Take me to Precinct

“To deny the cry in my soul is to deny the beating in my heart” – Nikki Rosen

Kinuha ko ang payong sa backseat ng kotse. Lumabas ako at binuksan ito. Dahan-dahang naglakad sa park kung saan una kaming nagkakilala. I look around and saw him waiting for me under the lamp post.

Napahinga ako ng malalim at dumiretso papunta sa lalaki.

“Nathan” I mumbled between the sound of the rain. I look at him and saw his eyes full of emotion.

Nanginginig na napahigpit ako ng kapit sa handle ng payong habang nakatayo ilang metro mula sa kinatatayuan nya. I don’t want do this but I couldn’t lie to myself anymore. The moment it happened to me I couldn’t feel the love that I have for him. I didn’t seek his presence and comfort. And maybe it is because all I felt are grief for the one I've lost and indifference for I've become.

“Babe” sambit nito at sinubukan lumapit pero humakbang ako paatras. Sinenyasan sya na wag lumapit.

“I’m sorry if I didn’t let you fight with me. If I pushed you away, for not say