The next morning goes smoothly and drama-free. With Elena no longer constantly on my tail, I can install the devices Seraphina gave me just as she instructed. Going back home to have Elena 2.0—Seraphina— bug me about my incompetence if I don't get the device installed isn't something I want as a welcome-back gift. There is only one device left to be installed and it will be installed in Alpha Henry's study where most of his important meetings take place. Standing in front of Alpha Henry's door, my eyes do a last sweep of the deserted hallway. Though, I don't have to worry about anyone catching me since Dimitri is keeping them busy for five minutes I can't be too sore. Inhaling, I slip into Alpha's Henry study. The room lacks a CCTV camera due to the conversations that are being held here which works in my favor. Swiftly, I cross the room, rounding the central desk nestled against the far wall. I bend down and place the device in the intended location where it cannot be detected.
Contrary to what Elena said, my life has been a far cry from misery. Things have been so good and progressive between me and Dimitri. We are currently at the point where the sex has gotten intimate, our conversations have become something deeper, and I find myself spending more time in the Alphahouse than ever before. After what happened at the Moonstone pack, we have become more drawn to each other though I'm in a state of panic at the thought of opening my heart more to Dimitri. I am scared this will blow up in my face. I'm scared that Dimitri will break me into pieces and shatter my heart into ruins and this time I fear I will never recover. So, I tell myself things are still casual between us because I'm scared to confront the stage Dimitri and I are in. Today is the annual festival of Shadow Pack and in one week, my daughter will be getting her surgery. I'm filled to the brim with excitement. Words cannot describe how much I miss my daughter. I can't wait to see her beautiful
Later in the afternoon as we arrive at the riverside, Dimitri departs with Zarek and Kai to take care of an issue while I find Julianne, Nox, and Wren. Julianne and I had some sort of friendship before but Nox and Wren have slowly become my friend too. When Nox spots me, she says. "Look, the face of someone that has been thoroughly fucked." I blush, my eyes widening. My eyes dart around in search of prying eyes but it's just a few people setting up the riverside. Julianne and Wren laugh beside Nox as I rush to meet them. They are seated at the river's edge, their legs dipped into the water. "Are you insane?" I spank Nox's back playfully when I settle beside her. I don't slip my legs inside the water because of how cold it will surely be. I don't want to be freezing before the event starts. "What? I didn't lie." Nox wiggles her eyebrows. "You look so good and thoroughly fucked." Julianne sighs. "At least one of us isn't miserable." "Speak for yourself." Nox clears her throat.
Shivers of fear still ripple through me hours after I found the dead bodies. Their gaping throats, their dead empty eyes, and their pale blue skin replay in my brain like a neverending loop. Not only I am in a state of disorientation and utter disarray, but Seraphina won't leave me alone. She makes me narrate how it happened and how I came across the dead bodies as if she is trying to drive me crazy which is working. The more I narrate the incident, the more the dead bodies gnaw at me. "So what happened next?" She asks. I swallow against the wave of nausea threatening to drown me. "When I reached out to her, she disappeared into the thin air—." My voice snaps at the end as I glare across the room at Seraphina. She doesn't seem fazed. "So?" She gestures towards me. A frustrated sigh escapes my mouth. *What are you trying to prove? I have fucking told you this story three fucking times? What else did you want?" She sighs as if she can't even fake to care about my distress. "I'm tr
Finally, today is my daughter's surgery. It should make me happy that my daughter will get better soon but I'm in a state of confusion. Since a week ago when the killer put our lives in a state of frenzy on a day that is supposed to be of joy, and sharing goodness and happiness.Shadow pack has been in a state of unrest and I haven't stopped beating myself up to at least get any gleam of the killer's next move. Today should be for my daughter and I should only think about her but as I sit in the waiting room where her surgery is going on, my mind is far away thinking about her safety after the surgery. The pack is not so peaceful right now and I don't want my daughter to be caught between the another crossfire just after she overcome one. A hand goes over my shoulder, jolting me out of my thought. "Hey." Dimitri says. I let out a gasp, almost like of relief. Amongst the darkness, out of the things that has sprout out is Dimitri and I relationship. We have grown stronger and closer
In the wake of six deaths, what I think is a glimmer of hope has darkened into an unimaginable horror yet to come. My head throbs, my knuckles white against the steering wheel as I race down the familiar bend of old Rivers Road. The death has been in a week. To make matters worse, I saw a vision of every single death and despite my certainty that I could change their fate, each attempt to save them slipped out of my hands like water. The burden of seeing their deaths and not being able to save them compounded by the crushing weight of my failure makes me lose a fragment of my sanity with each passing day. I am bridled by the burden of guilt and uselessness. No matter how much Dimitri reminds me that not being about to save them isn't my fault, I'm consumed by the suffocating sense of my own inadequacy, haunted by the fact that I should have done more. I thought if I could get a foresight about the killings, I would be able to save them. But now that I do see how these deat
My mind checks out of what Zarek is rambling beside me the moment my eyes finds Lynexia from across the road, seated in the passenger's seat of my car. The state I find Lynexia when I arrived here was a devastating one and it breaks something inside of me. Watching her break down in my arms is like ripping out my skin. The guilt of bringing her into all this rests like a heavy weight over my shoulder. I more than regret thrusting her into all this. The deaths are taking a toll on her and even though I tell her severally that it isn't her fault, she seems to believe otherwise, thinking it is her burden to bear. Also having a vision about them earlier before the actual incident takes place worsens everything. It makes it easier for her to fall into the vicious cycle of blaming herself anytime a death is recorded.The killings is also driving me crazy. With the barbarians, it was easy to formula strategies against them because they were the obvious enemy but the killer responsible for
My frustration has mounted to the roof four days later. Lynexia is still a shell of herself and it's driving me crazy. The light in her eyes has snuffed out. Worse, I don't know what to do about it. For the past four days, all she has done is take breakfast. She doesn't laugh at my jokes, she doesn't reply to obvious annoying remarks that I intentionally say to piss her off, and she doesn't smile. She just stares at the space and zone out. It's killing me. Anytime I tell her that it isn't her fault, she just snorted at me in disbelief. Letting Lynexia stay at the shadow pack is to win her back not to make her into something else that she isn't. So today, I plan on taking her out even if I have to drag her out of bed or worse, throw her over my shoulder. She can hate me all she wants but my heart can't see her like this for another moment. As I walk out of my room, the first thing I do is check on Lynexia. She is still sleeping so I don't wake her up yet. I make my way to the