutes to get there. She didn’t mention the name of this town, but I am sure it didn’t take more than an hour to arrive here.I wanted so badly to turn the bus around and go home and sleep on my bed for days, but when I caught Naya staring at me as I was pretending I was sleeping, I can’t help but laugh at her reaction. She almost jumps out of her seat as she’s covered in embarrassment. I halfway regretted it because she still is not talking to me. She just turned to the window and ignored as she walked out of the bus the problem announced.She’s w
N A Y ASometimes you want to know the truth without knowing how will your response to it. You just want it. And this is how I feel. I wanted to know so badly what Adam feels about and the words he said about me are the words of truth. And maybe he wants me to hear them without filter without trying to fake his hate. Because I hate him. I hate him for what he said could be true. And I’m close to believing it.When I was running away, I just wanted to go back home. To lock myself in. To keep myself away from the light. Away from the remorseful humiliation in front of everyone. But no, I need to face this all without escaping. But when followed me.Justin followed me, panting, until he sees me sitting on an enormous rock facing the shore. The sun is almost setting.k feel so dramatic sitting here, wiping up my face. I don’t like people seeing me cry. It’s not because I don’t want to be
N A Y AMaybe it is fulfilling for me to make someone feel jealous right across a distance. Because for the first time, I can see how envious Adam looks as I snake my arms around Justin’s as we sit in front of the bonfire. He watches us eat our dinner, which includes pork and beans on our shared plate. Chloe is trying so hard to steal his attention from me. Well, it's not my intention to be an attraction in Adam's eyes, especiallyon this trip, but every time I remember his words earlier, I can’t help but curl toes and bawl my hands closed in anger and pain.Justin feeds me at the same time Adam is feeding Chloe. Maybe he’s enjoying this as much as I do. But it’s different for me. I don’t feel jealou
I watch her fade into the dark. I stop playing the game and follow her instead. At first, I had a brief feeling she was going to kiss me but I'm even more surprised to see the disgust on her face whenher eyes found me. I feltembarrassed in front of her even if she has no way ofremembering this because of her drunkness. It struck me thinking that she would rather kiss him than me, but when she walked awayand went into the dark, it reminded me somehow of what happened earlier when we arrived. It reminded me of the words I cannot take back from that moment. It reminded me of her running away from shame. I need to make it up to her. I just have to. If I won't do anything, she will never be able to know how much a part of me regrets saying those words.
I stare ahead as the morning rises from the mountain beside the ocean. It's such a beautiful sight. Like the sky prepare for agrand entrance for the sun. It looks peaceful and it's quiet here. And I like the soft roaringsound of the waves from a distance. It soothes me from the headache I had when I woke up next to Justin who has nothing but boxers on. Honestly, I didn't mind it. I have seen guys naked before, so it's not a surprise to me at all. He gave me a painkiller and he went back to sleep. Justin just doesn't seem bad at all. I see him more like a friend as of now. I try to go back to the happenings last night but I can't remember a thing. Maybe I won't be drinking again. It just makes me feel foolish the next morning when Idon't know what specific behavior I showed to everyone. At least, I hope I can ask someone to desc
[Play in the background as you read]Hide and Seek - Five Feet Apart SountrackA D A MIt's time to let her go. I'm going to leave her anyway. There's no usefighting my love for Naya. There's no use even if I tell her to wait for me in the future. Justin is there. I'm sure Justin is going togive her the time that I can't give her. I will go backhome andfollow the orders of my mother to marry the girl I am not in love with.And it's okay.After our moment in the library, when I saw Naya and Justin outside, I knew it. I knew she was kissing him back with no hesitation, so I walk away to prevent myself from punching Justin because I have no right to do that.She likes him better than me. All I ever did w
Everyone is cheering on me when I win over Chloe after we played a littlegame in the water. The girls are supposed to fight against the other opponents on their partner's shoulders until they fall. That's when they lose when they fall.My fortune to it is I won,but the way Chloe glares at me right now from a few feet distance is giving me a heartache. I feel her eyes digging into my skin as if it's her only weapon in killing me. This is the moment I kinda hope she's happy for me. OrI hope forsomething else that I want her to feel. But not hate for sure.She stomps away from the water while her friends follow behind her. It was a little brief moment of victory then followed by fading away offriendship.I feel our friendshipfading away this time. It could have been the last few weeks. I just feel her cold. Like
NAYAI feel everyone is staring at us as I pull my lips from Adam. He's staring at me with shock hanging on his face, while I look over our classmates with a confused and diverted reaction on their faces.I don't like this. Nobody would want to be stared at. Or at least I don't like it this way. I feel the heat on my cheeks.I assume everyone would still want to continue the game but I march away from the crowd and head to the campsite. After a few minutes, I find myself sitting on the huge rock I was on when I ran away from Adam the other day. There's a dim light surrounding so everything is not pitch black around me. I listen to the crashing sound of the waves and the whirling whisper of the wind from the distance. I wish I didn't annoy Adam for kissing him without asking permission to do so. It was hard for me to swallow down the shame and forget it. But there could be a thousand thoughts running in his mind after that kiss. He wasn't hesitant but he wasn't also fully into it. I c